once again im in this mess just broke down to my wife

[chuggy]

once again im in this mess in drug addiction i just plucked up the strength to tell my wife that iv been abuseing
painkillers for thow of you who might have spoke to me before yes im here again its been a fair few months since
i started but i just cant do this anymore im very very sick iv been takein 10 to 15 100mg tramadol aday along with the same amout of dihydracodine everyday for months iv now got non left i need to stop but as you can imagen im really dam sick and in alot of pain my wife is so mad she wants to be supportive but we have a baby boy and thats wot she needs to be doin man im in tears right now i cant blev i did this to myself again and this is the worsed its ever been this is the first 24 hours and im already feeling really really ****** sick i dont no wot to do :'(

[chuggy]

ok im back been shakein had the runns allday but feelin better funny anuff witch im very suprised about considering wot i have been taken the passt wile.. hope its not one of them you feel better right before you die things :-S jimmy thnx for the friend Request and the rest of you and  your support i love this place.. :)

[Jimmy1975]

I agree with Sara Chug , You need to be very careful coming off that amount . You might want to seek medical advice . Don't roll the dice man for one thing your blood pressure might be very high ! A good MD is not going to pass judgement on you he is just going to help you recover .. Take care ..Jimmy

[dominosarah]

chuggy, you be very careful with this detox as you know the trams needed to be tapered down.  Are you keeping anything down?  Dont let yourself get dehydrated.  Do you have any of those pedialyte popsicles?  Have your wife get some of those for you.  You know there is a risk of seizures too right?  Keep us posted on how you are doing.  Lets make this the last detox you go thru okay?       sara

[klare_delune]

Don't think about then, think about now. If l beat myself up about how freaking stupid, deceitful, suck at life I've been I wouldn't be able to even try to clean up and change. just know that the past is an example of what you dont want to be and focus on changing your situation from this moment on. I know I will probably be at breaking point by tomorrow afternoon. When I'm at my worst and absolutely have to tell him I will. I plan on coming clean soon anyway just want to try to get through the worst first.

[chuggy]

again thank you so much i love this place everyone there eveyone wants to help all in the same boat.. as for tellin my wife i just broke down i feel so ill im shakein sick the lot and im not about to claim flu as this looks worse im all gray in complection man i really hope this is the last time i do this to myself feel very stupid i mean 600mg of tramadol and 390mg of dihydrocodine a day wtf was i thinkin!

[klare_delune]

me too, 30 hrs in CT, my first attempt to kick 150mg daily OC's, Haven't come clean to the hubby yet cuz I'm too scared. I know he knows but I'm just trying to soldier through without added confrontation and anxiety. I have 2 girls, one 9, one 2 so I have to cope withe the wd's as best I can. stay strong. I keep telling myself it will be a looong week or 2 but by next month we'll hopefully feel better physically. I'm going to seek aftercare, probably a good idea for you too since you have a family.I wish you the best.

[chuggy]

thank you so much she a good woman shes there for me just feel realy bad im goin to put her through this man this is the worst iv ever felt im shakein its comein out of everywere sorry dont mean to share all lol im goin to get the thomas recipe not sure wot it is but hope it works thnx

[Jimmy1975]

Hi Chug and welcome back ! I know you're going threw a lot right now but you can do this like before . Lets pray for a different outcome in the longterm ! I'm sure since your wife and you have a baby she will help you no matter how mad she might be . Go to the health boards and get The Thomas Recipe and prepare yourself for a few rough days . This time seek after care . It took me 4 times myself so don't feel so bad . Relapse is part of recovery and we have all been there . Stay on the forums for support and let us know your progress . We are here for you ! Good luck !  Jimmy

[chuggy]

anyone :''(