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Damage of a two-week cocaine binge
Ok now I am sure that this post will get a lot of responses simply stating how stupid I am but I need some information.
I am 18 and I have no clue how but about three weeks ago I got the opportunity to snort cocaine. I did so and was introduced to the dealer. Over the past three weeks I befriended this kid and I have probably spent over $450 dollars on cocaine since. My consumption rate was/is about a gram a day or a little more.
For the first four days I had no problems and felt great. After that when I would use, the high was very short-lived and lasted around 10 minutes followed by an intense craving for more of the drug.
It was nearing the end of week 1 on Saturday night where I was continuing to use cocaine. I keep snorting more through the entire night to keep my high going and to avoid the horrible comedown. I took my last line around 6 A.M. About and hour or two later my heart began to beat hard and I felt a small pain/pressure in the heart area. This was followed by a pain in my left arm which soon began to feel numb. The back of my neck, my toes, and my right calf muscle also became numb. I knew there were heart attack risks and I became very frightened and had my cell phone clutched in my hand in case I had to dial 911. Well fortuneatley my heartbeat returned to normal in about two and a half hours and the other strange symptoms left. I honestly think I was close to a heart attack/cardiac arrest. Opinions?? Through that whole night I probably snorted between 1 and 2 grams of cocaine.
Nevertheless I used cocaine later that day! I continued this daily use for another week.
Let me assert really quick that no one that knows be would ever suspect me of drug use. I am an honor roll student and a pleasure to be around in general. I am about six feet tall and underweight weighing about 145 lbs. I took my shirt off the other day and looked at myself in the mirror and almost threw up. Since beginning to use cocaine, y ribs and exposed(more than they were before) along with the bony area between my pecks. Also I have been blowing blood every time I blow my nose.
Through this ordeal I have continued to tell myself: "I'll quit" or "Just one more day" etc....
People at my work have become suspicious. I have had very little sleep over the past couple weeks and I look very terrible. I normally have a fairly good complexion but through last night (my last night of using cocaine) I broke out with red zits all over my face. I have lost my sense of smell and can only smell something if I stick my nose in it.
Ok, first of all thank you to anyone who has taken the time to read this far as I have no one else to go to for medical advice.
To wrap it up: last night I purchased another gram of cocaine. I snorted about 7/8 of the bag between 7pm and 2:30 am. It was at that time that my heart began to race to a point where I was uncomfortabel with so I cut myself off for the rest of the night. I have been awake since. Around five a.m. this morning I got of the couch downstairs to go lay in my bed upstairs. As soon as I got off the couch I got chills over my entire body. I was freezing cold. I walked up to my room and put long pants and a hooded sweatshirt on. I then went in my bathroom and began checking my nose (which had been runny all night). It was then that I discovered a small slit in the skin on the side of the septum in my right nostril. To be quite honest I about **** my pants. I had about 1/8 gram of cocaine left under my bed and upon discovering this slit in my nose I grabbed the cd case with the cocaine and dumped it straight in the toilet. there was still a considerable amount left mind you, but discoving a slit in my nose was just a little too much. Will this slit heal?
This has been a horrible ordeal for me bouncing between happiness and depression for the past two weeks. Right now I feel pretty shitty. I will probably lay down to sleep in the next hour or so and I will sleep until around 3pm or so. My body is exhausted and I look horrible. My face is covered in red acne that was not there yesterday and I have dark bags unber my eyes. I just look horrible. I mean it when I say I am done with cocaine it is such a horrible drug and through this experience I can see how so many people lose there lives (figuratively and literally) over this drug. I never saw myself speing five hunred dollars on something so pointless. I basically bought the damage I have to done to my body.
AFter reading this story I have a few questions. Thank you so much to anyone who is reading this.
1. What should I do in the next few weeks to recover my health? Or will it just come back to me over time?
2. Will I get my sense of smell back?; Will the slit in my nose heal? It is not a complete hole and the cartilidge is not exposed. This is in my right nostril.
