Where is everyone... Its 830pm

[FLaddict]

Just wondering. I figured everyone would b chatting up a storm since no one could ALL DAY.

[nefesh]

check the little ramble I just wrote you below... how in heck tarnation are ye?? what you feeling like about now??  all the best!     Nefesh

[FLaddict]

I am ok. I feel stupid for taking that vicodin earlier. It was like 5 hours ago but.. the other part of my brain said " what a waste of a perfectly good vicodin" I was already feeling bad so it didn't help as much as I hoped. As always, "expectations are premeditated resentments"

[nefesh]

yeah, just skip grasping at straws... everyone with experience seems to say that the ole "just one pill to take the edge off" is only sleight of mind, a ruse as it were...  you can do it!!  we can do it!!!

[FLaddict]

How are you feeling??

[nefesh]

not too bad... sore and achy esp. in the back, but nuthin' to write home about... yet... I just took another 5 mg valium, vit.b complex and some melatonin for good measure... but it's only been 15.5 hours for me - I expect the fun will really start in the morning... if I can only hang on to my mind, please Heaven...  How you???

[FLaddict]

not that bad.. same as you. sore and achy. The anxiety is what is bad right now. I have to work tommorrow so that freaks me out. I don't know if you are familiar with the Hyland's restless leg tabs but if you are when is a good time to take them. Before I get the jumps or when I get them?

[nefesh]

I don't have the Hylands tabs... would imagine that it'd be a good idea to take them before (it's easier to keep the load from falling off the mule when it's slipping, then to pick the whole dang thing up off the ground and reload after it falls...)  I admire your raw courage and guts to go to work tomorrow... I don't know if I'll be able to face the guy at the grocery store or the woman on the street... much less deal with work responsibilities, relationships etc... unless I'm in for a very pleasant surprise, these next few days are gonna be a far cry from "normal"...  Good Luck!!  You're brave, very courageous!!

[FLaddict]

yeah I gotta go be a hairdresser tomorrow. what i wouldn't give to have a office job. Standing, talking, holding sharp things. Sounds like a blast. If i could take 3 days off I would or if I was smart I would have started ct on Saturday.

[nefesh]

if you gotta do it, you'll be ok... there's nothing that can stand before your Will... I just just tried to sleep a little, rolled around a while before giving it up and taking another 5mg val... so I'll hopefully catch a few hours shuteye... soonz as I'm in any state of consciousness I'll check back in here... I'm sorry for you that all your friends don't seem to be around here right now... maybe they thought it'd take longer to get the site back up... ultimately c/t's like any other major life undertaking - a fairly lonely proposition... did you say something about nose running away?  mine seems to be getting into the action, too...  you eating anything?  make sure to drink enough...what are you using to sleep?  I reckon if we was movie stars we'd be surrounded by doctors, masseurs, jacuzzis, counselors, gourmet health food, designer meds... the Works!  but you know, we're the lucky ones, with all the toughing it out and suffering... you and all the folks here have something that far greater than illusory fame or fortune... honesty, real guts, humility, when-the-chips-are-down caring and helping and loving for real people, the quiet heroes and warriors whom I've come to know and admire so greatly on this site...  you're one sterling example...  Godspeed!                L,  Nefesh

[FLaddict]

yeah it sure is quiet around here tonight. i am already on Trazodone so that helps me sleep under normal circumstances, if it doesn't work I am gonna add a xanax to the mix. been drinking water all day. ate a little. yeah a bit of a runny nose. hope you rest well