Going on day 16!!!!

[comfortquinn]

  
It was awesome!!! Feeling better every day!  Just keep renewing the way I feel throughout the day!!!  I truly hope you all do the same!!!  You just have to keep pushing until you get to the other side and get some aftercare and have some good people to help you!!!

[weaver9670]

Thank you I feel incredible today and it is day #16.

[comfortquinn]

Happy for u!

[weaver9670]

Wow, I was really feeling bad today and received a post fron Doc Aharonov about Neurontin so I managed to get a script for it and I have no WDs at all I feel better than I have in weeks and the medecine really lasts a long time no more burning skin or shakes. Praise God, I feel a new hope that I can get through this. It sounds like you are doing well also and I really enjoy your comments. Be well and I'll post tomorrow and let everyone know if the Neurontin is still working for me. Thank you all for your comforting words, they really mean a lot to me.

David.

[gnarly_1]

check your e/mail or in box

[comfortquinn]

I am sorry I never responded to your post!  It was from about 8 days ago.  I hope your doing alright!  Just do a little better today!  Don't look back, no matter how you feel!  Look at yourself as a victim of the stupid drug companies that have so much money it's not funny and fight with that in mind!  They go you hook!  At least if you took a pill that was made in their factory!  Or maybe you started with heroin!  Just get mad at it!  I am not going to let these people kill me!  It's been 16 years coming!  I remember the day I got hook and I remember the day I knew I was gonna come out of this!  Not very long ago!  It's been a long time coming!  Don't give up on yourself ever!!!  I mean ever!!!  Even if you relapse!!!  I hope you don't!  I relapsed and went to meetings high and felt like, "when am I going to get this?".  I am finally getting this!  Remember, NO expectations!  Stay in the moment and get through the moment.  I had a couple of bad days at work recently.  I had to take the feelings that I was feeling and go sit down and sort it out and then go focus on my job.  Then customers would come into the store and take my mind off what I was going through.   That is what we have to do!  Baby steps!

I don't know if you know this stuff already or what?  I am just trying to help you!

[comfortquinn]

I am so happy for you!  Just remember there will be down days too!  Today is day 23!  Day 21 and 22 were pretty crappy, but I pulled myself out of it!  It's 8am and I have to be at work at 10am.  I'm a little anxious, but I will focus just on what I am doing.  I will tell myself, "Your making coffee."  while I am doing it.  It gets me through and then someone will start talking to me and take me out of myself and the anxiety will subside and I will be happy!  It's so AWESOME!!!!

[weaver9670]

OMG, OMG, OMG. I just had a cool rush over my body and suddenly I feel awesome. Ihave my energy back and it is truely wonderful, Ithink Iam getting to the end or close to it. WOW I haven't this good in 5 years. Hang in there whoa 1 and comfort I absolutely loved the post when you were trying to build me up because it really worked for me and THANK YOU SO MUCH" God bless you both.

David

[weaver9670]

Hey, there is no way death is better than the W.D. trust me I know I've been close to it and there is no comparison. I am feeling a little better today and looking forward to a drug free life, I have not given up and refuse to do so and that is the state of mind you need to get in. we can beat this I know we can. I am a former Marine with fair control of the decisions I make and I know how hard it is. Read Comfortquinn's next to the last comment, it is very comforting and well worth reading it really helped me alot yesterday when I was about ready to take a pill but, I DIDN'T. Hang in there and you will make it through this, be strong and God will help all you have to do is pray.

Get well and keep us posted, expressing how you feel on this site helps' me as well.

David.

[whoa1]

Lavender bubble bath sounds wonderful...I am once again trolling, admiring everyone that seem so much stronger & more determined...but I am making a list for Wal-mart to get the STUFF...is L-Tyrosine something that can be purchased there?  I am so TIRED of it all...I have to STOP before it is too LATE....I truly believe death would be better than how I am living? now..

