Im on 48 hours into wd....vics n somas

[gammieof1]

I'm over the 48th hour yesterday wasn't so bad for me today however I'm ready to crawl outta my skin!!  It doesn't help the hub is sitting here drinking and smoking weed...which I don't do....he keeps telling me to get up move around be productive just get over it!!  I seriously want to spork him in the underballs!!! Lol tryn to keep humor about me.
I have three kids and I grandbaby and decided it was time for me to do this after opening my bible n finding a picture of me n the kids from over 10 years ago....which is also the last time I was really sober!!!  Half pf my kids lives!! I can't believe I have been foggy this long.....this sh*t *****

[minn66]

Funny you mentioned the energy drinks. I used to drink one every morning and then have coffee too. After quitting the pills, energy drinks and coffee made me jittery too. I don't drink the energy drinks any more and only have coffee maybe a couple times a week, and that is just one small cup, not the ten gallon mug I used to drink before. I'm glad you didn't have to go all Tawanda on your hubby. He's a lucky man ;) Great job of hanging in there through day 4. It's usually a doozie. Glad you posted and keep up the excellent work!

Hugs,
Minn

[selfinduced]

Soooo happy for you, YOU GOT THIS! Keep on keeping on. Can't wait to hear of your further progress! YAY, for not sporkin the husband (smile).

[gammieof1]

Minn, day four was BAD!!  I was even hallucinating! I did a lot of ecstasy in my 20's so I chalked it up to that but it was NOT NICE.  The hub is now being totally different, almost like the man I fell in love with. I have not been told how beautiful so much today....he was in wd with me but still drinking.  He's not drinking today and he's proud of me being stronger than him....so there's hope. I can not thank everyone enough....I'm not alone. So he made it through without getting sporked. Lol
I don't know if this will help anyone else but I didn't stop the caffeine the first couple of days and I was taking 2energy drinks....which I now know is a HUGE NO NO! It made me jittery I couldn't breath...today I didn't and I'm actually happy as all get out.  I also am taking paxil so I think that may be helping.
Praying a peaceful night over all my new friends.
Shan

[minn66]

Tawanda!! If you haven't seen Fried Green Tomatoes, watch it and you'll know what I mean. Great for you and welcome to day 4. Stay connected with this site today. We're all different, but day 4 is the hardest for a lot of people. You got through yesterday, you can make it through today. You should be proud! :D I have to work today so I won't be able to post much, but I will check in.

Hugs,
Minn

[gammieof1]

I did it!!  It got rough yesterday in the evening but I did it!!  I even went out on the boat today with my brother n sis in law!!!  I'm shaky a lot n up tight n on edge but I told them ahead of time and that helped. The hub is leaving me...took his ring off tonight n gave it back....well all hurtful things must come to an end and I will NOT cave this time....I'm doing this...and I'm PROUD...

[gammieof1]

No I'm not on any at all. Its been almost 52 hours....

[gammieof1]

Dixiechick and even one else..thank u!!  I just fessed up to my 14 year old...he looked at me and smiled and we actually laughed and spent a moment with each other...priceless!  I also took another shower and put actual clothes on...getting outta the jammies, no make up and hair not done but baby steps. Praise God!
I put dinner on the stove too!!  There is power in prayer and I have been chosen to go thru this for a greater purpose. Yeah thou I walk THRU, not stay in, the valley..
.right?!  
Thank u all for understanding and for who ever decided this was needed and built a place for us to come to support others....
My sons face when I told him was worth this pain because the pain I have caused them hurts more than this!

[Pat1956100]

Are you taking any at all or are you totally off of them?

[minn66]

Show him how strong you are. Whatever it takes, distract yourself. Post here a million times. You can fight this!

[gammieof1]

The hub is an a** he told me he had 2 in the bedroom stuck back...I told him I was fine I was doing it this time... he then went to "find" them....he left to run an errand n I want to go find them n take a half!!!  F#$&K him for that!!!  I hope he makes it thru with me....he's playing with fire right about now....if I didn't love him...

[minn66]

Hi Dixie, a bit anxious but not bawling my eyes out, lol. Gosh, that hit so suddenly and fiercely. Have helped hubby in the yard a bit today and getting ready to enjoy some of my son's barbecue.

Gammie, it is smart to think and prepare ways to deal with the pain. I have home TENS and traction units and go to physical and massage therapy. I use Biofreeze gel on my neck and shoulders. Check with your doctor to see if any of these may be helpful or if he or she can recommend something.