3. Have I permanently damaged my heart? Anything else?
4. My teeth also hurt badly. My gums are red. Why is this?
5. When I pull my bottom eyelid down (like a doctor would) the inside of my eyelid instead of being red, is white! Why is this and what does it mean?
Thank you so much for your help. Please post any other advice you may have for me.
Please spare me the comments saying how stupid I am because I am a smart person I and I know what I have done is anything but smart.
I am 18 and I have no clue how but about three weeks ago I got the opportunity to snort cocaine. I did so and was introduced to the dealer. Over the past three weeks I befriended this kid and I have probably spent over $450 dollars on cocaine since. My consumption rate was/is about a gram a day or a little more.
For the first four days I had no problems and felt great. After that when I would use, the high was very short-lived and lasted around 10 minutes followed by an intense craving for more of the drug.
It was nearing the end of week 1 on Saturday night where I was continuing to use cocaine. I keep snorting more through the entire night to keep my high going and to avoid the horrible comedown. I took my last line around 6 A.M. About and hour or two later my heart began to beat hard and I felt a small pain/pressure in the heart area. This was followed by a pain in my left arm which soon began to feel numb. The back of my neck, my toes, and my right calf muscle also became numb. I knew there were heart attack risks and I became very frightened and had my cell phone clutched in my hand in case I had to dial 911. Well fortuneatley my heartbeat returned to normal in about two and a half hours and the other strange symptoms left. I honestly think I was close to a heart attack/cardiac arrest. Opinions?? Through that whole night I probably snorted between 1 and 2 grams of cocaine.
Nevertheless I used cocaine later that day! I continued this daily use for another week.
Let me assert really quick that no one that knows be would ever suspect me of drug use. I am an honor roll student and a pleasure to be around in general. I am about six feet tall and underweight weighing about 145 lbs. I took my shirt off the other day and looked at myself in the mirror and almost threw up. Since beginning to use cocaine, y ribs and exposed(more than they were before) along with the bony area between my pecks. Also I have been blowing blood every time I blow my nose.
Through this ordeal I have continued to tell myself: "I'll quit" or "Just one more day" etc....
People at my work have become suspicious. I have had very little sleep over the past couple weeks and I look very terrible. I normally have a fairly good complexion but through last night (my last night of using cocaine) I broke out with red zits all over my face. I have lost my sense of smell and can only smell something if I stick my nose in it.
Ok, first of all thank you to anyone who has taken the time to read this far as I have no one else to go to for medical advice.
To wrap it up: last night I purchased another gram of cocaine. I snorted about 7/8 of the bag between 7pm and 2:30 am. It was at that time that my heart began to race to a point where I was uncomfortabel with so I cut myself off for the rest of the night. I have been awake since. Around five a.m. this morning I got of the couch downstairs to go lay in my bed upstairs. As soon as I got off the couch I got chills over my entire body. I was freezing cold. I walked up to my room and put long pants and a hooded sweatshirt on. I then went in my bathroom and began checking my nose (which had been runny all night). It was then that I discovered a small slit in the skin on the side of the septum in my right nostril. To be quite honest I about **** my pants. I had about 1/8 gram of cocaine left under my bed and upon discovering this slit in my nose I grabbed the cd case with the cocaine and dumped it straight in the toilet. there was still a considerable amount left mind you, but discoving a slit in my nose was just a little too much. Will this slit heal?
This has been a horrible ordeal for me bouncing between happiness and depression for the past two weeks. Right now I feel pretty shitty. I will probably lay down to sleep in the next hour or so and I will sleep until around 3pm or so. My body is exhausted and I look horrible. My face is covered in red acne that was not there yesterday and I have dark bags unber my eyes. I just look horrible. I mean it when I say I am done with cocaine it is such a horrible drug and through this experience I can see how so many people lose there lives (figuratively and literally) over this drug. I never saw myself speing five hunred dollars on something so pointless. I basically bought the damage I have to done to my body.
