Morning, day 16, beginners ,please read below

[bugsy89735]

Good morning all, Well, day 16 is here, slept rough last night BUT mind is better at the MOMENT! Your mind is definitely in the recovery phase at this juncture!  Well, I cant say I don't think about the pills because that would be a lie,,so I am going to go to some NA meetings, wish me luck all!  Okay, for the various stages of new people aboard, first and foremost, WELCOME and I hope you find this site a way to express your inner feelings and addictions! We are ALL addicts, especially when we surf the web for a site such as this, that is the TRUTH! I have been a failure many times and do live in chronic pain, I am on disability after 4 back surgery's,, fusions and now in need of a total knee.  So, enough about me, what you all need to do is read the posts, there are answers in previous posts that will answer most of your questions! There are people in every phase of recovery, gnarly and Sarah are the old timers with years of sobriety and still contribute to us rookies, but thats the greatness of this site, when your WEAK,write and say so! There are so many answers everywhere and people are in various stages such as  day1, day 5, day30 etc etc etc....Listen, you made it here right,, so your mind is thinking, do the right thing, stay with your decision, don't let the DEVIL rule, speak your mind and we will help and support you, Is this TOUGH,,,,,,YES.....But YOUR TOUGH!!!! Good luck to all of you and I am just looking toward the future and can't wait to reach Sarah's milestone of 1000 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Stay strong,,,,,,,,,,,Peace and love ....Bugz  

[RedskinsMom]

That's awesome!  Day 10 here.  The cravings are back but I'm not giving in.  Congrats!

[gnarly_1]

Hey bugsy congrats on 16 days you 1/2 way to the first mile stone and going strong
im so happy your going to N/A meetings they will help so much with the mental mindscrew of doing this + there will be people to that you can shair with that will understand what your going threw this will greatly increase your chances of success so your being pro active in your recovery thats what it takes....it ok to be shy at your first few meetings and just listen....I have never left a meeting without getting something out of it I wish you all the best in your recovery good luck and God bless.....Gnarly  

[dominosarah]

Thank you bugsy.......I have to work my recovery everyday.  I cant let my guard down for a minute cuz my addict brain would start its games with me.  I live in the now and take it one day at a time, sometimes i take it minute by minute.  Everyone needs to make themselves  the No1 priority and do whatever it takes to stay clean and really live.  My clean time is very sacred to me.       sara

[bugsy89735]

Hey Jessi,,,,yes the thomas recipe does help with some of the mood and fatigue symptoms, but your body will kick and buck for a few days... On the main forum page go down the right hand side to the bottom, there is the amino acid recipe along with the Thomas. I used both and starting to wean off all those pills now, I hope this helps, good luck!!! Peace Bugz

[jrizzy303]

Go to the forum and go to post a question so everyone can answer this out of bugsy question. You will get better results.

[jessicraze]

i hate and love these damn vikes! i need to get off so ill go buy subs and i take a 1/4 a pill a day and they actually work with the withdrawal.  the withdrawal is wut i fear the most.  i have a 2yr old and work a full-time job so withdrawaling just does not fit my lifestyle.  i can be clean off the vikes for one day or two tops and then i start craving the "uppity" feeling they give me... but the irony is that in the end, they actually make me worse.  i drag *** if i overdue it one day.  im only 29 and i do have lumbar spine issues but the damn neurosurg says im too young for the surgery so wth?!? i tried pain management and bluntly stated that i want OFF these damn devil pills!!!!  im prescribed the 7.5/750s four times a day but there are days were i can take up to 15.  how the hell can i get off these??  what is the "thomas recipe?" anyone try that??

[jrizzy303]

Yeah thats awesome 16 days. Your not far from me 27 days today for me. I never thoght I would hit 20 days your almost there. Those one days at a time go pretty fast huh. Thanks for the motivation in your paragraph. The devil was working in my head this week. And we are tough cause we are still holding strong. Keep up the good work. Oh and I know you heard of melatonin. You should try it. I have been getting good sleep. Hope your sleep gets better soon and it will.

[Jammerson1906]

Thank you for the posting...in day 3 and very weak. Chronic back pain also and feeling like I "need" the meds. My mind is a mess and I am sooooo miserable I just want it to end. Thank you for posting. God i hope i can do this...yesterday i thought i could, now today, i am no longer sure.....

[trdofbeingtrd]

SWEEEEEET

Congratulations on this bugsy, just keep going. This is great. You are doing it, you are making it, you will do this :-)