[comfortquinn]

Keep up the good work!  I know how it feels!!!  Just take care of you today!  Your doing great!!!  Remember your on a roller coaster ride and some of the drops are really steep and it's going to make you feel really sick, but you don't want to jump off or you may die!!!  Just hang on until the ride is over!!!!

[weaver9670]

Thank you for the encouraging words, today is day #7 and I am feeling worse than ever, can't even hardely type this. Ido really appreciate the information. I am going to try and lay down again  because I only got an hour and a half last night. Once again thanks' for everything and I keep you updated as I go along.

David.

[comfortquinn]

I started feeling better a little over a week after I started to get off the stuff.  My big problem after the 1st week was sleep.  The thing I did was exercise.  I pushed myself to do it!  I was getting around 5 hours sleep for the first week and 1/2 and then I had couple nights after that, thinking I was going to have a heart attack because my heart rate was elevated pretty high when I was trying to go to sleep after only having 2 hours the night before.  I was wide awake and scared.  My elbows turned really red and dry.  That was scaring me.  But, when I was going through this, I couldn't think straight because I was so wound up and tired. I decided to go to the ER.  When I got there my heart rate went down some, but when I got in the hospital bed it went way down.  They checked me out and all my blood work and all the test were good.  That eased my mind and the doctor said that the heart racing is just from anxiety and he gave me a paper to read about it and that calmed me down a lot.  I am high strung to begin with.  I used to have social anxiety really bad and then started pills over 15 years ago when I was a pharmacy tech.  I got my wisdom teeth pulled at the dentist and they gave me pills and I took one one day and it made me feel funny and I told the pharmacist that I was working for, I feel funny.  He said, it was because I didn't have anymore pain, so I ended up getting a little high instead of it going to pain.  I wish he told me to be careful.  He knew my social anxiety problem.  He even suggested to me a couple of times to try certain meds, but of course he told me to get an rx from a doctor.  I got Paxil and it didn't work.  The pain pills was the only thing that made the anxiety almost go away.  Anyways, today is day 18 for me.  When you feel like you melted and are a puddle on the floor, that is when you need to start pulling yourself up and getting yourself strong.  It got to me mentally a lot, but I FAUGHT back and here I am day 18!!!  Let yourself feel all of this.  It's just feelings.  You will be a stronger person for it when you come out the other side.  If you don't know the story of the Buddha, check it out.  It's been coming to mind and helping me.  I truly believe God gave him to us to show us strength and courage.  It helped me.  I don't know if it will help you.  Also, I took baths when my body hurt, especially the 1st week.  1-3 baths a day.  In the middle of the night to relax me.  I didn't realize this though, I used really hot water and epsom salt and lavender bubble bath and it was wonderful, but I think I OVERDID IT!  I think that is why my elbows turned red and my body gets itchy and dry now.  It did help with the detox.  If your gonna use epsom salt, I would read the package before you do it.  I trusted it because, it's been in our home while I was growing up.  I maybe used it once or twice before his detox.  It really ***** all the toxins out of you.  Read the label and if your not sure if you should use it, call a pharmacist and get some FREE advice about it.  TELL HER/HIM IF YOU ARE ON ANY MEDS OR HERBS ANY THING YOU CAN THINK OF.  Just be CAREFUL!!!  I AM NOT A DOCTOR! Also, load yourself up with vitamins.  And meditate.  Go to that site that I am not sure if I can mention on here, but it is extremely popular all over the world and they show all kinds of videos, you can even post one yourself.  There is one if you search, it is called "A New Dream (Metta)" .  It helped me so much.  I went to this great rehab in Klamath Falls, Oregon for 7 months and 10 days.  They changed my negative thinking to positive.  They taught me to love me and that is where I gained much knowledge and that is what is getting me through this.  It was a duel diagnosis place.  I've been to another inpatient rehab.  They had TV going 24/7 and I felt like cattle there.  They let me go 24 days early and they thought I was done and good to go.  But, I knew I wasn't, in the back of my head.  I now look back at this, they didn't REALLY care.  They just needed the bed.  I realized it at the time, but I didn't care, I just wanted to leave.  I was court ordered to be there.  The last place I went, I went on my own.  It was the best thing I ever did.  I almost got kick out of there a couple times.  After the second time, I started to understand what I was doing wrong.  This one counselor kept saying to me, "What's your part in it Pam?"  I didn't get it until, I almost got kick out a second time and how much I wanted to stay and change.  I cried and begged them to not kick me out.  I am not going into the reason why they were going to kick me out.  I think you heard enough for now.  I just want to share my wisdom that I had gain there and from being 40 yrs old and looking back.  I am finally learning.  I have to see some good come out of this and this is the good I am doing.  I am helping you and it helps my soul!!!  God Bless and DON'T GIVE UP!!!  YOU CAN AND WILL DO THIS!!!  IT'S IN YOUR POWER!!!  IF YOU WANT IT, TAKE IT ONE DAY AT A TIME!!!