AFter reading this story I have a few questions. Thank you so much to anyone who is reading this.
1. What should I do in the next few weeks to recover my health? Or will it just come back to me over time?
2. Will I get my sense of smell back?; Will the slit in my nose heal? It is not a complete hole and the cartilidge is not exposed. This is in my right nostril.
3. Have I permanently damaged my heart? Anything else?
4. My teeth also hurt badly. My gums are red. Why is this?
5. When I pull my bottom eyelid down (like a doctor would) the inside of my eyelid instead of being red, is white! Why is this and what does it mean?
Thank you so much for your help. Please post any other advice you may have for me.
Please spare me the comments saying how stupid I am because I am a smart person I and I know what I have done is anything but smart.
oh yea i use to have a huge *** sore in my nose as well it would hurt if iblew my nose, i got a cuple scabs in there now but this one wen i was like 16 was ****** huse it looked like i had a boogie in my nose ALL the time, i wuld try to cut it with a nail file and it wuld just keep growing like a second nose and now when i do coke just like you i dont feel **** i just keep snorting away
MY NAMES CALi, iVE iM 19 iVE BEEN SNORTiNq C0KE SiNCE i WAS 15, THE GUY i USE TO BABYSiT FOR iNTRODUCED iT TO ME ONE NiqHT WHEN i WAS LEAViNq His HOUSE, HiS WiFE WAS THERE TOO. i THOUGHT THE PILE OF POWDER WAS CRUSHED UP PERKS AT FIRST CUZ I KNEW HE DID THEM AND I SNORTED PILLS BACK THEN TOO SO IM LIKE "CAN I HAVE SOME" AND THEIR LiKE "THiS is COCAiNE NOT PERKS" AND i DIDNT EVEN THINK TWICE I SNORTED A LiNE AND FELL iN LOVE. THEY SENT ME HOME (ACROSS THE STREET) WiTH MAYBE A 20 WORTH OF COKE AND I KiLLED iT AND FELL RiqHT ASLEEP, i USE TO BE ABLE TO SLEEP ON COKE i CANT NOW. THE REASON i DIDNT HESITATE TO SNORT THAT LINE THAT NIGHT IS BECAUSE IN 4TH GRADE I FOUND OUT MY MOM WAS SNORTING COKE, ITT WAS OUR SECRET MY BROTHER DIDNT KNOW. SHE LET US DO WHATEVER AND PRETTY MUCH NEGLECTED US SJE DIDNT CARE WHAT WE DID AS LONG AS WE WERE OUT OF HER HAIR WHILE SHE WAS HIGH, SHE ALWAYS HAD NOSE BLEEDS, i WITNESSED HER HALLUCINATE TWICE, BUT HSE KEPT GOING BACK. SO EARLY ON I WAS LIKE "WELL WHATS SO GOOD ABOUT THIS DRUG THATS MAKIN MY MOM WANT IT SOO BAD AND MAKIN HER LITERALLY TELL US TO GO PLAY OUTSIDE INSTEAD OF NOT LETTING US GO OUT BEING WE WERE IN 4TH AND 2ND GRADE.i WANNA TRY IT ONE DAY" SHE USE TO BRING ME WITH HER TO CAMDEN,NJ TO HER DEALER FERNANDO, HATE HIM! SO ANYWAYSZ THATS H0W iT STARTED, I REMEMBER LAYING IN BED THAT FIRST NIGHT SMILING AND JUST LIKE FANTASIZING ABOUT COKE, I COULDNT WAIT TO BABYSIT AGAIN TO GO GET SOME MORE COKE, I WAS ALWAYS SLEEPING WITH THIS GUY I WAS BABYSITTING FOR HE WAS LIKE 35-40 I WAS 15 IN THE BEGINNIG I WOULD GET WIRED AND FEEL GOOD, ID