8 months clean update

[justlikeyou]

well after 3.5 years of pain meds for my back i quit cold t, 7 months after i was still brutally depressed and non functional, went to a psychiatrist and got some anti depressants, tried cymbalta, effexor xr, and prozac, hated them all, got some 'seroquel' and it allows me to calm down ( i have had bad anxiety / depression etc for months) im starting to feel a little human again, i think much of my problem was that i havent had a decent nights sleep in over 7 months. psychosis is going to happen under those circumstances ( no sleep for months)

my advice to you is quit these pills if you dont need them for pain, i did needed them for pain and i may have permanently damaged my brain even tho the use was legitimate.

being psychotic depressed and acutely anxious for months is about as much fun as punching yourself in the face every 15 seconds.

do yourself a favor, dont risk it, get clean, love your freedom,

happiness is rooted in love,

go 'be' love.

[marcatj]

yeah sweety, i sure do. it really is the worst...

luckily, like most things, it eventually passes.  but boy is it a mother effer to get through...

hang in there, doll... this too, shall pass.

[GoingToMakeIt]

Thanks for sharing your life with us. It is an awful thing to think about what are actions have done to our bodies. I have been on a long, long road to wellness. Marcatj has the right idea w/amino's. I actually would say to try a Natural Dr. They take into account all of what you are and have been. It is a very extensive visit and an ongoing approach to getting well. It does not happen overnite. But, you will reach a point where you look back and realize that you are healthier, happier and more content.

[anotherfinemess1]

I, too, am beginning to wonder if I'll ever feel like my old self again.  I am almost 4 mos opiate-free, and I finally broke down and started an antidepressant (Welbutrin).  If I had known that I would suffer long-term consequences from such mild recreational use of those pills, believe me I would never have started.  Feeling so devoid of ambition, energy, and lust for life is about as much fun as chewing on tin foil!

[justlikeyou]

thanks mj,

i can tell by what you wrote thet you do know where ive been,

feels good to be understood and not alone.

i do believe the brain will heal in time.

the people i respect most say 18 months is normal to recover from long term opiate use,

[marcatj]

ah, wonderful post my friend.  and altho words seem small in this instance, what you have done is amazing...

btw - there was a point i had severe anxiety (and i know that sleep-less psychosis... it's awful) and the depression that accompanies it.  i ended up going to a psychiatrist who specialized in anxiety disorders.  it helped me 110% at the time...

and hopefully you have not permanently damaged your brain.... i imagine it takes some time to fully heal, from everything I have read about PAWS.

(i also swear by the amino's too - i gotta tell ya!)

anyway, kudos again, buddy.  hope every day gets better...

warmly,
mj