So I'm 28 days clean from Norcos and while my cravings or even thoughts of the drug have basically left the building, a new issue has come up for me....I feel extremely fatigued and am having a really hard time focusing on work or other daily tasks. I just "can't" get myself to finish the laundry or take my kid for a walk. My mood is good overall, as I am and have been on Celexa since August. I recently increased my dosage from 20mg to 30 mg at my psychiatrist's suggestion and the "depressive funk" I found myself in a few weeks ago has lifted. This isn't depression so much as a lack of motivation/energy. Also, when reading a sentence sometimes I stare at it, re-read it, then still couldn't tell you what I've just read a minute later. In high school, many teachers suggested that I might have ADD. I have a very high IQ but would have trouble finishing (or starting) projects. I blamed it on the fact that I was a procrastinator and by the time I got to college, I had discovered vicodin. The pills not only chilled me out but simultaneously stimulated me. I never noticed an issues with focusing or concentrating ever since because I've been on those pills ever since (until 28 days ago)!!
I called my psychiatrist and explained exactly what I'm telling you all here and he replied "this doesn't sound like an emergency. We should just talk about this the next time we're scheduled to meet (in 2 weeks), although I doubt I'll do anything like prescribe you any stimulants." On the one hand, I was shocked. I didn't actually call him with the intention of getting a prescription for Ritalin or Aderal (in fact, I hate those drugs...they make me feel awful!). But in my mind, this IS an emergency! I am in school full-time (online, which is very challenging), while at home raising my young daughter by myself. The financial aid that I get for going to school and the (very little) child support that I receive for my daughter, is what I live on. If I can't focus on my schoolwork, that's the equivalent of me not being able to do my job. I don't know if the lack of focus and the general malaise are connected and I don't really know if any of this connected to my recent sobriety BUT I know that if I had some norcos right now, I'd be cooking/cleaning/doing laundry/playing with my kid w/high energy, while doing homework and watching the State of the Union Address....ALL AT ONCE!!
I know that the sense of having it all together, even the feeling of immense energy while on norcos is FALSE.....but I'm starting to feel desperate when my own psychiatrist blows me off and I can't think of a way to re-gain my energy or focus. Any thoughts would be appreciated.
Anne :)
I think maybe when we abuse drugs it affects how we absorb nutrients from food - and also we probably neglet our diet - which is why when you go to a detox they automatically give you a vitamin B injection - because just about everyone there is vitamin deficient.
Good Luck.