this is for at the beach

[looking up]

Hi there., It's darlene again, dont know if you remember me but I sure remember you.  I know you have alot going on but I could really use your help.  Not sure if you remember my background but its not a good one.  I prayed to God for some comfort today and I really didnt feel it, but maybe his comfort is by you.  Please help me in  any way you can.  I am still fighting with the vicodin addiction.  They last about one week and then I deal with the other 3 weeks but I find myself drinking during those last 3 weeks, not all of the time, maybe about twice during the time I am without the vicodin.  I have such a wonderful family, God saved me once when I almost died from alcoholism and I went 11 yrs. with no drinking.  I dont know why I started again, alll I can think of is when I have no vicodin I want some kind or escape, I dont know what from.  I am praying and hoping God will guide me but I am sure he led me to you.  I wanna feel again, I wanna be happy and do things without any medicatioin or alcohol.  I love my family more then anything in life and for God to give me that I feel like I really let him down and I feel bad about lhaving to rely on something to happy.  My time is up, I dont want this feeling anymore, my family doesnt deserve it, they dont know whats going on cause when I see them I am so happy but still I look forward to getting my pills or if not to drinking and I swear to you I dont know why.  Please help me by giving some advice.  I really look up to you, I know whaat you went through with your daughter and I pray she is doing better.  Do you think I should talk to my Priest.  As far as meetings go I dont drive and I have no way of going there, I have gone to some with my sister in law but to me it just sounds like a ritual, everyone knows each other, they go through the book, but I dont feel it.  Please if you can get back to me and help me.  I thank you from the bottom of my heart and my family will also be grateful.  They may not know what I'm doing but in the long they will have me back.  God Bless you and your family.Respectfully and sincerely Darlene ( looking up but really not feeling it)

[Sonrissa]

See! And there she is! I knew she would pop up soon!

[atthebeach]

hi darlene,
of course i remember you. :)  i am so sorry that you are still struggling.
i have often thought of you and wondered how you were doing. i am so glad that you are reaching out for help again. you can do this. we are here to help you and to encourage you.
do you have any pills now?  hun you know that drinking isnt the answer either. have you been to any therapy?
hugs and prayers
debbie

[Sonrissa]

Hi Darlene, and welcome back! I haven't seen Atthebeach (Debbie) in a little while, but I'm sure she will be around soon!  You might try sending her a private message! Take care sweetie! Lots of people here who would be happy to help you!