Taking the First step.....what to do ???

[taffy1020]

I have decided that it is time to get my life back!!  I'm sick of being reliant on pills to make me feel "normal" !!  I've been trying to cover up my emotional pain, when I've only been numbing it for years.  I've posted once on here before, and am new to opening up about my addiction.  I've read so many of your stories, and so many of you are so courageous for deciding to take back your life.  I on the other hand am a wimp.  Without knowing it many of you have given me the strength to quit.  I had no idea that there were so many people out there with the same problems as me.  I have spent so much money and time on opiods, it was like a full time job for me.  My husband is fed up with me being gone everynight doing my normal "runs". I miss the way my life was before.  I quit school.  I was going to be a Lawyer, and gave it all up for Drugs.  I have informed my friends, and connections of my decision to quit, many of them tried to  persuade me not to (hmmm, what kind of friends are they really?).  I don't know what to expect since I have never tried to quit before.  I need to do this for me, my kids and my husband.  My Father (who is also a lawyer and very strict) has no idea of my addiction....nor does any of my other family members.  I feel so ashamed, that I never want them to know.  I am scared as hell to go through the W/D's.....I know most of it will be mental, and I'm not sure if i am strong enough.  I am going to do this if it kills me.....I want my life back!!!  Any suggestions on how to make the W/D's any easier??  Thank you everyone!

[maxwell69]

I am doing the reduction thing to, not too fast but plan on a quit day in next week or two and doing a reduction week by week and then none, I think that will make it a little easier in the long run, best of luck and hank in there!

[rsyski]

HI ,
IT SOUNDS LIKE YOUR READY TO BEGIN THE HEALING, I ALSO HAVE BEEN HAUNTED BY THIS DRUG FOR THE LAST 5 YEARS AT LEAST AND I AM ALSO SCARED OF THE UNKNOWN WITHOUT,BUT I HAVE STARTED A REDUCTION YOU CAN TOO, JUST START TODAY  CUTTING BACK, TRY TO TAKE A WEEK OFF TELL EVERYONE YOU HAVE THE FLU. YOU WILL MAKE A BIG STRIDE IN A WEEK TO GET STARTED. WELL YOU HAVE TO START SOMEWHERE REDUCTION IS THE KEY. YOU ARE NOT ALONE

[IBKleen]

Hi Taffy,

So sorry, it seems your post got buried last evening.

You have taken the first step in admitting that you have a problem. It is even a bigger step to admit that you have been using drugs to numb your feelings.

You have a long road ahead of you, a lifetime, but it is doable. So, have you stopped yet, or do you have a plan?  A few days and the physical will be over and then you have to seriously address the mental part of this disease and that is often the hardest part. There is a lot of support here and I hope that you stick around.

Let us know what your plans are and members will help you with it.