To Yoda fladdct peete and every1

[chrosty]

I take it back i think today is the worst day of my life i thought i was for sure getting a presciption and doc said no i was not expecting that at all so i was devestated and i spent most of day in bed then when i did finally get up i would be calm then yell then calm then out of control then crying its just bizzare how these pills have such a strong hold on me. i dont think i even knew how bad until now. My huby had a dr appt b/c he is peeing blood and i thought they would give him painpills for pain and i felt like the worst person in the whole wide world cuz they would not give him any and then i threw a  fit i didnt even ask about how it went with the dr. I later found out it could be prostate caner but i was to busy worrying about pills and how could iget them then to care about my husband i mean how messed up is that. WHat kind of person have i become. im a mother and  well anyway u all are so good to me on here that i just wanted to give u an update luv to all Chros

[judgesheart]

OMG!  This sounds just like me.  I get so pissed off when my doctor want give me pain meds for my fake illness LOL!  The nerve of him.  Anyway, I know how you feel.  We only think about the next fix.  It's just the way this monster operates.  He is a huge A**!

Now I'm going to bed for real!

Nite

[Yoda99]

I have been worried about you.  I just said a few moments ago that I was going to bed but when I saw your post, I just had to write.  Hang in there.  You are not a bad person.  We have all done bad or insensitive things all because of the drugs.  I used to steal pills from my husband after he broke his leg, or after he had an operation, etc.  When my dad died, I took all of his pain meds home with me.  My siblings asked what happened to dad's pills, and I said I don't know.
So baby, hang in there.  I'll check on you in the morning.
Love,
Yoda

[rooftrash]

It is ok we all have those feelings or at least had them.You are  NOT a bad person  .You are just dealing with addiction.DONT let guilt overwhelm you.I have so much guilt i would cut my arm off to get rid of the pain.I mean that!

[chrosty]

I like how u call them monsters cuz that is exactly what they are. they turn my life upside down and inside out and now i am out so so scared thank u for ur reply good night Chros

[chrosty]

I like how u call them monsters cuz that is exactly what they are. they turn my life upside down and inside out and now i am out so so scared thank u for ur reply good night Chros

[chrosty]

I like how u call them monsters cuz that is exactly what they are. they turn my life upside down and inside out and now i am out so so scared thank u for ur reply good night Chros

[chrosty]

I like how u call them monsters cuz that is exactly what they are. they turn my life upside down and inside out and now i am out so so scared thank u for ur reply good night Chros

[chrosty]

I like how u call them monsters cuz that is exactly what they are. they turn my life upside down and inside out and now i am out so so scared thank u for ur reply good night Chros

[chrosty]

sorry didnt mean to post that so many times i guess my puter is as fuked up as me lol Yoda i knew u were worried and that is why i posted i saw u on here. ALso every1 elsewho helps me through this. I gotta go to bed but i will be on in the morning and i know i dont have to say this but please someone check on me luv to all and good nite Chros