Hi guys. Well... I'm on day 3... Again. I've been here before. Pretty much like clockwork for the last 10 months. Binge. Detox. Rinse. Repeat. I've used on and off for the last 5-7 years. Mostly norco 10/325. That was my drug of choice. God I loved those little bastards. Truth be told, I'd use pretty much whatever opiate pills I could get; vikes, percs, ltabs, codeine, cough syrup... You name it, I've probably eaten it for breakfast, lunch and dinner. I've had my share of bumps and bruises, breaks and fractures along the way... Including 2 open heart surgeries when I was 16. That's when I was introduced to prescription pain meds. 3 shots of dimmeral a day for 10 days, then I go home with nothing but a zipper on my chest and a get well balloon. That was the first time I'd ever detoxed. I had no idea why I was taking 10 Tylenol at a time, but I wasn't getting that buzz. Fast forward 10 years. Wisdom teeth have to come out. Here's something to help the dentist said. Call me if you need more. What a great fella I thought. Anyway, that was the start of a 5-7 year drug problem that I thought I had beat last year. I came clean to my wife, mother, best friends in February 2012. Stopped the pills c/t. It was rough at first, but it got better fast. Started loving life again. Started putting weight on. I was working out 3-5 times a week. Playing sports I loved better than I ever had. Then, 4 months to the day I quit the pills, I break my elbow and tear my labrum playing basketball. Sitting in the er I'm in intense pain. Still, I tell my wife, I don't want any drugs. Ill be fine. Doctor offers, I decline! Until the next morning anyway. I call the doctor, get my pills and the rest is history. 4 months of hard work down the drain. How could I have known one moment of weakness would turn into a 10 month free for all opiate holiday. Sorry for the length of the post. Just needed to vent. I know I can get clean again, I just have to commit to the process. Any kind words or positive thoughts would be great. The physical w/d is bad, but manageable. For me, the worst part is the emotional turmoil. I feel like I'm losing a best friend. Or a family member. Just very low right now. Thanks for reading and commenting. Looking forward to tomorrow...