[weaver9670]

Comfortquinn, I am on day six and feeling a little better but not alot. Did it take the full 16 days to start feeling better or did it happen any sooner than day 16?

[comfortquinn]

Keep your chin up!!!  You are doing great too!!!  Thank you for all of your support too!!!

[comfortquinn]

You rock too!!!  You will get out of this.  I swear it is like we have to put our brains through physical therapy.  It hurts while your doing it, but in the end you come out with a stronger healed brain.  I got up a 3:30am and it is now 4:30 and I am ok with that.  It's gonna take time.  Actually for me, work helped me so much.  I told the truth what was going on with me and my manager has been an angel.  She gave me a week off and changed my hours, so I could come in later.  I did quit one day, but then talked to my man and he thought I should try to work.  I called work back the day I quit and for the hell of it and because it sure was going to hurt, I asked if I could have later hours and she said yes.  Someone else that worked there had gotten her 2nd DWI and wasn't coming in that day, so I asked her if she wanted me to come in.  I am a great worker from the start, not that I am trying to brag, but I am.  When I go to work, I work.  Anyways, she didn't want to lose me.  I thank God for the great people I work for.  

[Innerstrength67]

Congratulations on Day 16. I'm right behind you, day 14. We are winning this battle one day at a time. Imbso glad you were able to finally get some sleep. I ended up quitting two of my jobs because of my addiction. I'm in a major financial mess and feeling pretty low.
I'm so glad Ypu didn't quit your job!
Keep it up! You rock!!!

[selfinduced]

Your doing AMAZING! What an inspiration you are to all of us! Keep it going!

[comfortquinn]

I slept 7 hours.  I even got op to go to the bathroom and dosed off as soon as I laid my head down.  For you that don't know what I am detoxing from, it was 5 months of being on Suboxone.  This drug helped me to have a clear head and to learn how to live again, but the detox is hell.  My body still aches, but it is minor.  I go to work with hardly any sleep, except for yesterday, I had 7 hours.  Anyway, I almost gave up my job and I thank God I didn't and my manager is an angel!!!  I tell her all the time!!!  I really am blessed that I have her for my manager.  I did not think that I could work without sleep, but I went in and just focus on what I had to do and I made it through.

I SWEAR, THE MORE PAIN YOU GO THROUGH IN YOUR LIFE AND COME THROUGH THE OTHER SIDE, THE STRONGER THE PERSON YOU WILL BE!!!  YOU HAVE TO BE REALLY POSITIVE ABOUT GETTING CLEAN OR YOU WON'T GET THIS!!!  AT LEAST THAT'S THE WAY IT WAS FOR ME WHEN I TRIED TO DETOX OFF OPIATES TIME AND TIME AGAIN.  I WANT TO HAVE A CLEAR HEAD AND LIVE A FULL HONEST LIFE!!!  I THANK GOD FOR ALL OF THE SUPPORT ON THIS SITE!!!

GOD BLESS