Aa
Back in detox.
Day two is over and I'm glad. I miss my baby but I know what I have to do this time. Thank you all for the continuous support thru All my mistakes
Lies and stupidity. I can say tho I am proud of myself. I had to shell out more money to come back but it's worth It and we can more
Than afford it. So in saying that I wanted to get opinions. I want to finish this detox facility and move then to a rehab for another
Month. It's closer to my house and my counselor told me they do visitations daily so I can see my baby when ever my husband can bring her. I know deep down its the only way I'll stay sober. I need the counseling and groups and attention from specialists for that extra month. What do u all think of this. My husband says hes so proud of me for wanting that and will support me. It's pricey but I have it saved up. And I think it will be good. But will my daughter remember me not being around? I don't want her to think I've abandoned her. She will be 7 mo when I am back home again :( gosh it hurts to think that but I wana be at my best for her. And right now my brain just wants to use and I know I need that time. Opinions and support would be very nice. Love to you all.
Lies and stupidity. I can say tho I am proud of myself. I had to shell out more money to come back but it's worth It and we can more
Than afford it. So in saying that I wanted to get opinions. I want to finish this detox facility and move then to a rehab for another
Month. It's closer to my house and my counselor told me they do visitations daily so I can see my baby when ever my husband can bring her. I know deep down its the only way I'll stay sober. I need the counseling and groups and attention from specialists for that extra month. What do u all think of this. My husband says hes so proud of me for wanting that and will support me. It's pricey but I have it saved up. And I think it will be good. But will my daughter remember me not being around? I don't want her to think I've abandoned her. She will be 7 mo when I am back home again :( gosh it hurts to think that but I wana be at my best for her. And right now my brain just wants to use and I know I need that time. Opinions and support would be very nice. Love to you all.
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You are right where you need to be so take the time to get better now. Your daughter will always know who her momma is. Dont worry about that. Just focus on your recovery~~sara
Lynn,
I am about at the conclusion that I most likely need to have help overcoming my addiction to Opana, a strong Opiate. However, my daughter is 8 1/2. She was 6 when I away for treatment the first time. She handled it very well at that time. This time my mother can't come down, so I don't have the same peace about her caregiver. I have a friend, who has 2 children, staying with her as compared to my mother the first time. That part is hard! But, I have been obsessed with getting off Opana for the last 6 months, and prior to that I know I probably wasn't fit to be caring for her, being I was on such an intense amount of drugs. Now, I have weaned myself down to 1/4th the dose of Opiates I was previously on. And the other two medications I have quit.
I know the time has come for me to try to live free of Opiates. I want my mind back. I want my peace back. I pray that my pain level off the meds is low enough so that I never have to touch another opiate.
I want you to think of me getting treatment when my child is 6 and 8 when you feel worried about how your daughter will handle it. You won't have to go through what I am if you take care of this now, and work a strong AA or NA program afterwards. That makes for a good life. I am praising God that you can have this.
I pray that God comforts you when you worry about not being with your daughter. I promise you that you are doing the right thing, the best thing for both her and you.
Big hug,
Marie
I am about at the conclusion that I most likely need to have help overcoming my addiction to Opana, a strong Opiate. However, my daughter is 8 1/2. She was 6 when I away for treatment the first time. She handled it very well at that time. This time my mother can't come down, so I don't have the same peace about her caregiver. I have a friend, who has 2 children, staying with her as compared to my mother the first time. That part is hard! But, I have been obsessed with getting off Opana for the last 6 months, and prior to that I know I probably wasn't fit to be caring for her, being I was on such an intense amount of drugs. Now, I have weaned myself down to 1/4th the dose of Opiates I was previously on. And the other two medications I have quit.
I know the time has come for me to try to live free of Opiates. I want my mind back. I want my peace back. I pray that my pain level off the meds is low enough so that I never have to touch another opiate.
I want you to think of me getting treatment when my child is 6 and 8 when you feel worried about how your daughter will handle it. You won't have to go through what I am if you take care of this now, and work a strong AA or NA program afterwards. That makes for a good life. I am praising God that you can have this.
I pray that God comforts you when you worry about not being with your daughter. I promise you that you are doing the right thing, the best thing for both her and you.
Big hug,
Marie
I was thinking about you and was happy to see your post. :) It sounds like you have a great plan in place. I am so glad you went back!
Gnarly I was actually only on 45-60mg but same thing I'll still feel it. And thank you all so very much I will keep in touch and updates for you as much As possible. Please pray for my daughter to make
It thru this transition smoothly. And for me as
Well. Love to you All
It thru this transition smoothly. And for me as
Well. Love to you All
Lynn,
I am so proud of you and happy you are back getting the support that you need. You are investing in your future, and your daughter's future- and while the road may be long...the reward of a healthy whole life is priceless. You can do this. I can hear your clarity and determination and it makes my heart glad. Let go of the past, focus on each moment...Breathe and surrender to the process...Keep making decisions from this loving place and the healing will continue. Your future is bright Lynn, hang on to your faith and your hope...
Sending support and much love,
Lu
I am so proud of you and happy you are back getting the support that you need. You are investing in your future, and your daughter's future- and while the road may be long...the reward of a healthy whole life is priceless. You can do this. I can hear your clarity and determination and it makes my heart glad. Let go of the past, focus on each moment...Breathe and surrender to the process...Keep making decisions from this loving place and the healing will continue. Your future is bright Lynn, hang on to your faith and your hope...
Sending support and much love,
Lu
it took courage to admit you needed to go back.hun, please fight this demon with all you have in you. you are winning this battle over addiction. i am praying for the chains and bondage of addiction to be broken in the name of JESUS.keep the faith.
hugs,hope,prayers,encouragement
debbie
hugs,hope,prayers,encouragement
debbie
LYNN now your thinking strait rehab is a wonderful idea its the best aftercare money can by it will get you rooted on firm gound.....im so happy you went back to the detox this will help out a lot and if you where doing 135mg of methadone your going to feel pritty ruff in a month the rehab willl help with that so Kudos to you girl im praying for you good luck and God bless......Gnarly
I'm proud of you, Lynn. You are absolutely doing the right thing, for you & your baby! A wise person knows their limitations & when to ask for help. Be strong. You CAN do this & we will all be here to support you & celebrate your victory!
you're doing exactly what you need to do. Put everything you have into your
recovery. Your daughter will be infinitely better off for it. So will you. I've been reading about your journey and I admire you for going to any lengths to get and stay clean. GOOD FOR YOU!! Your daughter won't even remember
any of this at her age, and you're absolutely not abandoning her. I would
say the opposite is true. Keep us posted.
recovery. Your daughter will be infinitely better off for it. So will you. I've been reading about your journey and I admire you for going to any lengths to get and stay clean. GOOD FOR YOU!! Your daughter won't even remember
any of this at her age, and you're absolutely not abandoning her. I would
say the opposite is true. Keep us posted.
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