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Day 3 Oxy withdrawal
First time I have ever posted anything. I am on my 3rd day of oxy withdrawal. This is pure hell. Everyone knows the symptoms. I started using morphine in 2000 after an accident crushed my 4th vertibrae, I was on a pump. I learned how to manipulate the pump and after 7 weeks of 1000mg a week, I went ct. Worst days of my life. You think I would have learned from that. I am 53 years old, sober from alcohol 11 years. I started using percocet 10mg a day 1 year ago. I increased the amount and then went to oxy's. first 40mg a day to where I am now...100mg day. I have to pay street price. I decided to quit wednesday, it's friday morning. I just got a call letting me know they were available if I wanted some...I told him to never call me again. The crash isn't worth the high. I figure I am almost over the worst of this, maybe another 2 days max. I did get a visit from an old friend this morning, my first woody in 6 months...very interesting. There is no way I could have posted this the last couple days, I must be getting closer to the end...Unbelievable hell. I know I am doing the right thing, oh man it sure is tough, especially knowing a phone call will end all this...
Congratulations on taking action to get your life back in control! I'm very concerned about your last sentence. A phone call will end much more than your withdrawal symptoms. You know that. Remember that woody you just got if you need more incentive. It's not exactly functioning (or at least not functioning at full capacity) while you're using.
Everyone here will tell you why home detoxes eventually result in relapse. No aftercare. Did you take advantage of AA when you gave up alcohol? If you didn't, now is a great time to go. If you did, it's a great time to go back. As you already know from past experience, getting clean is easy. Staying that way is another story. Please keep posting! Everyone here has been so helpful with my husband's Suboxone detox. They're here for you too. :-)
Everyone here will tell you why home detoxes eventually result in relapse. No aftercare. Did you take advantage of AA when you gave up alcohol? If you didn't, now is a great time to go. If you did, it's a great time to go back. As you already know from past experience, getting clean is easy. Staying that way is another story. Please keep posting! Everyone here has been so helpful with my husband's Suboxone detox. They're here for you too. :-)
Hi Ctblues and Welcome to the forum.. a phone call would not end it It would just prolong it.. Yes you are just about over the worst.. Hot showers/baths many times a day is a big help as is walking exercising. most of us have to force ourselves but the benefits are Great. Congrats on 11 years of no Alcohol !! and Congrats on making the decision to get off the soul stealing drugs !! not only do the drugs kill our desire for sex they also kill our desire for life.. You are just about over the worst and I wanted to wish you well and to let you know you are doing Great !! Keep a Good Attitude and Keep looking forward ok Life has a way of blossoming when we are clean.. take care of yourself ok.. lesa
Welcome. I noticed your comment about being 11 yrs free from alcohol. Whatever you do don't try and knock back the withdrawals with alcohol. It'll make you feel 5 X's worse for the next few days. Congrats on the woody!!!! That's progress! You're gonna be surprised just how many 'new' sensations and emotions are going to come into play the next few days.
You should be feeling better by the end of the weekend. I'm 50 yrs old and it took me about 10 days until I felt that I was over the hump but things got considerably better each day after day 5.
Hang in there....
Toby
You should be feeling better by the end of the weekend. I'm 50 yrs old and it took me about 10 days until I felt that I was over the hump but things got considerably better each day after day 5.
Hang in there....
Toby
Good morning, day 4. I really didn't know what to expect posting, I did it twice, not thinking anyone was actually there. There really are people out there that understand. I just got pretty emotional reading your posts, made me feel like I can do this, support is so important. I didn't make the call, I haven't used in about 85 hours. And actually I am doing some cleaning, washing my bedding etc...I feel much better today. Still cold chills, and sweats, real weak...but the aches are gone and my legs are quiet. A little sneezing still.You are right about incentive, what more do you need. Losing that experience isn't worth any drug. Nice to be feeling a little normal again. I really appreciate the support. I have children & grandchildren, no one has a clue, they think I have the flue. Nice to be able to tell someone. I did go to AA, I did the whole program. I need to go back.
when I said I need to go back to AA, not because I am drinking, But for the support. I am still sober, I wrote 11 years, It's actually 10 years 5 months. Thanks again for listening. I do appreciate it, this isn't easy.
