DAY #10 and the dreams

[eliminnopee]

     Here I am a week and a half into the rest of my life and I can say I am really srarting to feel better.  A lot of the tension in my body is easing and my cravings are starting to turn into hate for my doc.  I wish I could turn up the pace on the clock, just for the next week or so.  Oh yeah, dreams are back, but they are horrible.  Dreaming about the meds and even thinking I am feeling high in my dreams, it truly is amazing what your brain can do when it wants something.  Has anyone else experienced that?  Also dreamed I was going to the drag races and to get there I had to wait in line through a junk yard.  While waiting I spotted an old 70's Ford Bronco for $1,700.00 and bought it for $70.00 it ran fine and I had my ex-gf drive it home.  Wierd right? anyway pray for me as I will for you all again today and tonight.

[NautyOne]

I don't no, but, although i watch the show occasionally, the guy creeps me out and is a dork, but I just kept having the dreams......over and over.......dunno?  It only happen when I was taking seroquel for sleep.  No more of those for me.  Bye, Bye Freak Angel.......lol

Nauty............

[eliminnopee]

lol, you must have a subconcious crush on the guy!

[NautyOne]

I kept having wild ...um.....sex dreams with the mindfreak guy Chris Angel......yuck!

Nauty............

[eliminnopee]

   Hello,  I understand how you feel about the methadone.  It worked for me for a while (80mgs dly).  I began to notice my personality changing... what I mean is simple things I wouldn't do or say before I found myself doing and saying.  I would have a bad feeling in my stomach, I could even feel my metabolism getting off pace.  I too have a great career, but I would have more bad days than good, the drug made me cranky and I was a bit of a ***** to people who asked questions just because they needed an answer.  Even though I didn't know it at the time, as you may not know if it is, my whole attitude was bad.  I began to become more negative toward everyday activities and social atmosphere in general.  I went down from 80 to 60, then to 40 and next to 20.Stayed there for a while then I (I don't recommend self medicating, but if it's the only option do it right!) obtained 6 - 8mg tablets of suboxone.  Waited 2 days with no methadone then started with half of a sub (4mgs) 1 time a day for 4 days, then went to 2mgs for 3 days.   I have about 3 subs left, but I just quit taking them 2 days ago.  No real bad withdrawals... sleeplessness, (did I spell that right?),  funny stomach, mild headache,  tense muscles.  All very, very mild compared to when I cold turkied hydros about 2 yrs ago (8 -10 10mgs a day) that was horrible.  Anyway you would not believe the difference in your overall attitude about life when this stuff is not in your system!  Hope this helped... if you have any other questions please ask!

                                                      Friendly,
                                            
                                                              El

[IBKleen]

I know this is someone's post (it would be a good idea for you to make a new post with what you typed here, it is interesting), in any case, I will ask quickly: You said you never met anyone who's past addiction history is similar to yours? I am curious what you meant by that? Again, let's start a new post, if you would like.....

[victoria1667]

Hi, I read your post and I, too, chose to go the methadone route after 15 norco's (10/325) a day no longer did the trick and i was afraid of all the tylenol i was consuming.  I could no longer feel "high" I just needed them to function daily. I have been on  methadone for 9 months at 100mgs. I don't know what i''m going to do, maybe nothing, for it has worked so far. I have not missed any work, i'm excited about my career choice again and making more money than i ever thought i could.  What made you decide to quit?  How much methadone were you on and how long?  Sorry so many questions, but I have yet to find anyone here who's past addiction history is similar to mine.

Thanks in advance for any advice you can offer :) Victoria

[jossysmom]

Strangely enough, I had a dream last night about Beachtowel. Now, understand that I have NO idea what he looks like but I was checking out at a wholesale place like Costco or something and he was the cashier. What I remember is that he was dark skinned and had dark hair and then all of these crazy blonde highlights.....Pretty funny huh? He kept telling me "you can do it"....

So I guess that's a good thing that he's made that impact on me....

Hahahaha.........

[eliminnopee]

Boy, it sure is crazy how the mind will try to find a way to get what it wants.  The subconcious need becomes so big that it starts to show itself in the dreams.  I wonder if your body releases some kind of dopamine or endorphins while dreaming and we actually get high or if our minds are just convincing us that we are high in the dream in an effort to remind us what our bodies are missing?  What do you all think?

[mama_in_trouble]

i have dreams like that all the time. ive always had vivid dreams, but lately have been having dreams about drugs(and actually feeling  high in them) on day 4 no norco, i dreamt about shooting up... i had a needle and a little vial of stuff(dont really know what is was supposed to be) i was visiting my family, and every place that i stopped i would go to the bathroom and poke myself with the needle, then i would feel so high. whats crazy is that ive never shot up in my life. i think it was a warning of some sort. that if i dont stop my **** that i might end up somewhere really bad. i feel horrible because ive been taking vics again for 2 days. i relapsed on day 5 of no norcos(which i had been on for 2 months or so) this stuff is so hard to get off of. im seriously considering rehab. but it will have 2 be out patient. i have 2 many responsibilities right now. i know im an addict because i keep thinking that if i go to rehab i will never be able to get any more pills for pain. i feel like such a damn loser. but congrats on staying clean eliminopee! i respect and envy your will power. just wanted to let u know that ur not alone in the high dreams thing.

[SeekingHeavenlyHelp]

I gotta agree with u....very odd....as much as I hate to admit it tho...I tried to get back to sleep as fast as I could so I could see how it ended...=/ I know that is horrible i guess its all part of the addiction...*sigh*

[eliminnopee]

those high dreams really almost feel like the real thing it is sooo wierd!

[eliminnopee]

Yeah, sleeping off and on for 6-7 hrs now.  My doc is hydrocodone.  Went from that to methadone, thinking it would help me get off the h's.  WRONG.  It is twice as hard as the hydros ever were to kick (physically).  It is all over now I have no other choice but to be clean.  I can't live in my head anymore if I use and I have no other place to go.

[SeekingHeavenlyHelp]

Thats odd!! I also had *high* dreams last night and Im on like 7 or 8 now.....(day)

[savingourmarriage]

The good things I took out of your comment is that 1) you are still off whatever it was you have chosen to stay away from and 2) You must be sleeping, maybe not the most peaceful yet but sleeping anyway.