Just wanted to give an update

[bucksfan]

Hey everyone, I have been busy working the last few days so found little time to post. I have tons of energy and feel good while I am out working. When I get home my whole body hurts and cravings start big time. Again, I think the root of my evil is boredom. I cant stand not doing something and have been that way since I was very young. The pills would make doing nothing fun and then after such long use it made me lazy. It is difficult for me to keep the levels up to where I need them but I manage. Hopefully after a while my energy and movement levels will become second nature. Not like a task. Then again, I spent 4 years of being lazy and not working hard so I know it will take time. My only fear is what if I scarred my body for life, meaning I am going to be lazyish for the rest of my life b/c of these things. I also think to much about how much I dont want to do something and that makes doing it worse....hurry up reprogram brain...lol
JT Intothedark yall still here? I am here if you need me or any of you for that matter!

[sway1]

did you read that about how josh thinks of us when he looks at the sun. who could use in the face of words so kind? yeah, yeah i know. but those words are gonna help me through day 12. i have been working out so hard, the only way i can move is to do it all over again. pretty soon this little lady will be able to kick some serious butt, so don't let me hear about anybody messing up! lol. have a blessed and beautiful day.    sway

[BQ77]

PHHHEEEEEWWWWWWWW!!!  That's the main thing I wanna say.  Later on in my addiction I would relapse after going clean because of withdrawls alone.  Earlier in my addiction, I would make it past the physical withdrawls, feel great, then a couple days later start craving like crazy.  intothedark brings up a good point.  Although we all have different times, it takes more than that couple weeks after feeling better to really fight off the full addiction.  Just stay strong.  You know by now it's worth it.  Something I try to do as far as the lazy part.....when something crosses my mind to do something that takes even just a little energy, I try not to think about it too much.  I just do it.  Try doing that a little bit.  Once you do some of those things, you'll be happy about it.  Good luck man.

BQ

[intothedarkagain]

How are you guys doing?
You haven't scarred yourself Bucks.
You know the science.
It is going to take us 6 months before things get back to normal (give or take).

You are just in a post WD funk.
The old you in inside.
You just have to give him sometime to climb out.

Are you working out?
I think something that you are fighting is being out of shape.
I am not terrribly out of shape, but I still drag my a#S#S around the house.
My power to weight ratio isn't balanced yet.
If my calculations are correct, which they always are, I am about 800 lbs today,
or at least I feel like I do.

I am going to go to the YMCA right now.
Take Care Guys,
If you need me I will be on latter tonight around 8-8:30.

I still think of you guys when I look at the  sun.

Joshua From Oregon

[jt808]

what up buddy good to hear from ya and i def know what u mean about scarring ur body like last nite i wanted to go out have a fun time but my brain kept telling me no ur fine rite here and when i meant fun i didnt mean anythng bad just go out with a few of my good friends that only drink i use to love that just hanging out laughing ALL nite telln joke and just havn fun but ive falln in such a funk for a while noe but b4 i wasnt thnkn bout it i thought i was happy but now that i am tryn to kick this i realize that i am defnot happy i wana b beac 2 the old me. or somewhat the old me but when i say the old me i dont even know who that is. well bucks its def good to hear from ya and im glad ur stayn strong.