Can recovery from addiction become an addiction?

[Vicqueennomore]

Can recovery from addiction become an addiction? I feel as though I am consuming myself with trying to recover?

[4mygirls]

Hello everyone,  I have been reading this forum for about 2 weeks now.  I realized about a month ago that I am addicted to Hydro.  I depend on it.  And days like today,  Two days without it.  I feel like ****,  and still part of my mind tells me that I don't want or need it anymore.  And the other part is telling run to the Doctor now.  I never in my life thought I would get addicted to painpills (I fooled myself).  Anyway,  when I realized that I had a problem,  I take about 8-12 Lortab 10's in a 24 hour period.  Realizeing I had a problem scared me so bad.  I have three little girls that I need to take care of and they need me.  But what scares me the most is that in may of 2002 I had and Aunt pass away from oxy And some other drugs she had taken.  But I do know the main drug was OXY.  I have taken OXY once I found out what it was and heard so many stories about it I have never touched it again.  But the Lortab is bad enough,  you get a tolerance to that and you move to something stronger.  I need help and a whole lot of prayers to get me through this.  I ask God everyday to hold my handand lead me through life the right way.  I guess somewhere down that road of life I let go of his hand.  But I have my grasp on it now and I don't ever want to let go again.  I need to get clean for my girls but most of all for me.
         Thank you all for your enspireing words.  They have helped alot.  And I can use more hands to hold to help me get through this.  You can email me at ***@****

[Vicqueennomore]

Sorry, I just noticed you posted to me earlier. I am kind of in a fog but not drug induced, sinus induced. Thank you for being concerned and your prays, they are helping please continue them as I will with you and everyone else, especially the ones we've come to depend on that are being banned from the forum.
Freedom of speech is the american way isn't it? Shouldn't being on this forum and sharing feelings be the utmost concern when it is truely helping others cuz I know b'belt has helped me probabley more than he realizes...pity things like this happen to good people.
Again, thanks for the kind words and the prays...
Tammy

[Vicqueennomore]

Good for you!!! Wow, what would I do in that situation, not sure if I could be that strong, maybe...cuz the way I felt during detox will haunt me for quite sometime and will probabley be what keeps me from returning to the evil. I have had lung diseases in the past, pluericy and pnemonia and I have a feeling I have something again but fear that it may be the addict in me "overreacting" to my symptoms. Will wait another day or 2 to see if I get an apetite or worse symtoms. How long can one go without eating? I have been nursing a glass or 2 of orange juice for the last 4 days with no food intake.
Linda, I am proud of you...the cravings are worse when you know how close you are to the evil, it just makes you that much stronger when you know you have defeated that craving!!!
Tammy

[BLUE501]

I'm sorry to hear your not feeling well. Congrats on 22. Today is day9 for me. Yesterday I was REALLY tested. The morning was great but then I got home from work to find to "friends" at my house who I know use oxycontin and like to sell them to me. I finally just told them the truth and asked them to leave. It was HARD!!!! Then, two minutes after they leave the phone rings and its someone ELSE wanting to get rid of stuff. I was like, this must be a test! My cravings were out of control. I just stopped answering the phone, and went and picked up my kid. I didn't sleep real good. But hey, Today is day 9 NOT day 1. Thank god.

be safe
linda

[J. E. W.]

Hope your feeling better hon. I was wondering where you went.I didnt know if that computer virus got you or what. It was a human virus instead..Congrates on day 22. Keep up the good work my friend.. Ill be praying for you to feel better..                      J.E.W.

[Vicqueennomore]

Hi Linda..
It is taking everything I have to type this right now. I got HIT big time with a flu/cold and I haven't eaten since Fri nite, every waking moment is a really, really bah headache. Boy, am I being tested and so is my relationship....My BF just went thru a week and a half of "flu like" symptoms with me now I am really and truely sick. Satan really wants me back doesn't he? I was just feeling really, really good and the very next day this hits me.
I have to say I am still clean...DAY 22!!!
Unless OTC cold meds don't count.
Thank you for checking on me, it really means alot to me..
How are you doing??