Day 1?

[Kelseago]

Well I woke today and my first thought was on my pills.  There's only small physical WDs with duet pills but hard mental.  I already have a pain in my stomach and want to throw up.  I can't get them off my mind.   My inevitable stress rash is starting.  Ugh

[dedicatedtostop]

No your not!!!!! If I can do it w a 3 year old SO CAN YOU!! Just breath. I felt the EXACT same way you did. It WILL PASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Kelseago]

My head is freaking throbbing.  Thanks for all the encouragement guys.  I'm Highly irritable.  I love my baby boy but right now I'm having a hard time handling him.  He's probably feeding off my energy.  He's pottied trained but chooses now to have accidents all day.  I'm gonna lose it

[LeaAnn807]

Hey honey!  I remember when I stopped coke in 2006, and I was surprised at how little WDs I had as far as physical, but the mental is tough with stimulant type drugs.  However, it's the only drug that I have ever stopped, never started again and never looked back.  NO relapse with that one.  The last time I had it was September 22 of 2006, and I do NOT miss it!  You can get there too, ok?  But what I'm saying is that I totally understand the mental thing. It's rough.

Don't give up this time!  It can be your last!!!!!!!

[mellie4]

I'm trying with 4 kids (well, 5 but one is at college; she's just an emotional/financial stress/).  I'm trying to arrange rides to practices for them.  I've told them I'm not feeling good and won't for a bit.

You can do this.  I'm trying to focus on not taking a pill or a half.  I know I'd feel better with it but eventually you have to face it.  Not sure how old your kids are ... the house will get cleaned next week.  For now, deal with what you have ... lie on the couch and watch movies with the kids, pull the shades, anything to keep them a little calmer if they're young.  Maybe you have a neighbor with a teenager who could get the kids out for a bit?  

[dedicatedtostop]

I know the feeling, I had to do it with 2 girls, one of which is a 3 year old, Its tough, took every ounce of enerrgy I had. BUT you KNOW you have to do it, you have to take care of them there is NO other choice. Get a siiter if you can, and sleep if it makes you feel better. I was not that lucky. You know its hard but it has to be done. I still keep my bathrobe right beside me at all times for the chills. It goes on... then off in like 2-5 minutes, on and off on and off. Dont push yourself on the housework, I was the same way. Truth is, it will still be there tommorow. Focus on taking care of YOU!! Keep fighting Girl!!

[sudie58]

just chill out kels, main thing is not to take any, stay strong,

[Kelseago]

Thanks guys.  I'm chillin w a movie, trying to keep warm.  Hope I'll feel up to some house work later. Maybe park with my son (doubt).

[sudie58]

hi kels, you will be ok, , i promise , get through this , i know you were poorly yesterday, make today a better one, think of anything ,but not the pills, try to distract yourself, try and be positive, god bless

[Stevo977]

You know the drill so make this your last detox? Don't forget to stay hydrated. Maybe watch a movie or read a book or do anything that will occupy your mind cause that is your worst enemy right now. Idle time sitting around doing nothing only help create those ideas that will make you use again.

[Kelseago]

I'm soooo tired without them.  I just want to crawl in bed n sleep.  I need a babysitter just so I can stay in bed

[dedicatedtostop]

You can do this, Stay Strong. You will have to FIGHT with all you have for the first few days. If you are nausious you can get an otc med called dramamine, works wonders.
Also Immodium can be a lifesaver, however I would not use it unless it is an absolute must. I personaly beleive you need to let that "posion" exit your body as soon as possible.
You have already had success by waking up this morning and not taking any pills. Please remember taking even 1 will set you back. You can do this, keep posting there are many wonderful people here to get you through, I promise. Try to keep your mind occupied on something... anything else. This will pass