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Day 7=168 hours=1 week
Hello everyone! I have survived a week. Definitely the hardest week I have ever been through but came out smiling. I could not have done it without you guys on this forum. I am going to need to keep daily posting as those mental aspects the next few weeks can (and always have) shake me up. You are the strongest people I know and your selfless contribution has made the difference for me.
Shout out to normore and charlie as they are right behind me with time! Thank you for being there every day for me. I did not have one hour alone in my misery and darkest hour because of the support from this forum. Not one.
One day soon I hope to re -read these posts and look back and wonder who that scared, anxious, and unconfident girl was. As that is not me. My real me is slowly returning. I see glimpses of her every day now; she laughs freely without abandon, talks with strangers, smiles all day, and stands up for what she believes in and what she wants! She does not pop a pill anymore to avoid social communication and events, she does not numb herself to oblivion to avoid reality, she does not use pills to turn complacent. I am NO longer complacent and content to watch my life fly by me. This is the harder road but the only RIGHT road to all of you considering. Life is meant to be experienced in clarity, with colors, smells, emotions whether they are perfect or not so perfect.
Shout out to normore and charlie as they are right behind me with time! Thank you for being there every day for me. I did not have one hour alone in my misery and darkest hour because of the support from this forum. Not one.
One day soon I hope to re -read these posts and look back and wonder who that scared, anxious, and unconfident girl was. As that is not me. My real me is slowly returning. I see glimpses of her every day now; she laughs freely without abandon, talks with strangers, smiles all day, and stands up for what she believes in and what she wants! She does not pop a pill anymore to avoid social communication and events, she does not numb herself to oblivion to avoid reality, she does not use pills to turn complacent. I am NO longer complacent and content to watch my life fly by me. This is the harder road but the only RIGHT road to all of you considering. Life is meant to be experienced in clarity, with colors, smells, emotions whether they are perfect or not so perfect.
Charlie, you are doing great and I am rooting for you. I know you are going to make it. You have helped me so much in this journey to get through my physical Wd's. I am feeling so good this morning and feel the worst of the wd's are behind me. I know the mental part is supposed to be coming, but I truly don't have any cravings and really believe God has delivered me from this addiction. I won't be posting as much but I will be following your progress and checking in with mine. Love to you. Have great day. Day 6!!! You rock. It is beautiful here at the beach today and I'm getting out in the sun and enjoying it.
Congrats on your Time so far..Keep on Stepping up those Steps. NO looking back, because you could trip and fall down. (ouch!!).
Yep! The detox does come out to be the easy part. (hard) but working on staying clean takes so much..I have to agree with the above. It is VERY important that you eat very Healthy now and always. Just read some awesome info in one of my books from a Heart Dr. Try to stay away from the caffeine if you can and the sugars and simple carbs. These will either make you go back into a sort of Anxiety stage or a BIG drop down. Got to ease into this slowly. Time & Patience has been the Biggest Key yet.
I wish you the best.
Bless
Yep! The detox does come out to be the easy part. (hard) but working on staying clean takes so much..I have to agree with the above. It is VERY important that you eat very Healthy now and always. Just read some awesome info in one of my books from a Heart Dr. Try to stay away from the caffeine if you can and the sugars and simple carbs. These will either make you go back into a sort of Anxiety stage or a BIG drop down. Got to ease into this slowly. Time & Patience has been the Biggest Key yet.
I wish you the best.
Bless
Tina, the one I went to Wed. nite had almost 100 people there. I set in back.
No one asked who I was. Some first timers spoke up, others didn't. Somewhere toward the end of the meeting, one of the leaders ( Donald- 18 mths clean, don't know if that is his real name ) handed me a sheet with 11 names and numbers to call. If I needed help. No judgment, no questions. Very inspiring statements from some people there. What I found was a feeling that there is a special inclusive code to these meetings. Not a code of silence or judgment, but a code of acceptance. I do know that there were a number of people there who are not addicts but are dealing with someone who is or just there for support. So I wouldn't worry that much on the risk side. The reward and support side is a 100x stronger. I am going to another meeting tonight, different location. I am going to use every tool and option I have to stop this madness. We have come so far. I don't want to take a chance on going back. I know I do not have the experience of relapse since this is my first time without pills. But I have read enough on this site to pretty much know how easy it is to fall back and start over. I don't want that for me or for anyone else. Go please!!!
No one asked who I was. Some first timers spoke up, others didn't. Somewhere toward the end of the meeting, one of the leaders ( Donald- 18 mths clean, don't know if that is his real name ) handed me a sheet with 11 names and numbers to call. If I needed help. No judgment, no questions. Very inspiring statements from some people there. What I found was a feeling that there is a special inclusive code to these meetings. Not a code of silence or judgment, but a code of acceptance. I do know that there were a number of people there who are not addicts but are dealing with someone who is or just there for support. So I wouldn't worry that much on the risk side. The reward and support side is a 100x stronger. I am going to another meeting tonight, different location. I am going to use every tool and option I have to stop this madness. We have come so far. I don't want to take a chance on going back. I know I do not have the experience of relapse since this is my first time without pills. But I have read enough on this site to pretty much know how easy it is to fall back and start over. I don't want that for me or for anyone else. Go please!!!
