Day 5

I honestly did not think that this day would ever come! These past 5 days have been rough and so emotionally taxing, but I woke up this morning with a sense of clarity and even better - Accomplishment! The headaches are still there, but today isn't as bad as yesterday…And last night I actually had a full nights rest! It felt good to NOT wake up 6-8 times during the night and wake up this morning actually feeling replenished. :)

I also noticed (this may sound strange) but my senses have been heightened significantly. Like, Monday I ate chili from Wendy's for lunch. And then yesterday, I ate chili from Wendy's again, and it actually tasted different - the recipe did not change, but my taste buds apparently did? And it tasted BETTER..tell me that’s not weird.

Also, the other night I received a massage from a close friend who is a licensed massage therapist and I swear it was the most amazing experience I have ever had to date (and I have received many massages from this woman before.) I think a lot of it was that I wasn’t high and the only thing I had on my mind during the massage was how therapeutic it felt. And I didn’t kick myself in the *** (like I have done time and time before) for showing up to my massage higher than a kite in a hurricane. :)

Point being, I am so thankful that I made it to day 5 and I am SO thankful for everyone here on this board. I really don’t think I would have been able to do it if it wasn’t for all of you. Rosie - I cannot even put into words how much of a savior you have been for me. Rockhead23 - who is also on Day 5 - lets kick this addiction in the *** and continue to be strong! GaGuy - your detox recipe and all of your supportive advice has been overwhelmingly helpful. And EVERYONE else on this board who comes here with no judgment and open ears (and hearts) Thank you!

The last time I got clean, I relapsed on my 7th day sober. So, when I make it past this coming Sunday, it will be the first time I have been sober for more than 7 days in over a year! I think that will be the day I truly celebrate my sobriety! (Not saying that Im not celebrating now….but you know what I mean?)

xxoo

[GA Guy]

Congratulations on your day 5. I can only tell you that the clear moments will become more and more frequent. Also, thank you for your kind words. You should be very proud of your accomplishment. Keep going strong..7 days is very near!!

[VOsRose]

Way to go, girl!!  I told you to hang in there! I can tell you some weird stuff about my senses when I detoxed in April.  NOTHING tasted right...I couldn't eat or drink anything!  If I ate bread or toast, all I could taste was the yeast.  If I drank a coke all I could taste was the carbonation.  It was like the strongest ingredient was all I could taste...made eating again (after 10 days of not being able to eat or drink anything a challenge, to say the least.)  And as far as my sense of touch...my fiance rubbing my legs would cause me to almost have an orgasm...my senses were that heightened.  Enjoy sex right now...it's awesome right after detox!  Because of the whole heightened senses thing.  Unfortunately, it does return to normal!  LOL

I'm so glad you're feeling good today and got some sleep!  Rockhead is right with you!

I'm proud, proud, proud of you two!!

xoxoxo
Rosie

[rockhead23]

I take a beautiful drive to work every day...on a 2 lane road with water on both side...through the woods north of NYC...and the last 2 days it's been like I've never been on this road before...I look at the trees and water and sky and tear up on how happy I am that I'm truly alive...not just livinf but alive and feeling it.

I can't imagine how many other 'new' experience that I'm going to feel over the next weeks and years to come.

Let's kick this together, and don't even look at day 7 except in the rearview mirror!

Congrats on day 5 and many, many, more!  

[lady1981]

Thank you ALL for your encouraging words...its those words that I hold on to and think about through this entire process.
Rosie - thank you for confirming that Im not just a crazy women who has messed up taste buds :) And I will take your "love advice" and maybe seek out a little "afternoon delight" later on today, ha ha!
And rockhead, thanks for sharing your story about your drive to work. It gave me goosebumps.

At the beginning of this week, I was fearing the weekend because I dont even remember the last time I spent a weekend sober. But now that its here, I am actually excited! It probably wont be as productive as I would have hoped, but its here and I am loving it. The weather is perfect, I get to sleep in tomorrow morning (and instead waking up early from the W/D headache, I can lay in bed and just relax for however long I want) and most importantly, I get to spend it with a clear mind!

Oh, and P.S. Someone should do a television series based on the people on this website. Call it "Hero's" or something like that. :)