BE TALKATIVE EVERYTHING WAS GREAT, BUT I STARTED SNORTING MORE AND MORE, MAKING THE DUDE I BABYSAT FOR(DAVE) GO GET MORE AND MORE COKE, THEN I WULD JUST CALL HIM AND ASK HIM TO LEAVE ME SOME COKE ON THIS FRONT STEP UNDER THE MATT SO I CULD JUST COME GET IT AN DLEAVEAND GO OUT AND DO WHATEVER I WAS DOING AT THE TIME. THEN I STARTED GETTING DEPRESSED AS **** WHEN I WOULD CRASH, I HATED IT. I CULDNT SLEEP CULDNT EAT. I STILL HADNT LOST WEIGHT THOUGH.I WAS ALSO DOING XANIES TOO, EVENTUALLY WHEN I WAS LIKE 16 I WENT FROM 135 LBS TO 99LBS INA MATTER OF LIKE A WEEK AND A HALF N0 LIE, I LOOKED ****** HIDEOUS, A DISGRACE. I ALWAYS SED ID NEVER SMOKE CRACK, I DID THAT TO0 ONE NIGHT BECAUSE THATS ALL THAT WAS AROUND, IT MADE ME DO **** I WULD HAVE NEVER DONE BEFORE. I WAS BADDD ON XANIES TOO THERES LIKE 2 YEARS OF MY LIFE THATS A COMPLETE BLUR, IVE BEEN TO 3 INPATIENT REHABS AND 2 OUTPATIENTS, IM CURRENTLY WAITING FOR A BED TO OPEN AT A REHAB RIGHT NOW BECAUSE A CUPLE DAYS AGO I WENT ON A XANAX BINGE, I O'D NOVEMBER 9TH 2011 ON XANIES AND I STILL DO THEM, I GOT ARRESTED A CUPLE DAYS AGO AND DONT EVEN REMEBER IT, ALL I REMEMBER IS GETTING CUFFED, THEY SAY XANAX AND COKE IS THE WORST POSSIBLE MIX B/C THEY DO THE COMPLETE OPPOSITES OF EACHOTHER COKE SPEEDS U UP XANAX MAKES A ZOMBIE LIKE DOPE...WHICH IVE DONE TOO AND METH ...ALL **** "I WOULD NEVER DO" PST OKAY! I WAS DOING OOKAY FOR LIKE A LITTLE OVER A YEAR MAYBE AND THEN I MET MY CURRENT BF, I WAS A STRIPPER AND ESCORT, THATS HOW I MET HIM ACTUALLY HE CALLED ME UP FOR AN "APPOINTMENT" I HADNT MET HIM YET, HE JERKED ME OFF LIKE 3 TIMES ONE TIME HE SAID "YEA IM SORRY ABOUT THAT, I WAS IN A.C ALL NIGHT, ITS BEENA LONG NIGHT" I KNEW OFF THE RIP HE WAS A COOCSTER(COKEHEAD) SO I SAID "YEA I KNOW ALL ABOUT THOSE NIGHTS" LETTING HIM KNOW I WAS TOO CUZ I ALL OF A SUDDEN WANTED TO DO COKE AGAIN, SO FINALLY WE MET THE FIRST NIGHT WE DID A LITTLE OVER AN 8BALL AND ****** ALLL NIGHT LONq, THis WAS XACTLY ONE YEAR AGO, EVERY SINGLE DAY SINCE THAT TIME IVE BEEN SNORTHING COKE MORE AND MORE, MY BF USE TO SAY "I GOTTA STOP DOING COKE IM BLOWING SKIN OUT OF MY NOSE" IM THINKEN YEA OK ITS JUST A "COKE BOOGIE" ULL BE OKAY, CUZ HE EXAGGERATES EVRYTHING ANYWAY, THE LAST COUPLE WEEKS IVE BEEN BLOWING ****** FAMILIES OUT OF MY NOSE, AND JUST NOW LIKE LITERALLY 10 MINUTES AGO I BLEW OUT A HUGEEEE PIECE OF SKIN AND IM SITTING HERE WITH A ****** TISSUE IN MY NOSE BLOOD IS JUST POURING OUT, I KNOW I NEED TO STOP LIKE THIS IS A WAKE UP CALL, WILL I STOP? HOPEFULLY BUT I THINK THE FIRST STEP WULD DEF BE LETTING GO OF VINNY BC EVEN IF HES NOT DOING COKE AROUND ME HES A TRIGGER FOR ME BC WERE BASICALLY JUST IN A DRUG RELATIONSHIP, IF HE DOESNT HAVE COKE I DONT WANNA BE BOTHERED WITH HIS ***, HES OUT ME THROUGH ALOT OF ******** TOO, HE GETS NUTSSS ON COKE, IM JUST NUITS PERIOD