End of Day 3

[4tolive4]

Day 3 ends and Day 4 begins for me in 4 hours. I must say, it's been a wild ride. Today has been the worst, by far, but it's now in the rearview mirror, never to be seen again. I start Day 4 with a great deal of apprehension and hope. It's still a rollarcoaster in terms of my mental state of mind. BUT....clouds do appear to be parting for these few, brief, wonderful moments, allowing me a promising glimse of the sun, alas. The fog lifted a bit towards evening and I actually ate a little bit. Took a hot bath and came to work feeling pretty darn good.

Music is back. Which is to say that I'm listening and enjoying it for the first time in a long time. Isn't it strange what these drugs rob from us? While I'm preoccupied with the high, it invades, cunning and undetected, to relenquish me of my senses - my character - my joys - my small pleasures. It leaves, in it's careless wake, a ruined and desperate soul. MORAL = I want my **** back, dude. LOL

I'm thankful for so many things, right now. I must remind myself that I still have everything i started with. My family is STILL here. My friends are STILL here. My body will mend. My mind will sharpen and clarify. I'm so very lucky to have detected this slippery thief before he took everything from me. So, for those of you who are here and reading this, i urge you to follow so many others on this forum who have already travelled this arduous and frightening path to recovery. They can guide and encourage us - be it with a sharp word or a gentle thought. They know exactly what we're feeling.

We MUST do this. We MUST reclaim that which has been taken. Take the step, see your doctor, develope your plan, go cold turkey, taper, lock yourself in rehab.....whatever. It's high time we took to arms. We have too much to protect not to.

Happy Thanksgiving, everyone.

[jenny8575309]

Wow olive, I wanted to jump out of a window at Day 3.. your doing great, and I commend your ability to see a light at the end of the tunnel of withdrawl induced darkness.   I also like your descriptivness.

[flmagi]

Great post.    I too, didn't realize I had stopped enjoying music. I started to hear the music around day 3 too.

[alexandra fox]

Indeed, very well put - and good on you for getting through day 3, I remember your post from this morning (my morning that is). Enjoy the rainbow moments and take your strength from them - that is how I am getting through the crappy times, remembering that the easier times have made themselves felt, and will continue to do so more and more.

Day 3 in the rearview - we can choose to never have another day 3, ever again, like banana says.

[voiceofreason]

You type well........................I enjoy your words. Thanks.

[alicenwonderlnd]

Well said!!!!  Happy Thanksgiving to you too.  I am about 24 hours ahead of you-  started day 5 last night about 6:00.  Praise God that you still have your family. We are so lucky.