Addiction - NEED HELP !!

[radioboy74]

I have become addicted to Pain Medication from Lortab to Vicodin to Percocet.  I WANT OFF !  I have no more pain medication, it's all gone.  How do I become the person I want to be - PAIN MEDICATION DRUGE FREE.  I am dead serious, I need help and don't know what way to turn.  If you've been through this give me your insite.

Thank you & God Bless

[susanlea]

Thanks for the kick in the butt.  I don't know what was wrong with me yesterday, maybe the full moon?  I did try you at home last night, twice.  But you were on line, and my cell phone (free long distance) wouldn't stay on.  I will try you tonight after 9.  Re:Mike, he called this morning, said he left his phone and pager at work, that no one ever calls him anyway.  He was ok, always sounds down. Said he doesn't know how he feels about anything, and that he just is exsisting.  Then he called back and said he misdialed.  I ask if he wanted to talk, and he said he wanted to think about it.  He will reach and then withdraw.  It's almost like he wants me to do all the work, just like always.  I am better today.  I talked with my sponser and am going to a meeting tonight (NA).  I have to take it one day at a time.  I had forgotten how hard it was to communicate with him, how he shuts him self off.  He never shows his feelings, can't laugh, can't cry.  Just there.  Any advice would be appreciated.  I don't even know why it's bothering me now.  He was so withdrawn emotionally.  He couldn't and wouldn't want affection, or sex because of the methadone and oxy's.  I know in my heart he is still using.  I doubt seriously he is clean in 2 months.  Oh well, this too shall pass.  Thanks for everything guys, I love you all.  I guess loving an addict is almost as hard as being one.     Susan

[Frank Lee]

Hang in there kip, we'll all keep an angel on our shoulder for you. BTW I would have been glad to keep the oxys for you, aghhhh, to think the public sewer is that high right now :---).

Seriously, you did the right thing. You made a choice between your wife and your drug habit. Keep talking, walking and healing,

FLEE

[skipper]

good people:
i must be nuts. friday night i flushed 84 0xy-c down the toilet.
Thomas don't kill me until i expain, then please do. i have be
taking 2 20mg oxy-c 3 times a day. i've been as close to pain
free as i can ever remember. i've also turned into a jabbering
overly "busy" zipper head. for god's sake it's suppose to be an
opiate, it seems to work me more like desoxyn (d-methamphet.)

what can i say... i felt my wife would leave or the oxy would. i
chose the oxy to go...flush,flush. come to find out, she wasn't
handing me an ultimatem, she was just concerned. sometimes the
"idiot kip" takes the helm and runs the ship up a sandbar.

maybe 2 weeks without will do me some good. only wd i seem to have
had was sweating and dizzy spells, but OH BOY DOES MY NECK HURT!

need you all
keep an angel (not an idiot) on your shoulder!
kip

[skipper]

cindi:
forgive me, in my last post i ment to offer consolation at the
tragic and sensless loss of a friend. words fall like tears into
dusty gardens, where they quickly dry leaveing only the dust.....
the dust blows away...  keep the best and dearest parts of your
depated friend in mind and heart and he will never die completely.
also dear friend, keep the gardens in your heart and mind well
tended.....this may be the reasion you were spared!

[cindi]

I know her,,,and I do know she is concerned...she loves you skipper  very much....good for you,,if the oxy's were making her nervous and you realized what they are doing to you and possibly your mariage then my friend you did the right thing....aren't you going to see a pain specialist?  skip  I don't have to tell you what's right and wrong,,you already know...we're here for you skipper....hang in there  both of you    and no you are not an idiot......love you both   cin

[Milo]

I want you to hang in there during this oxy-free time. You've done it before, so I know you can do it again. Your words to Cindi were poetic. I'm looking for that angel even as we speak -- Little Milo