New here....On day 10!

[never_again73]

I am on day 10 and starting to feel more human.  Still have pain in the bones and cold sweats.  Been here hundreds of times over the last two years(since my relapse) was clean for 6 years before that, was on a BAD methadone habit.(120 - 40 mg Methadone a week habit)  Feelin good about this time, much more support this time.  don't really know why I am posting this, not sure if anybody really cares. I guess its just therapy.

[Beenerkitty]

congratulations!!!! day 10!!!! im right behind you at day 9! im having a hard time. still irritable-but i got a lot on my plate. keep up the good work
bkitty

[never_again73]

Her support is the main reason I got this far like I said.  But the last time I quit, I was on a SEVERE methadone habit, along with hydrocodone, oxycodone, AND oxycontin. (all prescribed by the same dr. by the way) I quit cold turkey after I lost everything, my wife and my two daughters. I just closed myself up and just SUFFERED it out for like 2 weeks. All alone.  Was told after words by a doctor that I was lucky to still be here, as I did have several seizures several while detoxing. I was clean for 6 years but after 2 bouts with kidney stones and re-injuring my neck I sliped right back into the depths of hell. But was in total denial because (I guess) I was only taking the hydocodone. But O was taking my entired scrip (90 10mg) in a week! And then buying them off the street, "borrowing" them from people,and withdrawing until I could get my scrip filled again.(which was usually 5 days early) A TOTALLY F*CKED cycle! My wife started to threaten me again and I finally woke up and admitted it to EVERYBODY.  Which was really a major relief.  I did feel good afterwards. I lost that feeling of guilt and sneaking out was it was out in the open.  My wife at first was VERY pissed (rightfully so) and said she was gonna leave me. but decided she was gonna help me since this time I asked for help.

[WDsRawful]

try Camomille Tea with the Melatonin - you'll sleep through bombs being dropped.  I swear by it.  

[10356]

Valerian Root also is very good for anxiety Melatonin can be bought in 5mg and 3mg at any walmart or drug store.. I found them both to be very useful in wd.. Glad to see you are posting.. and it is good you tapered as high amounts of Loritabs has been known to cause seizures.. Glad to read of the incredible support and happy your wife is working with you.. I too have been married a long time and could not imagen it any other way...

[LoandTansMom24]

Really? I have heard of Melatonin. Where do you get that from? I KNOW EXACTLY what you are talking about! OMG!! That has ALWAYS been the worst part of wd for me. Laying there in bed, just knowing if you had a pill, you could go to sleep!! I definitely want to try Melatonin. My dad is also going thru the wd from subs right now. He's on day 4, and the wd is REALLY starting to kick in. And of course, I want to help him SO bad.

[never_again73]

I can honestly say that Melatonin has been an absolute LIFE-SAVER!!!  I highly recomend it for the insomnia.  Night time has always been the worst for me.  I couldn't sleep and and could just lay there trapped inside my own head!  And trust me, thats a BAD place to be.  All I could think of was wanting pills so that I could sleep.  And one night I ended up taking 3-4 pills.  the next day when I had to face my mother and explain wy I ended up short, she brought me the Melatonin.  I took 3 mg that night and slept like a baby!!!  Have taken it every night since. (5 days ago)

[never_again73]

Thank you!  This time its Loritabs.  Not as bad as before but still pretty bad.  Was on a 12 to 15 a day habit.(10mg)  Have been weening off them this time(instead of cold turkey like before), with the help from my mother and wife, whom I asked for help this time (very embarrassing as I am a 35 year old man).  I gave her (my mother)my pills and asked her to tally then out to me with the goal of being totally clean in 14 days...she has me at 2 a day now. and since she lives about 30 miles from me makes it very inconvienient to get them.  Which is actually part of the plan.  I lost my wife and kids the first time, and when I got her back I swore I would never do it again.  Which is something I have learned an addict should never do.  And here I am again.  Not as bad but never the less still here again.  At least she has desided to stay this time and has been very supportive, elsewise I am not sure I would be this far....the thought of life without drugs is scary enough in itself but life without her would be devastating. I truelly love her more than life itself. And after 19 yrs of marrage I REALLY dont know how to live without her.

[beatingthis]

Congrads!! 10 days is huge!! Keep up the fight. You are winning!!


Terry

[10356]

Welcome to the forum and congrats on 10 days.. Stick around and you will find even more amazing support and real peps who do care.. never hurts to have as much support as we can get... it is also good to talk to others who have been through what you have.. sounds like you have been frighting the b!tch addiction for awhile.. your knowledge would be valuable to others... as we help others we help ourselves.. and you are right it is good therapy :) We also have a great vitamin regiment.. The Thomas Recipe on the bottom right of the forum.. peps swear by it for energy depression and help with sleep.. I wish you well on your journey.. and again congrats on regaining your Freedom.. lesa

[LoandTansMom24]

CONGRATULATIONS!!!! It is so inspiring to hear that someone is making it!!! What are you coming off of again?? I would love to know details of how you have coped and made it thru the last 10 days. I am about to try to kick the subs and I REALLY need some hope and a refresher on what I can do to help kick them for GOOD!!!