SO THAT DOESNT WORK, I BUSTED HIS NOSE LIKE 3 TIMES AND LIKE 2 WEEKS AGO GAVE HIMA BLACK EYE LIKE BLOODY NOSE LIKE THIS ISNT NORMAL AND I KNOW THAT. I JUJST CALLED THE REHAB AND THEY STILL DONT HAVE AN AVAILABLE FEMALE BED SO IM JUST WAITING TO GET INTO REHAB, THIS WILL BE THE FIRST TIME IM GOING WILLINGLY, ALL THE OTHER TIMES I WAS UNDER 18 AND ON PROBATIONA AND IN THE SYSTEM AND HAD NO CHOICE, SO WELL SEE HOW THIS GOES, IF THEY EVER EVEN ****** HAVE AN AVAILABLE BED IVE BEEN UP FOR LIKE ****** 40 HOURS MAYBE HAD 5-6 HOURS OF "SLEEP" IN BETWEEN, I HAVE TO TAKE TRAZEDONE OR A BUNCH OF ADVIL OR TYLENOL PM'S TO SLEEP NOW. I KNOW A LADY WHO LITERALLY HAS HALF A NOSE BECAUSE THE COKE DESTROTED AND ATE AWAY AT HER NOSE, SHE LOOKS LIKE A ****** MONSTER I DOTN WANNA END UP LIKE THAT AND I DONT WANT YOU TO END UP LIKE THAT EVEN THO IDK YOU FROM A CAN OF PAINT, NO ONE SHULD GO THRU THIS THOUGH THATS ALL I KNOW. U SHULD RELLI STOP WHILE U CAN BUT U KNOW THAT UR THE ONLY ONE THAT CAN MAKE U STOP
not bad buddy but i'm coming out of a 30 hour terror where i did 3 8 balls. still got a bit left but its mostly all inside me. This is my last hoorah and now its good bye to this **** place. gonna jjack the rest into my vein and see what happens next.
Oh GAWD its been a fun ride but its gotta end somehow.
Go out witha bang not a whimper!1
take care y'all
Oh GAWD its been a fun ride but its gotta end somehow.
Go out witha bang not a whimper!1
take care y'all
This is very close to what is happening to me so I guess ill tell my story as well.
well two weeks ago I was at a party and everyone was outta beer. lol. so a couple people started talking about getting some coke. these being actually really close friends of mine and my need to not let the night end early, coupled with my want to see what it was like I joined in. I got my share for the night and after reading this website I realized I was close to Od that night.
anyway long story short I got some more the next day.10gs. reason why I got so much was because: for one it was payday. and for two I wanted that feeling again to last forever.
over the past two weeks I've been taking my time with it. and decided to bring some with me to the bar one night.
me being dd I couldnt drink and I knew itwouldnt affect my driving like anything else ever would. it was 830 and we all planed on leaving after 3am so I figured I was good. to do some. so a 2g baggy to my self was gone before 930. Not tellin everyone whati was doing becuase this was a differnt group of friends andthey would rather drink anyway.
feeling the Od feeling which I now know about and later everything waring off I was feeling every tired by 3am. I stop and get a four pack of red bull for the 125km drive home ( which was stupid in the first place) I start pounding em back to keep my eyes open.
