Any words of encouragement?

[PlowBoy36420]

Hey, just going through a bit of a down spell, it's been going for over an hour now. Just reaching out for words of encouragement

[PlowBoy36420]

Thank you Robin,  that's more than I could ask for. It's about the support and staying clean and clear

[NeverAgain127]

Hi PB:  I've been following you, but haven't posted yet; my bad.

I think you're really doing great, and I just wanted to add my voice of support.

Hugs,
-Robin

[Seanimanadict]

Yes it has to put it lightly, but this is a ride I'm ready to get off and stay off

[PlowBoy36420]

You to, always helps knowing others are with me on this (including the ones going through w/D' s) it's been one hellofa ride

[Seanimanadict]

Great job pb, I feel the same way about the people on here they are wonderful. Its great to know people care. In in day 8 from sub's so I'm not far behind ya. Just wanted to say keep up the good fight bro. Sean

[PlowBoy36420]

Thank you,  I love the encouragement I get from this site. I feel as it's family I never had.
I want this to continue everyday.

I'm a bit sleepy today and think a nap wouldn't hurt. We haven't made it to the Y yet but soon as I get this nap I will head that way

[dedicatedtostop]

See!!!! Another great accomplishment on your part!!! You made it through.. Again!!
I have never doubted you! Just know that those days will come here and there. The longer you get in your recovery the less you will have. It's just knowing how to make it through those times!!

Keep up the great work!! I think you already know, but I will tell you again...

I am Proud of you friend!!

[PlowBoy36420]

You all still amaze me, I've never met people who cared so much.  It's almost bringing tears to my eyes because I know in my heart y'all don't have to even read my pain but here you are making comments that keeps my head up.
I'm not going to make a promise on going to N/A just yet but will promise I will have numbers stored on my phone. I saved the link you gave as well. This lady sounds like a real angel to know she cared for y'all, I know she's looking down proudly.

I had a great afternoon,  I did have to stop for some advil and took 2 but soon as I got to the park, I got out and started walking.  I'm a bit stiff in my back and legs are sore but feel like I'm going to sleep very good tonight.
Cody (my son) had brought to my attention the b/c powders I bought yesterday had caffeine in it and I can't have caffeine so I believe I had a bad spell due to that.

Thank you for Keeping up with me these 2 bad days, I really wanted to give up. I'm glad I didn't go to the ER to see what I could get

[dedicatedtostop]

I know!!
I have been thinking about her SO MUCH recently..

She gave me this link back in July... July 10th to be exact. I copied it and pasted it in my notes and use it freely here..

PB,
Here you go buddy

http://www.na.org/meetingsearch/

It was her that PUSHED me into my first meeting. I will never forget that day, I was SO sick but I forced myself to get up and go that night..

[jifmoc]

Doing my best to imagine what our queen, IBKleen would have said. Sigh.

[dedicatedtostop]

Agreed!!

Someone once told me " if it doesn't challenge you, it won't change you "

I never thought I needed NA, until I realized just how much I really needed it!

YOU can do it! You will learn so much about how to cope w getting through these bad days..

I am in your team here, we all are!!
Xoxo

[jifmoc]

I know you are scared to take that step. But nothing changes if nothing changes.

[dedicatedtostop]

Long, slow deep breaths! This " is just a moment "... It's temporary and it WILL PASS!!
I promise you!! I haven't let you down yet have I? Your going to be fine, it's going to pass!!

I tend to stay busy on the weekends but I am here for you and will be checking in on you! Do whatever you must to keep your mind occupied.

~~~~ Big Hugz~~~

Ashley

[BearsFan1966]

That will help you a lot! I had a really bad day Thursday so they happen!

[PlowBoy36420]

Thank you Kari, I needed that more now than ever.
It feels more like day 4 than 11 and for the life of me can't understand why.
Like I said to others "it's just a moment" but this this moment started last night and through today and today being worse.
I'm fixing to go to the park with the kids and pray a walk in. I will give everyone a follow up when we return in a few hours

[BearsFan1966]

Deep breaths! This is the hardest thing you will ever put your mind threw, but know there is a light at the end of the tunnel!  It will lead you to a knew way of thinking and living! One minute, one hour, on day at a time!
xoxo
Kari

[PlowBoy36420]

No aftercare yet, still scared to take that step.
Sorry I'm not much on words of encouragement today, this depression is wanting to kick me while I'm down today and anxiety is on top.
I'm just praying it won't last to much longer,  I know my kids can see it in me

[dedicatedtostop]

Spot on what I was going to say..... God works in Mysterious Ways!!!!

PB... I too had a VERY similar encounter lastnight!! I will save the story for another time but long story short, I got a call from one I my Best friends I had here before I moved, saying she needed to talk and wanted to stop by. She had just came from AA!! Oh my!! While I had an idea, many years ago... I had not a clue it was to the extent is was. I opened up to her on my part too!!!

[BearsFan1966]

Funny how God works! He puts people right where we need them! This has happened to me before. I would start to say I had the flu then for some reason(God maybe!) I would tell them the truth! The truth sets us free! You are doing so good and each day gets better! You will have a few bad days here and there but you are healing.....Time hate that word but time heals all wounds!

[jifmoc]

Hey Plow, sorry if I missed it but did you start aftercare yet? When we let go of the drugs, that is when the work begins: addressing our crazy brains.

[PlowBoy36420]

I hate roller coasters to lol but I'm on this ride to the end... Like I've mentioned before,  my kids and I see others need me to stay off the Tram-Train, I want them to know it can and will be done.
Words of encouragement is what I'm craving more of than pills. I have to admit that talking even to a stranger helped. I had a great conversation with a man this afternoon that is going down the same road of recovery.
When to the park and our children had started playing,  Kaylee had asked how I felt and I told her I was okay (not wanting to spoil their fun because I was feeling "bad")
The man's wife had asked if I had been sick and I started to say yes "that I had the flu" but something inside told me to tell them the real problem.
I did and to my surprise,  the husband said he had just come off cold turkey from trams and was just shy under 2 months.
Long story short, I was hearing myself from the words out of his mouth.
They said that he is feeling fine now and it made me feel better.

Guess the point I'm trying to get at is, there's more people out here that needs help or can help but all we need to do is let go and it will be done

[PlowBoy36420]

It makes me feel good to know I've made a change I'm my time of feeling my worst. It still amazes me that the smallest of words has an impact on others.
Thank God my moment of torture had passed, as I know others will.
It's comments like yours I look forward to that helps me get past them. It's me that should thank you (reminds me of the song "Lean On Me") cause its you I had to lean on.

[dedicatedtostop]

Hey listen to me.... DO NOT feel embarrassed!! There is nothing to be embarrassed about!
Sadly, those what I call " moments " are going to come and go from time to time. But that's just all they are.. Moments! As time goes on, they will become less and less. It's how you deal w those moments that count and you yet again... Overcome it!!

It doesn't matter how long we have under our belts.. It's a rollercoaster, for now anyways, and we all have bad days! It happens and it's completely normal. Please don't ever feel that you have to hold back. As I told you from day 1.... There will always be someone here to get you through.
Remember, we have all been there!!

Keep up the great work!!!
~~ Hugs~~

[GoodOldDays]

PB - I've been reading your posts and envy your commitment and strength. I'm in a bad place right now, but you've given me reason to post again. Posting is my first step to at least vent my disgust towards myself. I know I have a problem but it's possible following your tremendous efforts may have been the trigger to get me going to a better place. Best wishes and keep the momentum!