Hugs,
Minn

[Dixiechick72]

Wow gammie ok we share some similar stories but ur story sounds a little more severe then mine. I too was beaten by my ex. I thought he was going to kill me. The ******* only did a week in jail. But honestly therapy!!!!   I did it right after the incident so if u have not dealt with this then u should really consider therapy asap!!!!  I too am a mom to 4 and gma to 3. We have a lot to live for!!! So please please find someone u can talk to about this. U are going to see ur emotions surface soon so please try and find a positive way to deal with it ok. Big hugs

[gammieof1]

Thank you all...I actually just laid in the tanning bed I have not used in a loooonnng time. It was a small step in doing something. So I did something for myself today since I'm doing a lot for my family in this wd. I'm getting angry at my doctor ten years ago I as brutally beaten n held hostage by my ex husband who's now serving life...the dr NEVER told me this could happen....of course I had no history of abuse I drink social had experimented withh all sorts of stuff but socially.  NEVER had ONE PROBLEM until these.....I know its not the drs fault but I wish he had told me a different schedule instad of here's 120 10's and 120 soma take them as prescribed.
had I only know what I would lose and how do I cope wth this pain after these pills?

[Dixiechick72]

Yes exactly!!! One day at a time!!!
How are u doing minn??!! Thinking of u!!
Gammie hang in there ok. Just get through
Today the next hour and before u know
It the day will be done

[minn66]

Hi gammie, I know it's tough, yet try not to look too far ahead. Make it your goal to make it though today. That's it. Just today. Take tomorrow when it comes. I know about the guilt. Felt some of that yesterday as a matter of fact. You can do it. Sounds cliché, but one day at a time.

[Pat1956100]

You have to get totally off of them and then it will be 3 or 4 days until you feel better.  Your energy may take awhile to come back and sleep may be an issue.  Make sure you drink lots and eat at least a little or as much as you can.  Nothing too heavy that will upset your stomach.
Boosts or ensure drinks are great.
Take a multi vitamin and a b6 vitamin.
Good luck.

[Dixiechick72]

Well day 5 I actually showered and did my hair and make up. Lol it took every ounce of me too but u know what? Who cares!!! Ok u are getting sober and that's all that matters right now. My youngest kids were like urs. They know I was prescribed meds but couldn't face telling anyone how bad I've been abusing. Why hurt them?? I figured I'm Getting myself clean now. So just take it one day at a time ok. Day 7 for me. I'm all made up but when I wake up in the morning I feel like I'm 80 yrs old lol. But I tell myself move move move. All this really started because I too looked at a few old pics of myself and I told myself I want to be like that again!!! I will. I'm on my way there!!! So stay strong. Just focus on today. Relax drink and eat ok. Ur doing good!!!

[gammieof1]

Thanks...I have been taking these for a long time and I have gone of for a couple weeks only to return after a couple weeks.  I am living in the bath tub this time...my kiddo keeps asking what is wrong why am I in the tub..
My kids know I'm on medication its perscribed and they can also tell when I'm taking more than I'm supposed to. I have taken myself down to 2 a day from about 10-12 ish
I'm not feeling really achy right now just the wanna hurt somebody edge of my seat no energy to even tell them to go get bent...
so my question is...I've done this before like I said I've lasted 2 weeks each time before I got just one to help give me energy to feel lile myself n clean this house....I know I have to make it past two weeks this time. How long am I going to feel like a slug, look like a slug, and when will I be normal?!  Whatever my normal was because I have forgitten..

[Dixiechick72]

Hey there. Congrats!!! These next few days will be hard but u can do this. The thing with ur Hubby... Um yeah I think I need to dig my golf club out and take practice shots if he was doing that to me. They have no idea of what ur going through and how hard this is. Hang in there. Make sure u keep eating and drinking. Stay hydrated. Just think the worst will be over in a couple days!!! Hang in there and post as u need to!!!! Good luck big hugs

[Pat1956100]

Congratulations and good for you.  Like anything, noone knows how hard it is unless you have gone through it.  I would spork your hubby too.  
Day 3 is really tough and you are up and doing it.
You have lots of time left to spend with your kids and your grandbaby.
So happy you have decided to do this with us.

[kme17]

Hey congrats! Keep pushing fwd. I am on day four and i am hoping this is the work part! Hang in there