withdrawls are horrible

[kimbo999]

I just went through a horrific week detoxing off hydros and today I took 9 pills.Am I going to withdrawl for a week again.I cant brlieve I took them today,Tgey were out of my system.I just was tired of being weak with no energy

[conhall]

I am not sure if you will WD I would be more worried about taking more :/
I Know Wds are hard but you went a whole week w/o them You can do this and yes its hard . What did you do to help get through the week?
i would look into group Therapy NA meetings. Do you have a support system? Also just to make sure you dont slip up again GET RID OF YOUR PILL SOURCE #1 thing to do.
But also i wouldnt dwell on the mess up Just get past it and dont just say well i messed up so I might as well take more.. Stop get rid of pill source. then seek help and support aftercare.
Physical part of this is hard but the mental stuff is a challenge yes sir it is. I get up each day and I am 104 days now and make a choice not to use pills as part of my life anymore. My Life is better w/o them . Somedays its hard still but I just look at my life now and realize how great it is and the future and possibilities are endless.
I hope you think about what i said aftercare Pillsource.
Good luck and keep posting I am pulling for you :)

[IBKleen]

Hi & Welcome,

I don't think you will suffer withdrawal again but you need to get a plan in place to ensure your sobriety. The first thing would be to lose all contacts for pills. And the list goes on.

I wish you the best and hope you stay around here and listen to the members. It's a great place for support.

[candy_17]

Sorry to hear that you chose to do that just for energy. Please know it will take your body time to adjust to getting energy the natural way instead of a quick fix with pills. You didn't become addicted overnight and you can't expect to feel normal and energized so soon. I agree you need to attend meetings and DO NOT pick up no matter what if you're going to be rid of the pills controlling you and your life you must refuse to use again. May I suggest you take vitamins, drink coffee, exercise, drink a energy drink...anything but use. You can do it!! You done it for a week, you can treat everyday as its your first and just do it for one day...everyday. I'm rooting for you!!

[kyle505]

"Tired of being weak with no energy". You are on a merry-go-round. When you use your body becomes dependent on the meds to feel normal. When you detox your body needs time to heal - to regain your natural energy and drive.
You taking meds to feel better is plain foolishness because all you're doing is starting the cycle all over again. You will detox again. Will you take more pills?  If you don't cut your sources and get to a meeting you will continue on the merry go round. You'll relapse . Your choice.

[Here4support]

Chin up, dust yourself off and try again. You know you can do it, you were clean a week. Just keeping putting one in front of the other. Moving forward and don't look back. So what, you messed up, it's part of recovery. Gotta learn amd identify weak moments so you know what to avoid or how to surpass it in the future. Please don't beat yourself up over the slip up. You gotta really want this, so do it.
Kyle, that's rude. "You taking meds to feel better is plain foolishness" pretty sure Con knows what just happened and feels bad enough. They came here for some support, not you reminding them how stupid it was to use again.  They certainly don't need you rubbing salt into their open wound. Can't you just be supportive at any given time without being so harsh?

[Here4support]

My mistake "kimbo" not Con. I read from my phone so I saw Conhall and thought that was original poster. Either way, hope you're doing ok.

[kyle505]

Yep - kimbo knows what happened - knew what would happen but did it anyway. And yes, it is stupid to use again. Being an addict kimbo knows that too. He took 9 pills - that's 9 - because he was weak and had no energy.
He knows - but it didn't matter. I pointed out where he was headed. After taking 9 pills, I don't see how there's a lot of time left to give him one foot in front of the other crap. He was only clean for a week and then relapsed for no good reason, taking a bunch of pills.
We all have our own approach to reaching out. Mine is based on personal heartache and experience. I'm tired of being critized for my efforts. If you want to comment on my post, send me a PM.   You are detracting from kimbo's issue.

[inpain5yr]

Don't beat yourself up. People relapse, they make mistakes. It's called life. Just dust yourself off and start back on the road to recovery. We are here to help and support you but you may need additional resources. And don't listen to the rude and negative posts like kyles. You don't need to be judged, no one on here deserves that no matter what

[kyle505]

Not judging. Not judging. I never judge. Not rude and negative. Trying to get through to someone who could be in serious trouble. Dust yourself off may work in some situations but not this one, IN MY OPINION. I'm tired of the crap.

[vicki595]

Kyle-  Just  offer to hand out candy and kisses to substitute for a handful of pills and I guess that would be acceptable...

THIS IS ABOUT GETTING CLEAN FROM ADDICTION.

It's not Candyland...

[kyle505]

Thanks. I re read my post. Direct, yes. Said he was being foolish. Didn't call him stupid. Amazing how my words are twisted if someone disagrees.
I don't get it. Hate the drama. Tired of it.

[vicki595]

I know. Me too.

What do you say we just leave this rock show...or stay and ignore the two people who can't read very well...

[kyle505]

I'm with you. Time for a break. This week has been difficult.

[vicki595]

It's mostly difficult, Kyle.

Let's go to bed and escape the madness!!  

[kyle505]

You got it.  I'm off.

