guilty and suicidal help

[tim92]

almost finished day 2 of no percs.  i'm going crazy.  Cant look at my wife, the guilt is killing me.  I cant believe i did this to my children. i just need to cry.  someone pls give me some encouragement.

[momwhosseenitall]

Everyone is right, you are in your WORST days right now and it will get better.  Check out that thomas recipe for some help (put in in the search box and stuff will come up). And do what the others said about sleeping, soaking in the tub or taking something for restless legs.  My son at age 15 attempted suicide by hanging after being clean for 5 months, so realize that your brain is very powerful and keep telling yourself you're gonna make it till tommorrow and then tomorrow, till the next day. My son lived but now has no brain cells to control his body. He's been laying in a bed now for 4 yrs, so I can tell everyone suicide is NOT the answer.  You cant even imagine what that does to your friends and those that love you.  Your wife and kids would much rather have you as a recovering addict than not at all!    and only beat yourself up, if you dont change!  You have made a great decision to get your life back.  Realize that you dont control drugs...they control you.  and anything you have been doing was caused by the drugs, not the real you!  Be proud of yourself for getting off, its not an easy thing!  Pray everyday for strength and be honest with your wife what you're going thru and she can help you.   She can tell the kids you've got the flu and need to not be disturbed.  Hang in there, you're doing the right thing to reach out and communicate with others....a very important thing to remember in recovery.

[lostmarbles]

Please be patient, I'm not where you are right now but I was last week when I ended up in the hospital because I overdosed. I felt like you did, guilty, rage, destruction, fear, everything negative came to the surface until I woke up with an IV drip and the dr monitoring my heart. I came that close. My 12 year old daughter found me unconscious when she got up for school. I will never know what that did to her and I pray to God she will come through this just like the rest of us. We need to get through this, not let it beat us into submission. You just have to get through this for the next few days. A day at a time... we are all here for each other, use this site to the best of your ability, do NOT use. Please. We all rely on each other here to help each other get through, you have friends here.. we are all shoulders for each of us to lean on. God bless you x

[Miss_Meth]

Hang in there, hang in there, hang in there!

I've been there a million times, when your detoxing mind is driving you crazy!!! I know you can't see it from where you're at mentally right now - but, it WILL get better. Trust!! You're current mood is not a natural mood, but drug induced (or lack-of-drug induced).

If you can knock yourself out as others have suggested - great. If not, suffer thru. IT WILL GET BETTER!! Be proud - you've been off that sh*t for two days and are in the deepest depths of withdrawals. You are strong and every minute close to drug free!

[zzzaaaccckkk]

stay strong.  After percs come oxy. Don't don't don't. Give it a few days. Go see ur family doc if it gets to hard. Tell him whatuv been doing. Ask for a ten day script for something to help during day like Xanax.  U will not get hooked on only a ten day script. Ask for lunasta at night. Try n stay away from Valium.  I take it only when I know I need 8 hrs of sleep. If u can't sleep on what he gives u call him. Tell him. He might bump u up to Valium or two lunestas.  Ian clean off oxy for 16 days. Went thru hell for 4 days before I saw him. Its good to feel the pain. So u don't go back. But  u should c someone. This site is great to bring ur spirits up. But were not there with u just for u. One week man. Give a week.

Good luck

[flmagi]

Around my 2nd or 3rd day of withdrawels, I had thoughts of suicide too. Life sucked, nothing was good anymore, what have I done etc etc. The Boom!  Day 4 it was gone completly. It was the withdrawels playing games with my head. You'll look back and wonder how you could even think such things. I promise you, you will get passed this.
You only have a few more days and you'll be feeling like a new person.
Remember everything your feeling and thinking is extremely exagerated from the withdrawels.
Hang in there and keep posting.

[tiredofpills2]

my second time around and on day 2 for percocet use for lower back. The first time it took me 3-4 days also i used the thomas recipe on day 3 and from there out it was a breeze. Trust me it will all pass. You will have up and downs just keep strong and i swear to you that you will be better in a few days. Alot better.

[Chi_Chi_Lover]

It will get better. I think we all had those horrible feelings during the hard part of the the WDs. It's like your mind is playing tricks on you and you feel in such a state of dispare. All I did was cry for a week and was in constant pain for 2 full weeks. It takes time but it will get better. You are in the middle of the worst

[avisg]

To: tim
You are having a very rough time ,it does get better , there is nothing out there worth taking your life over .You have a family Kids that love you . They need you and you need them . Does your wife know ? You can pull threw this. Lots of us have been right where you are and are here to talk if you need to !!!!!!!!

avis

[Laroo]

HOLD ON!!!  It will get better!!
BUT, U NEED TO TRY & SLEEP as much as you can for the next 48 hours!!  REALLY, otherwise your mind is going to drive u nuts & your body is going to hurt.
If I knew then what I know now - I'd knock myself out for as far into day 5 as I could.  
Wake up to drink mile/gatorade/vitamins/bathroom & go back to bed.

[GoingToMakeIt]

Day 2 is hard. Everything starts rushing at you. Take a walk. Then take a long Hot bath with Epsom salts. If you have any thing to calm you down, take that. Have you told your wife? Just get through each hour. Hang in there. You will make it! Good job on day 2!