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Do I have a problem?
I dont know if I have a problem. I know its begining to be one. I started taking endocets back in may when my husband decided to leave me. He said he needed something new and he went through a mid life crises buying cars, trucks, a boat, an RV and decided to try and buy a condo worth more then our home in some high risers in downtown Phoenix. Past few months its turned into watson 5mg then 10 mg 512's i believe these are all percocets. Xanex, musell relaxers, valium anything available that makes me feel careless and less pain. Now i take about 10-15 pills a day. The thing is, if i'm way busy I forget and sometimes i take a few pills in morning sometimes i dont take anything until 2 or 3 pm. I feel I can still stop. Can I just quit now cold turkey? What is tapering?
Hi there,
Well, he didn't even give me a chance to go over all I had. He spoke so fast. He had a student also. He showed me on a flat screen where I had 6 areas thathad like white blotches. He took a biopsy of eachand said he wants to meet with me monday to go over results and he said I will be having surgery on thursday. I started to get dressed and he said take care goodbye. I was like..wtf! He dodged all my questions. Maybe I have something and he didnt want to tell me. He was shocked I didnt hurt as bad as I should of. I told him I premedicated myself. :) Opps
So now I have to lose sleep another dang week. My husband did call all day and has been worried sick for me and he cried and he is being so nice. Then I went to sushi with my mom and she lectured me.
She was addicted to pain kilers and Kilodapin i think its called and she's been sober one year on Oct 12.
Well, he didn't even give me a chance to go over all I had. He spoke so fast. He had a student also. He showed me on a flat screen where I had 6 areas thathad like white blotches. He took a biopsy of eachand said he wants to meet with me monday to go over results and he said I will be having surgery on thursday. I started to get dressed and he said take care goodbye. I was like..wtf! He dodged all my questions. Maybe I have something and he didnt want to tell me. He was shocked I didnt hurt as bad as I should of. I told him I premedicated myself. :) Opps
So now I have to lose sleep another dang week. My husband did call all day and has been worried sick for me and he cried and he is being so nice. Then I went to sushi with my mom and she lectured me.
She was addicted to pain kilers and Kilodapin i think its called and she's been sober one year on Oct 12.
Honestly, it's your health. I think you should give him every bit of info you have... it's the only way you are sure to get the best diagnosis.
As for hubby - don't let him back until you are well into a number of sessions of counceling. You know the definition of insanity, right? Make him go FIRST, then let his lying a** home... :)
Good luck with the health stuff. From what I understand, there's alot of reasons a pap can come back abnormal. I once had an abnormal HIV test come back - wanna talk about a scare!! By the Grace of God, it was nothing (I found out later there are many reasons this can happen, but whoa!) Anyway, hopefully it's just something very very minor, or a glitch in the test, like mine was...
Keep me/us posted, ok?
As for hubby - don't let him back until you are well into a number of sessions of counceling. You know the definition of insanity, right? Make him go FIRST, then let his lying a** home... :)
Good luck with the health stuff. From what I understand, there's alot of reasons a pap can come back abnormal. I once had an abnormal HIV test come back - wanna talk about a scare!! By the Grace of God, it was nothing (I found out later there are many reasons this can happen, but whoa!) Anyway, hopefully it's just something very very minor, or a glitch in the test, like mine was...
Keep me/us posted, ok?
He always says he will go. Then when everything gets back to normal he refuses. He says I'm the one that needs the therapy.
Woke up feeling like ****. Only because I had an abnormal pap and I have a colopscopy today. Ive been worried about that past few days.
Do you think I need to tell him what ive been taking. Some have told me it does not matter. But on the pamplet that he sent me itsays to bring and herbs or priscriptions ect.
Woke up feeling like ****. Only because I had an abnormal pap and I have a colopscopy today. Ive been worried about that past few days.
Do you think I need to tell him what ive been taking. Some have told me it does not matter. But on the pamplet that he sent me itsays to bring and herbs or priscriptions ect.
hhehe... me too. like, 4 nights a week i eat it for dinner.
maybe - if he's been a sh** - tell him he can come back on one account: couples therapy.
whatya think??
ps - DON'T feel guilty! that's likely somewhat from a Catholic upbringing (i'm assuming, since you're Hispanic, and I was raised Catholic as well..) which HAMMERED guilt into us. which is, btw, ridiculous now, in my own lil opinion...
maybe - if he's been a sh** - tell him he can come back on one account: couples therapy.
whatya think??
ps - DON'T feel guilty! that's likely somewhat from a Catholic upbringing (i'm assuming, since you're Hispanic, and I was raised Catholic as well..) which HAMMERED guilt into us. which is, btw, ridiculous now, in my own lil opinion...
Yes were seperating and he has ways of making me feel guilty. He just came and said he would get help and he was sorry and he would support me and I want to believe him and my kids miss him and I feel guilty because i made him leave.
I made it up until 9pm. But I went all day and felt ok.
Im also addicted to cereal. Going to go eat cerel now. :)
I made it up until 9pm. But I went all day and felt ok.
Im also addicted to cereal. Going to go eat cerel now. :)
you're divorcing him? good...
and you know what? you get one life sister. not for your family to tell you what to do.... you already know this tho, i am sure...
it ain't easy, i know...
and you know what? you get one life sister. not for your family to tell you what to do.... you already know this tho, i am sure...
it ain't easy, i know...
Yes I do. But my husband is so evil that when he finds them he tells my family and picks on me. He lives to humiliate me so I have to watch what i say. He leaves out the abusive parts though. One day I will pack up and move to a diff state.
