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Well here i am day 36 of being clean!!!!! My smiles are real again my laugh is real again i feel great!!! Its amazing to look back on the weeks of getting to this point of all the highs and low my body and mind went thru. I never want to go back to the old days when id open my eyes and hurry up to the pill bottle. Now i feel normal and open my eyes and wanna eat breakfast haha!!! I know now more than ever that everything happens for a reason ( i got caught at work and lost my job). The most important thing you need to get past addiction is support i went to outpatient treatment to get help and attend aa/na meetings. But if it wasnt my for my amazing boyfriend who didnt know i was addicted to pills at the time, if it wasnt for him i dont know what i wouldve done!!! Now there isnt a day that goes by that i dont thank him for sticking by me thru this fight!!! Im one lucky girl!!!! I wish i could reach out more to people on here and help them personally!! Life is great!!! Its even better sober!!! Good luck everyone!!!
When did i start to feel good? Mentally or physically? Mentally ill be honest im going to say week 3-4 weeks i went thru soo many ups and downs one week feeling ok next week feeling worthless but everyone is diiferemt!!
I was my own supplier i was writing my own scripts thats y i lost my job..... If only certain people could be mind readers i dont ever wanna touch them again!!! Makes me sick to my stomach to look back...
I can't wait to be where you are I miss the old me I feel so lost confused with myself n what way to turn about how long before you started to feel ok?
Congratulations on 36 days! Loved your post; lots of gratitude! Enjoy this new way of living! I want to chime in on keeping your guard up. Just know that our addiction gets up an hour earlier than we do every morning and it's always trying to get it's foot in the door again. Aftercare aftercare aftercare! Did I mention aftercare? It's our lifeline to the keeping of the good life :-)
Great Job..Just beware of the Mental waves that might come and go..BUT you can do it. Life can throw you some curve balls so keep your Guard Up at all times..I wish you the best..Support is very important in staying clean.
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I was my own source that was cut off pretty quick maybe thats y its a little easier for me. Honestly i dont want them anymore anyways..!! Its only foward from here!!! The only thing i dont have %100 yet is my energy but its probably cuz of the way im eating. Food taste good again!!! Haha which next week i plan on gettin a blender and making some shakes! I know how to do it guess i just rewarded myself a little!! Just always think bad times make the good times better!!!
What a POSITIVE POST!!! Congrats on your 36 days!!!
You hit the nail on the head MORE than once. Telling your boyfriend and getting support are HUGE! (hope you also cut your sources :)
You said you'd like to reach out and help more people personally here on MH. You certainly CAN do that.....by posting on other's threads, sending notes or PM's of encouragement, and continuing to post your own progess.
Remember, too, that there are many people all around the world really that are reading this forum. Some people read for months and months and never post a word. Then there are some that finally DO and haven't been able to face their fears and give it up yet....some haven't made it to 36 days yet.....or they haven't found the courage to tell their bf/hubby/wife of their secret addictin.....or those that haven't sought any skin on support or ANY form of aftercare and are still trying to do it alone, "their way". ALL those people would benefit from hearing from YOU!!! And helping others HELPS YOU, too! (I just LOVE that about recovery!)
You keep on keepin on.....and remember that in order to keep it....we have to give it away.
You hit the nail on the head MORE than once. Telling your boyfriend and getting support are HUGE! (hope you also cut your sources :)
You said you'd like to reach out and help more people personally here on MH. You certainly CAN do that.....by posting on other's threads, sending notes or PM's of encouragement, and continuing to post your own progess.
Remember, too, that there are many people all around the world really that are reading this forum. Some people read for months and months and never post a word. Then there are some that finally DO and haven't been able to face their fears and give it up yet....some haven't made it to 36 days yet.....or they haven't found the courage to tell their bf/hubby/wife of their secret addictin.....or those that haven't sought any skin on support or ANY form of aftercare and are still trying to do it alone, "their way". ALL those people would benefit from hearing from YOU!!! And helping others HELPS YOU, too! (I just LOVE that about recovery!)
You keep on keepin on.....and remember that in order to keep it....we have to give it away.
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