drive home fine sober as hell red bull was workin. get to the house and got crazy pain everywhere. I start throwing up because of somethin that feels like the stmoache flu which we all it isn't. closest hospital is about 30 km away. I couldn't stop throwing up and decided to keep on drinking water to flush the **** out. well now its a couple hours after and I'm afraid to fall alseep right now because I might not wake up.
so down the drain went over 900 worth of coke. wow what a waste. After seeing dollars going down the drain I never wanna touch that **** again. Plus the smell of red bull vomit is almost making me gag.
Well that's my story of my hopefully short lived wild ride.
well two weeks ago I was at a party and everyone was outta beer. lol. so a couple people started talking about getting some coke. these being actually really close friends of mine and my need to not let the night end early, coupled with my want to see what it was like I joined in. I got my share for the night and after reading this website I realized I was close to Od that night.
anyway long story short I got some more the next day.10gs. reason why I got so much was because: for one it was payday. and for two I wanted that feeling again to last forever.
over the past two weeks I've been taking my time with it. and decided to bring some with me to the bar one night.
me being dd I couldnt drink and I knew itwouldnt affect my driving like anything else ever would. it was 830 and we all planed on leaving after 3am so I figured I was good. to do some. so a 2g baggy to my self was gone before 930. Not tellin everyone whati was doing becuase this was a differnt group of friends andthey would rather drink anyway.
feeling the Od feeling which I now know about and later everything waring off I was feeling every tired by 3am. I stop and get a four pack of red bull for the 125km drive home ( which was stupid in the first place) I start pounding em back to keep my eyes open.
drive home fine sober as hell red bull was workin. get to the house and got crazy pain everywhere. I start throwing up because of somethin that feels like the stmoache flu which we all it isn't. closest hospital is about 30 km away. I couldn't stop throwing up and decided to keep on drinking water to flush the **** out. well now its a couple hours after and I'm afraid to fall alseep right now because I might not wake up.
so down the drain went over 900 worth of coke. wow what a waste. After seeing dollars going down the drain I never wanna touch that **** again. Plus the smell of red bull vomit is almost making me gag.
Well that's my story of my hopefully short lived wild ride.
this post is from June....
I will tell you this.
your dealer 'friend' is not your friend at all- you are his paycheck and he got you hooked fast and wants to keep you going.... and as long as he can call you to chat then he will. him and his gf will stop by do a line and then you will HAVE to buy more, its only right since he just hooked you up, can't leave him hanging....
well you know its not a smart idea to go back into the cycle, and in the long run it could kill you.
get a new phone number don't give it to the dealer or any friends of the dealer and move forward. go to your doctor if you can't do wds Im sure there is something they can give you to help, but you have to want to be done, you have to need it.
and from what a very close friend of mine said (since I did pain pills its not the same drug..) but she told me that you always chace that first high thats why you spend more and more on it and get all strung out. you have bad low low highs, but maybe just maybe you will get high like the first time.... you don't and you never will. to the drug dealer you are his paycheck, remember that, he is not your friend.
your dealer 'friend' is not your friend at all- you are his paycheck and he got you hooked fast and wants to keep you going.... and as long as he can call you to chat then he will. him and his gf will stop by do a line and then you will HAVE to buy more, its only right since he just hooked you up, can't leave him hanging....
well you know its not a smart idea to go back into the cycle, and in the long run it could kill you.
get a new phone number don't give it to the dealer or any friends of the dealer and move forward. go to your doctor if you can't do wds Im sure there is something they can give you to help, but you have to want to be done, you have to need it.
and from what a very close friend of mine said (since I did pain pills its not the same drug..) but she told me that you always chace that first high thats why you spend more and more on it and get all strung out. you have bad low low highs, but maybe just maybe you will get high like the first time.... you don't and you never will. to the drug dealer you are his paycheck, remember that, he is not your friend.
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