Day 1

[wannawean]

Day one ***** no matter how u look @ it : /

[minn66]

Please think about it. As for me, I know I have a lot of work left to do. I am getting ready to take a leave of absence from work and starting counseling next week. Everyone's journey is different, and there is nothing wrong with asking for help. Can you see your doctor and check on some medication that may help you as LeaAnn suggsted? I know it is hard to do. Believe me. We can make it together. We've been through the pain and anxiety. Some of us, like me, are still struggling. Hugs to you. We are here.

[Littlelegs2003]

Regardless of what you do - stay on this site. Keep posting, people will support you. Just keep posting - every thought, every feeling. We are here for you - you want to quit. You'll get there. Yeah, the first few days suck. A lot. But we've all been through it & we can help, advise or just listen. I often just use the site to pass the time so that I don't have to think about the pills. Remember, we're not here to judge - we can't, we're all in the same boat. Stay strong.

[LeaAnn807]

Honey, don't pick up that script!  It's just going to put the WDs off to another time!  There will never be a fun time to do this.  What is the script for?  Is there any way that you can talk to your doc and get some meds to help with the depression and WDs so that it's easier for you instead of picking up that refill??  There are non addictive meds that you can get to help the WDs and make them much more bearable.  Give it some thought!

[sparky1949]

great post. all we can offer is encouragement.. everyones journy is different.

[minn66]

Don't worry about disappointing us. We're here for you. It is you we are concerned about.  You can still either not go pick them up or flush them. We care about you and will help any way we can.

[NorthEast213]

Did you pick them up yet?  You still have the power to say no to this and cancel it.  Or at the least flush them.  Stick around here.

[wannawean]

Answer: Nothing. Just called in my refill. I'm sure this doesn't surprise many/ any of u guys but it does surprise me...

[Teri9498]

   I don't know guys, I think I'll take day 1.....day 4 is the KILLER - for me! lol

[Bkitty]

Yes,,you are right! Day 1 s*cks big time! The only thing I can tell you is you should be really proud of yourself. Most likely for once in a long time you are looking out for you. Sometimes we addicts tend to put ourselves at the bottom of the list. You are choosing to not do that any longer.It feels awkward and uncomfortable at first but as time passes it gets a lot better. I wish you the best and look forward to reading your posts on how good you are doing!((hugs))~Bkitty

[IwillDoThis]

What IS gonna be different for you this time?  Only you know that.  The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over expecting different results.  I assume there is some reason that led you to stop pills - use it, harness it.  For me I hated being hung up on these pills just to feel normal - the energy bursts had long since stopped, they weren't helping the pain.  I turned into a lifeless slug who layed in bed all the time when I wasn't working, heck I would even work from bed.  I wanted my freedom back, I wanted myself back and you do too.  I know this time is horrible but just hang in there and know better days will come but you MUST do something differently than the other times.  Know I'm pulling for you and I hope you start feeling better real soon!  Hugs

[minn66]

Oh, I definitely understand. I am still fighting depression, which is why I am getting ready to start one on one counseling. It is so hard to function. I have had people tell me I have changed in the last few months. Yeah, because I don't have the meds to mask things that are now bothering me. Try not to be so hard on yourself. You know, we treat ourselves worse than we would tolerate others treating us. I would punch someone over some of the things I have said to myself.

I hope you can find some way to take a few minutes here and there to just relax and be good to you. Hugs,

Minn

[wannawean]

thx for caring. SO DEPRESSED magine that

[wannawean]

geez.... opana and a tad of tram for the last 3 weeks or so has really set me back...the bathroom has been my favorite room today and i'm draggin baaad. Hubby is home wkin outside. I can't hardly brush my teeth. this is the first time that he doesn't know...can't tell him...he's over it. SO my little man that is 6 and on spring break this wk deserves sooo much better. I fight not to fill my rx...i can't, i won't. BUT if i had a pill I'd clean and play and never stop taking those damn things...SO UPSET...been on this ride my whole adult life...what's gonna make this time different? feel desperate and defeated by the raging beast that lives inside my head...!!!

[minn66]

Yup, it stinks for sure. Soon, though, you will be moving on to days 2, 3, 4, 5 and so on. It will take time, as so many say.  I realize it is so cliché but you really do have to take it in small increments. One hour, minute, day. I still have to do that. It will get better though. Hugs,

Minn

[IwillDoThis]

Tru Dat!  Feel  better!