Day 4

[Pleasehelpme91]

I was clean for a month then binged for 8 days, now I am clean again and on day 4. I was thinking about why I use, Realized I have been using substances for a long time, I am fairly young but I have always really been interested in using things to feel "high". I never used any hallucinogen or anything  hard. (drinking, very rarely marijuana) Until I got a hold of the Vic's, I guess I should say, until they got a hold of me. I know I have had lifelong depression and that plays a big part of it, But I think a big thing that makes me want to use a substance is boredom, I know that sounds weird but I get bored very easily.I like new and exciting things all the time, But it just seems life is like that. Life is good with intermittent periods of high intensity excitement. And to add that problem Most things don't really interest me, so its hard to find exciting things.
any thoughts?
also, what is aftercare? how much does it cost?

[Pleasehelpme91]

so does a chemical dependency clinic cost money? and do they keep records of you? will some one who has been to lots of NA meetings let me  PM them? I have a  very personal Question about them and how it relates to me. Thanks

[gizzy32]

If you wanted to attend NA meetings there is no cost and you will find people that you can relate to and not just about drugs. Talking to a counsellor could do wonders and get to the core issue of your use. Recovery is also about finding yourself and making changes to our thought patterns and destructive behaviour. Congrats on day 4 now and with some help you will no longer go on those binges. Identify your triggers and work on your recovery and you will succeed. Good luck and keep posting.

[CR_ST_NA]

aftercare usually consists of out patient treatment at a chemical dependency clinic. usually seeing a CD councilor, group meetings and such. also NA and AA meetings. aftercare (which is after treatment) is where the real work begins. i can relate to the boredom thing im sure many can. are you on an anti-depressant? christina