New here and on day 5 of WD.

[FawnB75]

First Hello I am new to this forum, I have never joined something like this before but, here I go. I have been addicted to 10/325 Norcos for 5 years. I have been prescribed all kinds of pain meds for juvenille OstioArthritus since I was 17 including Marijuana but eveything other than Norco knocked me the hell out so I ended up taking Norco. When I don't take the Norco I not only have the W/D problems but I'm also in pain. I cant take Nsaid meds due to an ulcer so I'm not sure what I'm gonna do. I am on day 5 of NO meds of any kind except xanax at night and for anxiety, I don't feel like I'm "getting better" or "seeing a light at the end". I feel like crap I hurt EVERYWHERE and as you can tell I'm extremely deppressed! I dont want to take the pills anymore because my life is a fog half the time and they effect me emotionally terribly but, I'm completely in love with them, it's like ending a relationship with someone you love, i know it sounds crazy but that's how I feel.I dont have any Norco left (or i would probably take one right now) but I tore through my house and found Darvocets it aint much but it's here in front of me and I'm trying so hard not to take it!

[FawnB75]

Hey Thanx so much and congrats to you for you 66 hours, that's the hardest time!!!!!!!!
Don't feel embarassed we are all here going throught he same exact thing!!!!! That's why we are ALL here, remember that! You can make it to 5pm be strong, I know it's so hard believe me this has been the hardest thing I've ever done and I've given birth to 3 kids ....LOL. Head up and take good care of yourself!
~Brightest Blessings~

[Radiostar55]

Fawn  Congrad on 5 days..I bet you can make it 6  then 7 then 8..For me it's been 66 hours without oxy and oxycodene..I feel  so emabarassed and like a piece of ****..I keep telling people to get Diazipine it has worked real well with WD..I got diaraheaa this morning for the first time..Still a running nose YAWN alot and can't sleep..driving my poor wife crazy..But I feel aliitle bit better today..Wish me luck on making it to 5pm today for 72 hours without

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[FawnB75]

Thank You very much this place has helped me so much, I'm really gratefull!!!!!
To everyone who's responded, thank you so much!!!
Still an everyday battle I'm sure for most of us, And I'm even more sure that we will have to fight the cravings to go back forever!
BUT if we stick together I think it makes it a LOT easier!!!
~Brighest Blessings~

[Danny111]

It wont always be hard FawnB.  It will get steadily easier and easier.  You are through the toughest part and on the downhill side.  You've done really well and should be super proud of yourself.

[FawnB75]

So it's been 10 days since I've last taken any Norco and 5 days since I took 1 Darvocet, I could'nt believe how much it set me back just taking that 1 pill!! But it made me realize just how much of an addict I am........... The physicall withdrawls part is mostly gone ie.......sweats, headache, diareah, shaking, vommiting  ect... but I am having a LOT of nervousness anxiety because I still WANT to be taking them...hahaha WOW I am messed up  : /   I'm trying to keep myself busy but it's still hard, mabey it will always be hard I don't know I have'nt not taken Norco in 5 years for more than a couple days so.....I don't know what my future will be like, I think that is the scary part, not knowing the unsurity of " will I fell this bad FOREVER"
I have been reading some of your postings of people who have been clean for a while and it gives me hope so Thank You!

[FawnB75]

Todays the 5th and I am VERY slowly feeling my brain coming back. I did take 1 Darvocet but then felt ashamed and put them down the garbage disposal. I am having LOTS of trouble sleeping (restless legs) at night and my heart pounds when I am in bed. I am an emotional wreck at times and then I can be fine for a while WOW I feel insane! I hope this gets easier.......I really want ME back whoever that is? It's been so long since I've met ME!!!!!! (if that makes any sence)
Thank You eveyone for your support~Fawn~

[kona2009]

You can do it.  Stay strong and ride the wave.  The emotions will get better with time.  I have been thru this once and clean for almost 1.5 years but something triggered me and here I am on day 3 of wds.  I never went thru any after care and I think that was my problem.  If you can get some type of aftercare try it out.  In the meantime we will also be here for you.  Stay strong!!!!

[kmb22]

you're not crazy we have all felt the same exact way you have.

congrats on five days, don't blow it by taking the darvocets.  flush them.  be strong.

every single person is different, so if you're not seeing the light at the end of the tunnel after just 5 days, don't freak out....you will eventually, i promise.

i am 37 days clean and i still have bad days, it's going to take time, you have to be patient and persistent in your fight to stay clean.

just 2 nights ago i was at work with the worst headache ever and just generally feeling like ****.  i was frantically searching in the back office for advil and i came across the head chef's bottle of tramadol.  i don't even know what tramadol is but i have read things about it on here and i knew it would not only make my headache go away but it would make me feel like a million bucks and super social at work. well, the head chef just recently got his fifth d.u.i. almost o.d. on pain pills after he got out of jail and then punctured his own lung in an attempt to kill himself and called work while he was dying.  we called 911 and his life was saved and he is a facility in denver now awaiting trial for his dui....he will go back to jail ....so he won't be back to work.  i easily could have taken the whole bottle of pills...but i didn't i put them back.  and they are still there staring me in the face every night...

being able to say no is one of the greatest victories you will feel....

remember popping another pill is just going to be temporary relief..

5 days!!!! make it six!!!!