Day 18 off opiates, day 12 xanax

[sewalter194]

hey to all my new friends.. I haven't posted for awhile. Kids have been sick. I am really struggling trying to keep up with my everyday "jobs" and kicking both these monsters. Was ok for a day, but now am not able to smell anything without it making me sick. My legs feel like jello, and my heart is racing so fast. Has anyone detoxed off both opiates and benzo's at the same time that can help get me through this latest crisis. My energy levels are low and I am noticing thoughts of taking a pill creeping into my head. My back pain is back, and believe it or not, my teeth hurt too. HELP....

[jackeroo]

Anytime!  You are def not alone and I know that support helps a lot.  It amazes me how much someone else telling me directly, or through their posts to others, that its gonna be okay HELPS!  I have been battling these monsters as you call em on and off for a couple years.  I would get to a point where I would quit but I wasn't truly quitting for me.  This time it is for me and its gonna work.  After a couple relapses back to the drs office for more scripts, I now see that was insanity and try not to dwell too much on all the guilt with those bad decisions but it is proving to be challenging to say the least.  I have been to a few NA meetings to check it out and not feel so alone in this struggle and it is pretty clear that support really helps people stay clean...I kinda thought the somewhat cheesy sayings at these meetings like"just for today" and "keep comin' back" was for the hardcore user and that somehow I was different and could just give this a half *** effort, but I saw that only led to more trips to the drs.  I was going through HUGE amounts of benzos and norcos for no real reason other than I had a Dr. that would prescribe pretty much anything for no real reason and I thought it was ok because it came from a clean pharmacy...truth is this stuff is just as dirty as any other street drug and will take us all to a really bad place if we dont just STOP...one choice, just stop.  Kinda easy if ya look at it that way each day.  Well I am doing good here on day 8 and hope everyone else starts to enjoy this world sober.  It is kind hard to flesh out what I was really capable of and what I was using the drugs to 'help' me do.  Been super lazy but things are def. getting better.  One last NA saying...we didn't get into this in one day, so its prolly gonna take a few days to get out...or somethin' like that...anyhow, will check in on ya later.  Hope things are going better for you today.  SMILE and remember to be good to yourself.  Hell, if you can't tell anyone, go in the bathroom and close the door and tell yourself in the mirror ten times that you are worth it and even force yourself to smile if you have to...sounds corny but positive thinking is positive thinking.  Peace!

[sewalter194]

Thanks so much for talking me down.. I thought I was the only one going ct off both these monsters. I will "right back atch" what you told me! I am still counting days and look forward to the time I can count months! Listening to upbeat music is another MUST for anyone wd'ing.. AMAZING how it can help at least for a little while. I am trying to MASK the symptoms from the fam, (except my hubby) which makes it hard. Even the hubby doesn't get it. I try to tell him how I am feeling and he just says, why can't you go to the store, or do the ALL 10 loads of laundry in a day etc.... Thank God for this forum.. With this forum's help, you are going to keep adding up those days and me too!!! Hang in there buddy!!!!!

[jackeroo]

Congrats on being 18 days off the opiates!!  The worst should be over for you with that nasty narcotic.  I am on day 7 after cold turkey stopping norco and xanax so I can relate to your situation somewhat.  The xanax can take more time to come out of your system depending on how much and how long you took it.  From what I have read, you and I are both out of the high risk zone for seizures, however, there is something called Post Acute Withdrawal Syndrome and it seems that your tooth related ailment may be related to that.  These benzos, particularly Xanax, are really hard to recover from.  The good thing is we do recover!!  You are off to a great start and stay positive about that and take this time to love yourself and treat yourself right.  This kind of thinking has helped me a lot recently so perhaps it might help you too.  TIME makes it better for all of us.  Just DONT PICK UP and you will feel better.  I still feel shaky in my hands and trying to even walk my dog is a huge chore so I give you a lot of credit for keeping up with children during this time...hopefully they keep you distracted from craving while your body heals.  For your pain, stay away from tramadol and take aspirin if you can or advil and soaking in a hot bath tub or whirlpool will help a lot too.  Keep doing a great job and I bet in a week you will be feeling a ton better.  I know today was a turning point for me and I am starting to get excited to be at your day count and never touch these drugs again.