getting ready to give up pain meds

[gumybear]

This is my first post. I'm beginning my second attempt at quitting hydrocodone and I wanted to join this community. I read posts during my detox in the spring and found it very helpful to know others were going through the same. It also helped me realize what to expect. My live-in boyfriend was extremely supportive too, but he doesn't know I've relapsed. I just can't tell him. So much shame. But it's also going to be very hard to go through this without his direct support and without telling him.

I have started weaning from @10 pills a day to 3. I'm going to stay here for a little while, if I can.

[bighugs]

OK. I'm currently being tappered off of the Oxycontin.  It's so hard. I'm also taking Norco 10's. Those are next to go.  I went to see a pain doctor a few years ago and they loaded me up, I guess thats why they call them pain doctors.  Anywayz, just looking for some support.  And anything I can do to help others.  Good Luck all!!

[terra777]

i have been on hidro 10 S for about 2 years and i want so so badly to quit i lie in bed at night thinking i use to not have to have a pill to makr it trough the day i just want to be me agien i have tryed to stop once before i hate the with draw it ***** hot flashes you hurt all over if only there where no with draws i think i could do this i just need to see a doc.. for something to help???  oh ya i use to be on  Xanax and stoped but i wasent stoped for long i have realy bad aniety i just want to be me with no pills i think this is who i have become .. will i ever be my self agien

[gipsee]

I wish I had the will power to taper...and personally getting ativan or xanax to help is just trading one addiction for possibly yet another one.

I read these post and each and every one of them sounds like me.  I feel like ****.     I'm going through Xanax withdrawl just because I haven't increased the prescribed amount.   I just learned that the other day... when the body craves MORE...you get all the symptoms anyone else suffers from withdrawl.  I'm doing 2mg a day....if I do use them to get off the hydro's... then what...

My D day is Thursday....I'm going cold Turkey....I'll feel horrible for a while I know this... but I'm armed with some Vits and I'm just going to do it, and pray for the best.  I really don't have a problem with getting this stuff.. my Dr. gives me a 3 x renewal 100 at a time for the Vicodin...I'm wondering how many more people she is as liberal with.   I do have arthritis...and the Vics after long term use do make one anxious... so there I was with another script for Xanax....just to help me sleep.  Now taking them doesn't make me sleep all night... I'm up anyway....

I'm just praying... really praying that I can keep my resolve.

Wishing you all the best... and luck has nothing to do with this...so I will wish everyone an angel on their shoulder.

Gipp

[Suze_C45]

I am concerned because I am on 7.5 (I believe it is) Hydrocodone for severe arthritis in lower back- also added with Ultram 50 mg. try to do only 2-3 per day... the Hydrocodone is prescribed-am taking it as prescribed...
For 5 yrs. nothing for pain-then one dr. prescribed the ultram, not quite doing the trick- but took the edge off.
Percosets were given to me to help with the pain- since moving to a new state with rocky terrain,and uneven ground- walking is harder, and with arthritis basically from lower back down- So much relief of pain after 7 yrs. is definitely a bonus-
but I don't want to have an addiction to any of it.
I lay out the pills per day,one day a time- the others being locked up- with me having the only key- due to extenuating circumstances in my home.

Any suggestions? I even try to get by on less than the 3 per day. Is this good?

[gsmith4489]

I know exactly how you feel and we are in the exact same boat

I detoxed 2 years ago and had some support from my wife and family but it was too much for my wife.  I relapsed and I jsut can't tell her.  I don't think she could handle it and I don't think I could handle her not handling it.

I was up 12 or more per day and have been dropping over the last three months and am now down to 4/day but not because of my will power but because my supplies have been drying up.

I have found and read that you want to taper very slowly.  No more then a 10% reduction every other day to three days.  I have been trying to do that and it is bearable but not fun.

Hang in there gumybear and lets support each other.  My MSN is ***@**** if you want to talk directly for support.

[WolfKwe]

Oh, I forgot to say....as the post above me.  I think you should be honest with your boyfriend.  If he supported and stayed with you the first time, I think he would do that again.  Good luck be strong.

[WolfKwe]

Hi.  Funny how those pills will make us lie and be so sneaky to the people we love hay.  I was the same way, but came clean about getting off and he supported me and kept telling me how proud he was of me.  I didn't the first week when he was out of town, also did it while continuting to work my 40 hr a week job and raise my 7 year old grand daughter.  I thought I was going to give up more than once, but after I got through each day I just wanted to badly to keep going.  I did 2-4 vicodin a day whatever milligram I happen to have had, if they were only the 5's I would do two at a time.  Not much in my mind after reading most of these posts, but the length of time I was doing them shocked me when I really figured it out. It was like 8 years.  I went cold turkey and lived through it.  I'm at 32 days today taking my last 7.5 on that last Monday morning.  I have sense told 1/2 of a 7/5 about a week ago and it didn't do anything to me.  I still dream of them, and did again last night.  When I begin to feel weak, I come back here and read about how much hurt and hope there is on this website.  My son came to be crying for treatment last night - he is addicted to prescription drugs I'm guessing whatever kind he can get.  A couple years ago he ad a bad addiction to oxy contin - took his girlfriend going to prison over them to quit.  Now it is starting all over again.  I pray for him, me and all of us.  Be strong you can do it!