CT I quit the same day you did. I feel the same as you right now. Just awfull. Depression is really kicking in right now. No sleep, mental torture, no energy, body still cold and hot at least the sweats
Are gone though. But yes pure hell. I have been comtimplating swallowing a perc 10 or 2 the past few hours to make it stop.
Are gone though. But yes pure hell. I have been comtimplating swallowing a perc 10 or 2 the past few hours to make it stop.
Hey man, it's rough. We are in the same boat. I just keep telling myself that it's going to get better, and it will. I don't want to live like that anymore. Avoiding family because I don't have enough, not to mention it's expensive, and killing me physically and mentally. I am so tired of counting pills, taking laxitives, not even getting the high, just taking them to avoid the crash. Swallowing some percs will only prolong what we have to do. We have to do this, tomorrow will be much better. And only better after that. Stay with me here, lets do this together. It helps to know we are not alone in this fight for a better life.
oh, and the advice I was given about the hot baths and showers do it! I have lived in the tub. It really helps. It did me anyways.
Congrats on 4 days ctblues !! I was very Pleased for you that you did not make that call. and very Pleased for your family I'm sure they have missed you. while active we think of only ourselves and how to feed our addiction. There is so much more to life then counting pills and hunting them down. I do not think we were meant to live secretly but to live freely. free to express ourselves free to feel joy/love and even pain.. far better to feel anything besides the self loathing misery and guilt we feel while active.. It is very good you will be going back to AA as support is crucial to staying clean. others that understand of what we speak is like a ray of Sunshine :)
Backtome swallowing the percs will not make you feel better They will just lead you back to where you were when you first jumped off. it does not get better while we are active it just gets worse.. Yo are almost through the physical aspects of the wd If you can force yourself to walk clean exercise in any form will help a lot with the depression.. getting those feel good endorphins pumping again on there own Helps. Hang in there ok You can do this !! reach out for support check into meetings AA our NA You are not alone. read of others experiences and gain strength thru them. There is light at the end of the tunnel but we have to go through the dark to find it. I wish you the very best.. lesa
Backtome swallowing the percs will not make you feel better They will just lead you back to where you were when you first jumped off. it does not get better while we are active it just gets worse.. Yo are almost through the physical aspects of the wd If you can force yourself to walk clean exercise in any form will help a lot with the depression.. getting those feel good endorphins pumping again on there own Helps. Hang in there ok You can do this !! reach out for support check into meetings AA our NA You are not alone. read of others experiences and gain strength thru them. There is light at the end of the tunnel but we have to go through the dark to find it. I wish you the very best.. lesa
Your awesome, thanks. I know tomorrow will be better. It's strange, one minute I think, ok, this is good...the next minute I feel like hell. Something I have to go through to get better. And I am going to do this! I need to do this. There is no alternative, mind over this evil drug...You are right about my family, although no one has a clue, they will eventually if I don't stop. Just tired of the chase. Time to get my life back. Looking forward to day 5 Thanks again.
Your welcome :) although your family does not know of your addiction They know you are not the same. while active we think we have it under control and nobody knows.. but active addiction changes us so much we are the only ones that do not see it. it deadens our emotions instead of seeing in color we see in grays. I truly em so Happy for you that you are breaking free It is akin to being reborn ! we notice things we have forgotten. The birds singing a Beautiful sunset the smell of food so many things.. I look forward to you rediscovering all the amazing things our life and world has to offer :)
wow, you are so right. I am taking your advice and going for a walk... It's cold here, however I need to breath. I don't want to go out, but I am pushing myself to get better and I think this may help...get the muscles moving. Wish I had an appetite, I guess that will come soon enough. Jesus, please help me...
CT it's freezing here too man where are you? I'm in Michigan. Anyway I did not take that pill. I took some klonopin and slept some. Feel somewhat better now. I just cannot stay off the dam toilet!! Really it's like every 2 hours or so. I'm doubling up on the imodium right now to see of it will stop. I HAVE to eat. I have not eaten in two days and I am starving but whenever I try it goes straight through me all day. :(. Anyway my day 3 is complete at 6:00pm. Bring on day 4 5 6 7 8 9 10. At 10 I am usually perfect again. By 7 pretty good.
