Please help!

[Downwardspiral12363]

I've been doing oxycodone for recreational use for about 6 months. It started out just doing 1 every now an then an now I am full on addicted I've tried to quit once but was clean for 3 days an now I'm right back to it. I have a good job and spend ALL my money on pills. I don't even get high off them anymore I just need them to function especially at work if I don't have some I am worthless. I really wanna quit just don't know how to. I've never been addicted to anything before (besides smoking) and it's terrified me the way this has grabbed ahold of me an won't let go. I know something gotta change please help

[Downwardspiral12363]

Thanks for all the advice guys. I usually do around two 30mg oxys a day..

[GA_need_help]

     Hi, I am in a similar situation.  I've developed a full physiological dependency on an Opiate.  I am tapering down.  It is taking me a long time, and has its challenges.  Some people write that if you taper slowly enough you won't feel the taper.  However, most people who have posted say they cannot trust themselves to taper.  Only you will know what your path is.  
     Mangel gave you very good advice.  I want you to know that the direction you will get as people read your post will be awesome.  Many people have been in our shoes.   I think another question is should you go to rehab or try to detox or taper yourself at this time.  We are here to support you all the time.  Hold on.  We can do this!  Marie

[rnangel]

What dose have you been taking? Opiates are sneaky that way. It does not take long to build a tolerance and be dependent on them to avoid withdrawl symptoms. Day 3 is always the worst day and a vulnerable time to get back on the pills.

You have come to the right place and there are many people here that can lead you in the right direction to recovery.

I would strongly suggest finding a NA or AA meeting. The mutual support you will find there will be invaluable to a life without pills..

Gather all the information you need to prepare for getting off of them. Nutrition, amino acids, and alternate remedies are so helpful in getting you through the initial stages of detox. If you are taking high doses and feel completely powerless to the cravings you may want to consider inpatient rehab. You may need to take a medical leave from work as the detox process usually requires time at home to mend. It would be a good idea to discuss this with your doctor as his suggestions can add to you being able to make an informed decision. The good news is that you have only been using pills for 6 months. Generally the longer you use them and the higher the dose, the more intense withdrawl can be. Regardless, YOU CAN DO THIS!

Break away from your using friends and dealers. Delete numbers and tell people not to call. You can't have any pills in your possession because quitting is not a matter of willpower. You do continue to take pills because you lack willpower. You take pills because the neuropathways in your brain have been tickled by the addiction bug. They have multiplied and favor opiates as a way to feel 'normal'. These changes have happened over time and will return to normal after a period of abstinence. It would be good to think about the situations happening in your life at the time you chose to take pills. You would benefit from counselling and dealing with the underlying stressors that you have been suppressing.

Recovery is a series of behavioral changes. You need to do the work create new patterns of thinking and acting. It is achievable and we are here to support you every step of the way.The most important step now is to go to a meeting and continue to post here. You will get support and advice from people who know an understand what you are dealing with. Hang in there. You are definitely on the right track.