Thank you gnarly for the post. I have googled NA meetings numerous times but am so afraid to go bc of my job. I know it's anonymous and you can make up a name but is it truly safe with my occupation? I am completely up for trying the meetings because this period of time is when I tell myself I am fine. Sources are cut off completely and that does help but I know deep down you are right. I will look into going to one Saturday.
Hey Tina congrats on day 7 your off to a great start your attitude rocks!!! and that is everything wile going threw this.... the next critical step is aftercare N/A is free and if your honest with yourself the progam will keep you clean... give you structure in your life....something most addicts dont have it will also help repair the train wreck your life has become living in active addiction ....if you ask around the members here with a lot of clean time ALL do some form of aftercare stopping the pills is the first step but it is not enough...your still left with the addict that is alive and well in your head....this wont go away by itself it needs to be treated.....with time in the program you will loose the very desire to get high and this is the only progam that I know of that can do that for you...if it works for a old dope fiend like me it will work for anyone google N/A meetings in your area if you have questions about the progam feel free to ask this is the single best thing you can do for your recovery give it a try........Gnarly
I am thankful for a of your support! I will keep posting and being motivated and inspired by my MH pals. Definitely easier when you have some awesome flipping people in your corner!
Proud of your posting and inspiration junip. I told you we would be here for you!!! You will not be alone. It is tolerable isn't it:))???
Add either a fruit or veggie to each meal, I had some mandarin oranges in the little cup, easy, no peel, vitamin C.... Good brain food.
Junip and jlannspr -thank you so much for the support as I truly needed that:) And guess what?!?!?!? I am feeling a 100 times better now. I was seriously just hungry…. A combination of hungry and anger to those ignorant of this very real condition LOL:)) No way what it these stupid freaking withdrawals…no way:))
I had some baked chicken and mashed potatoes and I feel like I just ingested a happy pill. Okay so note to you all…diet is so important.
You two --I am so happy we are doing this together:)
I had some baked chicken and mashed potatoes and I feel like I just ingested a happy pill. Okay so note to you all…diet is so important.
You two --I am so happy we are doing this together:)
Your diet is very important right now. Unhealthy foods can make some wd symptoms worse. Fruits and veggies are great snacks. Try to avoid colas or a lot of coffee.
Sweetie, SO eloquently spoken and I am so proud of you! What an inspiration. You brought tears to my eyes...you can make me laugh AND cry, sobriety brings out the best in you ;-). Keep up the great work, my friend.
Good advice and noted. I need to start eating a real lunch as I am probably just HANGRY:)) Need to grab a snickers.. surely it is not withdrawals LOL.
Yes, I have that prob! About 130 to 3 I'd do anything to be able to be done for the day. Lately, I'll get up walk around the office floor, grab a piece of fruit or nuts, something healthy, get a cold fresh bottle of water and rejuvenate. That is a lull time and a fitness speaker we had said to always have a healthy 3 pm snack.
Hey girl ! I am needing your advice right now. And pill guy too ! Need some of your wisdom. The past two days I have been feeling really bad from 12-3 pm. It hits me like a brick wall every time. Is there any remedies that might help ? Due to new job and working 10 hours a day I still haven't found time to join a gym. I know that would help tremendously. Is there anything else I can do ?! Anyone please feel free to comment.
Thank you girl !! You have seen me at my worst and helped pull me out of it I am watching those triggers and have implemented several new things to shut them up. You are right about that bring true battle ! You are a amazing with support and so wise !! Thank you !!
Way to go sista!!!! You have been kicking butt since day one and you are going to succeed this time. I know it!!! It's so nice to not care about refills isn't it ?! So much more free time
I feel you, sister! I am feeling the same way. I just posted an update, too. I am so happy, feeling confident, brighter, shinier, more alive!! One week is a huge accomplishment. I have been here before, but it's different this time. I did it on purpose this time instead of just running out and waiting until it was time for my refill. I am done. I am aware that mentally the struggle can go on, but I REALLY have no desire for a pill. I think it's gonna stay that way. Have a great day. I'll check in later.
Right on....I can't explain enough to people how a new person emerges. We have to get to know a new person now, which is oddly us. It is crazy.
Watch watch watch for triggers as you approach 15-30 days...those were my downfalls.
You Rock.
"When everything seems like an uphill struggle, just think of the view from the top"
Watch watch watch for triggers as you approach 15-30 days...those were my downfalls.
You Rock.
"When everything seems like an uphill struggle, just think of the view from the top"
Bravo Tina! (rises to feet, applauding & smiling!)
It's wonderful to see you amongst 'the living', again.
You're well on your way & yes, please keep posting re: 'the mental aspects' as you'll discover that therein lies the true battle. Keep up the great work, my friend! :)
It's wonderful to see you amongst 'the living', again.
You're well on your way & yes, please keep posting re: 'the mental aspects' as you'll discover that therein lies the true battle. Keep up the great work, my friend! :)
Congrats. So proud of you. See, I told you it would easy LOL. Just posted something similar on mine but still have two days to go. Very good this morning so far. But even if it gets a little rough, I know I can turn to y,all and know you really care and really understand. You are fantastic. Love you so much and look forward to staying on here and watching all others fight and succeed. AWESOME!.
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