help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Dumbazz]

Well I feel bad or the H addicts but im pretty much there i do OC 80mg about 6 a day and also 6mg xanax i sniff both of them i hate my life im stealing them from my dad  he knows and i buy them there goes the whole check just  to get  a high tthat i loved at 1st for the 1st month or 2 then i started chasing the high which really prolly happend b4 i realized now that i think about it but a year b4 i was addicted to vics 1000mg i used to take 15 to 17 a day yeah what a waste but the upside was i quit for 6 months cold turkey man i thought i was the man then i just smoked alot of weed ALOT which i did smoke just as much as b4dont let me fool u but by then i made it about 9 clean from opiates months and i wanted 2 try X. and i did and the next thing i no was taking X 3 or 4 TIMES A WEEK and taking up to 10 or 12 pills a night i should be dead but i almost did die i got really drunk i took a(which was about the 10th time i took an oc) oc earlier that day which was wearing off so i started to drink and do some coke which i never really did alot of either the drinking or the coke so neway i got drunk as hell cuz the coke and then i woke up at 7am and i stoped drinking at 4am then made the biggest fuk up of my lifei drove 80mph  lost controll and hit a car and went into a tree i  was n a coma for 4 days then rehab a 3days then went home but now i have a dui above my head great just great so what did i do developed postdramatic stress and a severe case of anxiety then i lost my house to the bank and was addicted to OXYs for about 4months by then and now ive been addicted to oc 80mg  for about 15months and my habit has gotten worse and worse im gonna try to cold turkey it here we go ill be back in contact if ne1 has ne questions/comments or can help man  please lemme no easier ways of getting clean besides suboxins. the BIGGEST *******!!!!!!!!!!! of all

[10356]

I agree with everyones comments above. I might add don't drink anymore for when you go to court it can only look favorable on you that you are taking steps to correct your mistakes you also might want to attend AA meetings and get signatures that you have attended so you can show the court, they might be lenient. It also could only help.
I jumped off H about 30 yrs ago yes the wd are Hell but it dose not last for ever, you need to put this chapter of your life behind you. I'm pulling for you just as everyone here is. You can do this. Life is so much simpaler and sweeter  clean, I really want this for you. Post as much as you need You can do this and I;m wishing you the best.
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[Friend999]

Dumbazz, you are not a dumb azz.  Your name could be "addicted", or "trapped", or whatever.  The pills are the demon, not the real you.

My best advise is to spend time on this forum.  Read, ask questions, get to know your enemy (they certainly are not your friend any more).  Get to know your really true friends, the wonderful people on this site.  They will support you!  Read what they have done, what they didn't do, and what choices you should make.

If you really want your life back, that is the best way to start.  It is only the start, with miles to go back out of the road of addiction.

Friend999

[cathy5841]

hi and welcome to the forum.  i too snorted my oc 80's.  and i quit c/t.  it was hard but i am almost 5 monthes clean and life is good.  if you look in the health pages there is the thomas recipe...use it.  it does help also get some epsom salt to soak in.  it replaces the magnesium in your bosy.  and baths can be your best friend.  long hot ones.  also a heating pad is good.  for 1 week i thought and wanted to die.  but then things slowly got better.  sleep was sloe to return.  i took 4 tylenol pm to get any sleep.  you can do this.  i did and i am a big baby. lol  keep posting here.  when the cravings come get on here and post.  please remember that quitting is really the easiest part.  staying clean is the hard.  get you some after care lined up.  na is great.  and most of all exercise.  it helps the brain produce endorphines which it stops doing when we use.  i know i thought they were crazy when i came here and they said that.  i thought i couldnt move.  but, it really helps.  good luck and if you need anything let me know.