I'm so envious of your day 3.,,going to go off percs at the end of this week and dread it!
Im in Ont. I am about a day ahead of you, really glad you didn't take the pill...it's going to get so much better, your doing great! hang in, you will be rewarded. I can't believe the difference from this time yesterday. I went out today, minded my own business. Even shaved. I felt really proud of where I am, My last 40mg was at 7PM Tuesday night. I never thought I was going to make it but I did. I even hung up the phone and didn't call him back, huge step. The sh its will stop, imodium, take it. Are you trying the hot bath? do it. I am so tired now, but it's a good tired. I really think I will have a good nights sleep. I deserve it... I haven't eaten anything substantial either. Tomorrow will be better than today...
The_doors, man if I can do it, you can too...going to be rough for 3,4.5 days. Be prepared, get imodium, liquids, take time off...and do it.
The_doors, man if I can do it, you can too...going to be rough for 3,4.5 days. Be prepared, get imodium, liquids, take time off...and do it.
How you doing today? I am doing ok, day 5. Slept pretty good once I fell asleep. Hope you have a better day today...the weird thing is, feeling like I do, is a high on it's own. I haven't felt like this in a long time, still looking forward to day 6 but man...the worst is over. I am never going back...ever.
I can not tell you how many times I have read this...
From 10356:
Your welcome :) although your family does not know of your addiction They know you are not the same. while active we think we have it under control and nobody knows.. but active addiction changes us so much we are the only ones that do not see it. it deadens our emotions instead of seeing in color we see in grays. I truly em so Happy for you that you are breaking free It is akin to being reborn ! we notice things we have forgotten. The birds singing a Beautiful sunset the smell of food so many things.. I look forward to you rediscovering all the amazing things our life and world has to offer :)
From 10356:
Your welcome :) although your family does not know of your addiction They know you are not the same. while active we think we have it under control and nobody knows.. but active addiction changes us so much we are the only ones that do not see it. it deadens our emotions instead of seeing in color we see in grays. I truly em so Happy for you that you are breaking free It is akin to being reborn ! we notice things we have forgotten. The birds singing a Beautiful sunset the smell of food so many things.. I look forward to you rediscovering all the amazing things our life and world has to offer :)
Day 6...I would like to say thank you to everyone who has been their for me the past few days. 10356, jstntime, You may not know it, but you really helped me out. Thanks again. ct
No, not gone... the worst is over...I am feeling much better. Still some hot and cold chills, one minute feeling good, the next not so good...but yeah, the worst is over. Just so tired of being numb. So many emotions coming out, cried my *** of over a pepsi commercial...looking forward to day 7, each day will be better.
Day 7, I feel great. There is something to be said about clarity. Today is the first day I have felt like myself in a long time. Had a good nights sleep, up early and went Christmas shopping. Today is Tuesday, my routine for the last year or so has been every 2nd Tuesday at 9 AM. I get my two week supply of pills, street price. I spent less money shopping for 6 grandchildren, then I would have spent on pills. Clarity...Now to keep my head clear and be the man I am capable of being... to myself and my family.
congrats on your clean week and glad that you are feeling great.... keep on my mind that there is the mental part to fight ... keep positive, it is the best advice cause some days are tough, exercise if you can, eat healthy, take those vitamins and keep walking.... some days you will feel really tired, don't stress out , it is normal, just take each day at a time and enjoy the christmas holidays with your family :)
Hey, when you feel good, we all feel good. Coming here was my first step in getting serious and I mean really serious about being done with this. The thing that kept moving me forward was relating to those that were on the same timeline as me as far as days quit and what I was going through.
So feel good about this as you go through the day, your 7 day success will have a more immediate impact on those that are standing where you were seven day ago. It reinforces that it can be done. That a person can go through the withdrawals and live to tell about it.
Being clean is my new addiction, and stories like yours help to feed it. Good job and keep it up. No stopping you now.
So feel good about this as you go through the day, your 7 day success will have a more immediate impact on those that are standing where you were seven day ago. It reinforces that it can be done. That a person can go through the withdrawals and live to tell about it.
Being clean is my new addiction, and stories like yours help to feed it. Good job and keep it up. No stopping you now.
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