I've been on opiates for 14 years (I was in a bad motorcylcle accident), but the last 4 years have been a living hell. Two years ago I quit taking oxy's, with the help of suboxone. It was a very rough 10 days, but I did it. The thing I hadn't counted on was the amount of pain I would dealing with, every minute of every day, once the opiates were out of my system. I tried numerous alternatives for pain relief: yoga, hot baths,j acuzzis, massages, meditation, ointments. 2 months later, back to oxy's. I hate 'em, I don't like myself too much either. I'm not like the girl I used to be at all. No drive, no motivation (except to find the pills my husband has hidden from me). I take about 250-300 mg oxy a day. PLEASE, SOMEBODY HELP ME END THIS CRAZINESS. I have been trying to quit/cut back for the last 6 months. The lies, sneekiness, and the general change in my personality is really hurting my marriage. I don't like the person I've become. What do I do?