glad I found you all

[Macky1980]

I'm new here,  but have been reading posts for awhile today & want to say how much you all already mean to me. It's nice to know that I'm not alone in this. I do have a question but you should first know that I've been clean and sober since Oct. 17 (almost 60 days). For the last 4 years I've been addicted to a combo of roxys and soboxone. I tried coming off Rs after the first two years with subs, but had no idea that they were just as bad as far as addictions go. At least for me, so I'd go back and forth taking whatever I could find at the time. Never had one sober day in those 4 years. Anyway, when I got through the first week of sobriety I moved to the town my folks live in and into their apt to get away from all the temptations and old "friends". Now I'm sitting here every day just waiting for my brains chemicals to get back to normal so I can do the same. My question is if the wait is actually hurting more than helping?

[VICourageous]

Hi Macky..Good advice from my MH Friends above..All that you said is just part of the process. My detox coming off of three meds at once was a bit different then some..There is so much that plays here..How many years of using and how much a day, how old you are, how you health is, and the more you do for yourself to heal..Like some kind of Exercising and Diet and Vit/Min to help the Brain/Body heal.. I went through many stages for 6 months and then the Emotional until a little after a Year. Not Bad Emotionally just all the things that have been coming down in my life right now..I am a Long time user and I am over 50. SO I did more damage then someone who has used for a short time.. We have to learn to deal with life with out running to something and Life will throw many things at you. My First 3months, I kept my Mind re-directed and then when I hit the No-Motivation and the Weak that was the worse. I just had to take things in Baby steps to get things done. Each time I got the smallest thing done, I would look at it and be so proud I did this clean & sober. The reason why walking or any kind of exercise is good becasue it helps jump start the Chems and Transmitters and so on and so forth in the brain/body. This will help you balance back a bit faster. SO if you can push your self you will feel so proud about it and meanwhile while doing it, it keeps your mind busy and off of the the "Detox Thinking". I always say on here that TIME is the Greatest Healer in Detoxing..The detox part is the easy part (hard) But working your life to stay clean is where it all begins..Just stay in-tune with your self and keep your Guard up at all times. By being in-tune I mean if you are experiencing something new just know this is all part of Healing and it does take time..We did not get hooked over night, but we can heal faster then when we got hooked. I wish you the best and just vent away and let us know how you are feeling..God be with and make sure you do SURRENDER to the process..try not to fight it..This here will pass.
Bless

[Kbusymom]

Glad you are here and welcome!!  Congrats on your clean time too.  I would have to say Ditto on the advice you've gotten, we've all either been there or are still there.
I am almost 60 days too and I haven't been able to exercise either.  Every day I tell myself I'm going to do it and then I don't.  Progress, not perfection, right :)

[ariley13]

Whine , vent, and b*tch away! ;) It really helps sometimes. We are here to listen.

[Macky1980]

I've been thinking about exercising for a while now but that's as far as I've gotten. And believe it or not I am trying to think positive but it doesn't seem to be over taking the pity. It's just nice to hear that other people have been through it already and don't mind sharing your advice. I am listening, even though I'm still wining about myself.

[digger1976]

"My confidence, motivation, and self-esteem are gone which is nothing like me" this is very normal Macky. These can be the last things to return, it's not nice I know but given enough time it will come back. Try a Magnesium supplement combined with a good Vitamin B complex, this can help with energy levels. Positive thought will help too, you could try some breathing exercises or even meditation if you can get into that. As I mentioned above exercise is great, if you combine that with eating healthy you'll feel much stronger. Now for me to follow my own advice, lol. I'll tell you how it goes, lol. ;)

[Macky1980]

I'm not real sure of anything rightnow except that I never want another pain pill. Ever. My current problems are that I'm 33 with no job and no motivation to get one. I know I need to get my act together but even being around people seems more than I can handle. I've went to church with my brother and his family a couple times but I feel completely out of place. My confidence, motivation, and self-esteem are gone which is nothing like me. Even typing this message is taking forever. He tells me that I'm over thinking everything and I would say that's accurate. I'll post again in a few when I read over what else was said. I forget. Thanks again everyone

[digger1976]

Congrats on those 60 hard won days my friend, truly! You've done the hardest bit, or one of the hardest bits by getting yourself off drugs and placing yourself somewhere you can be patient, well done! My answer to your question would be, you'll know in your heart when you should be pushing yourself more, the fact you came searching for the answer might be the answer in itself! Just remember stress is a trigger, so be patient, 60 days is great but in the grand scheme of things it's still very early. My first 90 days were tough, I can relate, Subs suck, lol. I agree with above, try getting involved with some form of aftercare, it will help you! i would suggest trying to set up some form of an exercise routing, to help kick start your dopamine levels, always a good place to start. Be proud and be safe my friend, ;)

[tooter212]

Oh forgot to tell you, I'm only 3 days ahead of you. Just think of the great Christmas present your giving yourself and your family Don't get any better than that.

[tooter212]

Hi Macky and welcome. If I was able to walk and stand on my feet the first month I'd been a whole lot better off. My feet are better now so I'm doing more and thinking about myself less. I went through a few days of feeling sorry for myself just the other day lasted till yesterday. Been told to expect that. But the busier I am the less I'm aware of the pain. I'm not the bubbly lady I used to yet but I'm working on it. Just keep posting and God Bless you

[toothfairie]

Hi and welcome!!  congrats on your clean time!  I'm not really sure what you're asking about the waiting part??  can you explain a little more so we can help??