[daysoffourlives]

Hey look ' the two I mean, you have to accept pros and cons well I don't see anything wrong being direct and straight forward!  Kyle just being straight,  yeah it sound harsh but not rude!  A post are suppose to welcome comments isn't the natural of the story?  I guess it based on how you judge it by adding on negative comment toward Kyle post is still the same as what you say rubbing salt into an open wound,  you're doing the same thing!  Lol!  Please look at your judgement, nobody is perfect and got any scholarship from word phrase here yeah?  You don't like it leave it ignore it but not telling people what to do,  I believe kimbo knows how to take it better,  understand it better knowing that rough tough harsh words might maybe trigger his thoughts a little!  Everyone make decision and mistake,  what is relapse?  I been thru I believe you too so be prepared for nice and bad words from people if you decided to post,  thanks and hopefully it get better for the 2 of you I am with  vicki kyle thought I don't know them at all but they given lots of good comments in my point of view

[otoh]

hey kimbo.. the worst thing you can do is beat yourself up for the slip. Nobody likes to talk about it but, relaspe is part of recovery. you will need to alow yourself the low energy, I'm sorry but that is part of it.  the withdrawals will be a couple extra days . but you are through the worst of it.set your sights and jump back on the wagon. we learn by making mistakes.we're all  rootin for you.

[CATUF]

"I just was tired of being weak with no energy"

story of my life.

each time i got up, dusted myself off and tried again . . . each time more determined not to mess up again.

two two things i  didn't realize : 1) each time the problem had grown a little worse and more difficult to address; and 2) each time my ability to address the problem had become a little less.

the fire kept getting bigger and hotter, but i continued to call only the same fireman who failed to put it out before (me), to try again (and again) . . . each time with a little less stamina and a smaller hose.  hmm, what was i thinking?

another thing i didn't realize was that addiction is a relentlessly progressive disease that, if not arrested, will destroy your life before it kills you.  i didn't understand that at all.  i thought i was just weak and bad.  very weal and very bad.  of course i was neither.  i was just sick and not able to get better by myself.

i  didn't get better until i quit trying to fix it all by myself. it was always bigger than i knew . . . it was bigger than i was capable of knowing.  if i had seen the true picture, i might have sought help sooner.  but i was constitutionally incapable of doing that. it almost killed me, but that's the way it was.  i was unable to stop hiding from help until i was too weak to exert the effort to resist . . .

still, if i had somehow pulled out early, things wouldn't be like they are now and i'm very happy with how things are now.  so, i don't regret the fact that i took it to the brink . . . it's what happened.  it seems like it was supposed to happen.  i'm not only completely at peace with it, i'm grateful for it.

i wonder what you'll do.

CATUF
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[otoh]

great post ! wish I knew how to hit best answer button

[freelysurrendering]

Hang in there... fighting this addiction is and will be the hardest that of your life ...it's a daily battle with it's ups and downs....please don't let the bottom of your barrel be in the bottom of a coffin..9 pills first day back wow...you made it so far I can't say if you will have withdrawals but I can cat it is time to pill up your boot straps and get to work on saving your life...I think that is where  Kyle is coming from he is very passionate ......with that said this is about you , you have to make the decision to take back your life and stop being a prisoner to addiction..... you had energy before pills and you will get it after pills I promise you that.... I'm praying for you so hang in there .....

[vicki595]

I hope you check back, in spite of folks trying to derail your thread this morning...It happens when people are sick and not feeling well...

Have you gotten rid of your sources? That's the first step in being successful with quitting. Let us know what's going on with you today...

[ImDONENoMore]

This happens all the time... let's face it, when we first quit we are SUPER sensitive and defensive as well.  It's normal.  And it happens to all of us.

Now is the time to LISTEN to everyone, hear their stories and experiences because it will help you to understand your addiction and learn as you move forward.  It's all part of the process - the advice given can be hard to take at first but you have to take it.  There's no other way.  You just do.

And kyle, your posts are a g-d-send in this place - you're a straight shooter and call it like you see it.  No BS.  Just the reality of addiction and it needs to be met on with that kind of passion.  vickis right - this is NOT candyland.

[waterLilly7]

Relapsing is the reason why Kyle is so adamant about cutting ties, and he gets a lot of heat for it, because it can't be sugarcoated. We need love, and that comes in more than one form, we need reassurance, and motivation, but we also need tough love when the situation calls for it.
Kyle doesn't want to see people relapse, plain and simple. It is his forte, making people see that there is nothing sweet about it, you MUST get rid of all pills and cut all ties.
Kimbo, I hope you will take this relapse as a lesson and this time get rid of all pills and connections. You can do this, you did a week, you can do it!
The energy thing, liek the other mental symptoms is tough, but if I can do it, anyone can, as I am a huge wuss. I am on day 106 I think it is, and life is new and wonderful.
SOMETHING SCARES ME!!!!! The fact that you took 9 pills after one week of not having any is highly dangerous!!! WHen you dont take pills for a period of time you become less tolerant. If you would have been off the pills for longer those 9 pills may have killed you with an overdose!!

This is another reason we must cut all ties and flush all pills.

You can do this, we are here for you, get back on the path, please, and you will have a new life waiting for you when its over.

hugs,
Lily

[ImDONENoMore]

GREAT point lily.  That kind of dose is extremely dangerous after you've quit and your tolerance becomes lowered.  I'm really glad you brought that to our attention.