Dealing with the depression

[LADYDI4185]

I am currently tapering off 80 mg of hydro's (currently taking 40mg) and I am having a really hardtime today.  I am so depressed I can't stand it.  I am crying one minute and the next I just want to climb in bed and shut off the world.  I don't think  I can do this!  It scares the h*ll out of me that I am not even completely off hydro's and  I am experiencing such overwhelming depression.   I am currently taking an AD for depression that I was diagnosed with years ago but right now I feel it is not working.  Please any words of encouragement would be greatly appreciated!  Ladydi4185

[LADYDI4185]

Hi, thanks for the support.  I am currently taking cybalta 60mg (for over a year) and abilify 5mg to augment the cymbalta.  I hate the depression part of this wd.  I stopped taking hydro's two years ago but only for two weeks because the craving and depression was more than I could handle.  i sound like a wimp!  It is just that the hollow feeling I get inside actually physically hurts.  I cry and sometimes feel better after but i just want to be normal again.  I am afraid my taper plan is going to end on Thursday as I run out of pills but maybe for the best, just getitover with.  I am afraid to use the amino's because on the AD I am on, I thought it was not safe?  Is that just a warning for the Thomas recipe or both?  At this point  will do anything to get  off these pills but need to deal with the emotional part.  I am seeing my therapist tomorrow and I hope that will help.  Thanks again eagle for you support!  ladydi4185

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

What AD are you taking? Those frequently need to be shuffled and you may go through a few before you find an effective one. And of course some can take a couple weeks to kick into gear. How fast has your taper been going? You may want to slow up the taper or accelerate it!  Most advice would be to decrease by 10% for 7-10 days before dropping again. I am really fond of using the amino acids for depression - primarily 5-HTP - sometimes also SaMe..................... sometimes a taper can be almost counter productive, I feel.  Some  more minor symptoms for a long time or more major complaints   for a shorter period of time.    Stay busy  - - keep yourself and your brain occupied..... movies, video games - get some exercise... a walk or a workout. Everything helps........  And you can do this ........ Do you have a comfortable amount of pills such that you could stabalize at a dose until the holiday?  Might be a very good time to make an adjustment.  And remember - - - you have much more to be scared of by trying to continue the pills.  

[bethinime]

Lady I went through the same thing! It was awful. I called my dr and he upped the mg on my antidepressant. I really think he did helpme. I like you as having such a hard time...I coudlnt stop crying. I hated the world. Maybe you can call his office and they can just up what you are taking. I hope your feeling better. I know how hard that part is. That part of wd or tapering tests me the most. I hate feeling depressed like that. I honestly scare myself that I will do something stupid. Thats how bad I can get. Message me if you need to talk.

[dominosarah]

The crying is pretty normal.  Can you contact your doctor and talk with him about your depression?  Maybe a change in meds would help.  You can get thru this.  Think positive!!!!!  Tell yourself you can do this.  I know it is tough but you are tougher!!!  Keep talking with us........sara