Well, here i go, another month has gone by and i've just filled by repeat perscription (120 co-codamol 30/500) i picked them up about 6 hours ago, and im 8 tabs down, and contemplating another 4, my addiction started off the same way as so many others i've read on here, bad injury many years ago resulting in strong painkillers, and i was fine with them for a long long time, but one day, i slipped and hurt my knee in work (knees were the root of the original pain) and i couldn't afford to go home, so i took 3, just to try and get me through the rest of my shift, and i experianced what many will know as a truely fantastic feeling, well from there, to use an old cliche, it was a dark and slippery slope, i was taking 3 a few times a day, just to make work a little more enjoyable, when i would run out, it wouldn't be a problem, no WD symptoms nothing, i would wait untill my next repeat was due, get it filled and go all over again, then i had 2 surgerys on my knees, neither of which has worked, and has left me in considerable pain on a constant basis, but i am still using these painkillers recreationally i guess, i'm up 4 to tabs, quite regular, 20 a day on bad days, when these run out, i find myself going to a chemist and buying the 8/500 strength tablets, (taking 10 a time just to get the "buzz") but i started worrying about the possible liver damage and stuff, so i started doing cold water extractions, which i know is a stupid stupid thing to do, but there we are, im not perfect, my addiction is also causing some tension in my family, my step father whos disabled gets prescribed 100 a month, and as ashamed as i am, i still find myself taking some of his as well, now the whole point of this, is i don't want to go to my doctor and tell him all this, cos im afraid that i wont be given any more pain relief, which is needed, so any advice that can be given would be appreciated, thanks for your time, and sorry for rambling