Hi there...I'm sorry was post was overlooked...
I don't know how much we can help you. We can certainly be here and write to you but you need professional help, as you know.
Can you continue to seek out a new psychiatrist? At least to get a proper evaluation? Even if you have to travel a bit, I think it would be well worth it.
Keep posting...
i tried to discuss with psychiatrist but he doesn't listen, he constantly busy on phone whe i go to see him and after going to the same psychiatrist for more 10 years, in october last year he said i have bpd, untill then he said i have only depression. because of lack of doctors i have to continue with the same doctor who just prescribes medicines. since i have no help whatsoever personally or otherwise i very worried. probably coz of bpd nobody wants to do anything wityh me. secondly coz of long time use of benzo i have symptoms of alcholics. i am taking medication for hypertension
besides antidepressant. i am scared of my mother, sisters, their boyfriends and neices
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