If everything happens for a reason, I'm searching hard for the reason this detox off oxys has been so hard for me. So many obstacles have been thrown into my way. The initial detox was hard in itself, but then I got the gout in my foot and had to limp or crawl around everywhere, as well as dealing with the excruciating pain. Then, waiting for my foot to get better was out of the question because it just got worse. The gout spread to my other foot and then i became bedridden. I couldn't walk and had to crawl only to go the bathroom and that was dreadful. My ankles swelled up doubling in size, the excruciating pain doubled as well. I stayed the course though, using Tylenol and Ibuprofen only. I had a doctor come out for a house call last thursday and he immediately instructed me to go to the hospital. I was admitted immediately and spent three nights there and I am really saddened to say that they offered me a morphine drip and i accepted. I was at the end of my witts, i didn't do it because i was craving it, i did it because i couldn't take the pain anymore. They pumped me up with heavy anti-inflammatory meds, cared for me like my family couldn't at home and here i am back at home in much better condition and improving. I was told that I may have been mis-diagnosed and what I thought was gout may actually be Rheumatoid Arthritis and now I have to see a specialist, this opens up a whole new can of worms and many questions with it.
I was heading into week three off of oxys when this all happened. My last dose of morphine was Sunday evening. I'm not craving anything because I'm not going back to the hell I called life while I was using. I'm not feeling any WD's and I am taking strong NSAIDS for the lingering pain in my feet. Is two and half days of morphine alot (properly dosed)? Am I outta of the woods with WD? What am I going to do if I have Rheum-Arthritis and this happens again?
This has been one hell of a ride for me and I dont want to do it again, I am staying the course, I'm trying to look forward and I'm trying to take the positives out of this situation and mind you there doesn't seem to be many. I should be enjoying sobriety. I should be walking around now, excersing, playing with my kids, working etc. Instead I'm bedridden and really upset. Thanks in advance.