My family is hispanic and they would disown me if they new this. Bad enough Im divorcing and thats so bad to them. We are mexican and they are a bit too old fashion.
My family is hispanic and they would disown me if they new this. Bad enough Im divorcing and thats so bad to them. We are mexican and they are a bit too old fashion.
It's 6:50 now and still nothing. However, I do feel nausiated and crabby and shaky...but im ok. Maybe my kids are just driving me nuts.
Thanks so much for chatting with me.
Thanks so much for chatting with me.
well, good luck Brooks.
break-ups are tough, i know my last one took me down, even worse than my divorce...
if you can get by without the pills, great. if you can't, you need to look at the addiction AND why you're taking them (i mean, you know why.... you just have to deal with the feelings you don't wanna feel..)
you know...
break-ups are tough, i know my last one took me down, even worse than my divorce...
if you can get by without the pills, great. if you can't, you need to look at the addiction AND why you're taking them (i mean, you know why.... you just have to deal with the feelings you don't wanna feel..)
you know...
you might be lucky and not go thru withdrawls as many of us have. I wish the best for you. Your mind is a strong thing. USE IT. WILLPOWER
Yea, I think I don't have an addiction problem. Only problem I have is that im mental and have issues! he he
I say this because I decided today I would not take anything at all. I skipped work and I slept till 11, woke up for maybe a half hour and went back to sleep. Just now woke up around 2 and I feel fine. Tiny bit shaky but I made my self have a bowl of cereal.
I was taking all these pills and not eating. I lost about 60 lbs.
However, I do feel like taking something. Perhaps its boredum and stupidity of mine. I'm trying to go all day with nothing. :)
I say this because I decided today I would not take anything at all. I skipped work and I slept till 11, woke up for maybe a half hour and went back to sleep. Just now woke up around 2 and I feel fine. Tiny bit shaky but I made my self have a bowl of cereal.
I was taking all these pills and not eating. I lost about 60 lbs.
However, I do feel like taking something. Perhaps its boredum and stupidity of mine. I'm trying to go all day with nothing. :)
Well... you could say that if the situation is bothering you, you do have a problem.
Try cold turkey, see how it goes. You've been taking this stuff a fairly short time, you may be alright. But you should do/see something about your troubled mental state, that got you started on this.
If you do start suffering physical withdrawals, you should work on a tapering schedule, perhaps with a doctor if you feel you can trust him/her...
Try cold turkey, see how it goes. You've been taking this stuff a fairly short time, you may be alright. But you should do/see something about your troubled mental state, that got you started on this.
If you do start suffering physical withdrawals, you should work on a tapering schedule, perhaps with a doctor if you feel you can trust him/her...
ive drank hard liquor half my life (im 31) a LOT too, and took millions of painkillers with tons of tylenol and my liver tests came back just fine. dont worry about it unless it becomes a problem. you have bigger issues to deal with right now. quit taking the pills and see what happens. youre gonna get sick. but if your mind can deal without being on them, youll soon be on your way to sobriety.
Thank you.
I know I'm being young and dumb. I have never been prescribed anything that I take. Before I started , I never even smoked a cigerrete in my life, no drugs and hardly ever drink. I was all wierd about any meds even over the counter because i knew it's not good on the liver. Do you think Ive done any damage to my liver already? Or is it soon enough to get out of this clean and healthy?
KB
I know I'm being young and dumb. I have never been prescribed anything that I take. Before I started , I never even smoked a cigerrete in my life, no drugs and hardly ever drink. I was all wierd about any meds even over the counter because i knew it's not good on the liver. Do you think Ive done any damage to my liver already? Or is it soon enough to get out of this clean and healthy?
KB
Hi and welcome to this forum! You've found a great place for getting information and support!
I will start by saying this...if you are taking pills for any reason other than that for which they are prescribed you have a problem. It may or may not be physical addiction at this point, but you are definately exhibiting addictive behavior and if you don't get it under control now you will most definately find yourself a year from now very physically as well as psychologically addicted.
Taking pills to numb emotional pain is a temptation all addicts face. The problem is, as long as you're numbing yourself to the pain, you cannot work through it and move on with your life...and this is just the LEAST of the problems with it.
Please do yourself a favor and stop this behavior now before it totally takes control of your life. I promise you that if you don't, a couple of years from now you will look back longingly and GLADLY trade your addiction for ANY other pain, emotional or otherwise.
Good luck to you and if I can help or answer any questions please ask.
Rosie
I will start by saying this...if you are taking pills for any reason other than that for which they are prescribed you have a problem. It may or may not be physical addiction at this point, but you are definately exhibiting addictive behavior and if you don't get it under control now you will most definately find yourself a year from now very physically as well as psychologically addicted.
Taking pills to numb emotional pain is a temptation all addicts face. The problem is, as long as you're numbing yourself to the pain, you cannot work through it and move on with your life...and this is just the LEAST of the problems with it.
Please do yourself a favor and stop this behavior now before it totally takes control of your life. I promise you that if you don't, a couple of years from now you will look back longingly and GLADLY trade your addiction for ANY other pain, emotional or otherwise.
Good luck to you and if I can help or answer any questions please ask.
Rosie
yes, you have a problem..
you can quit either way. tapering is cutting down slowly, til you end up at nothing (someone else on here could give you a good taper sked, i'm afraid i don't know one.)
or, you can quit cold turkey like alot of us did.
if you do go c/t, try to get your hands on some Clonidine. it's a blodd pressure med and it will relieve w/d symptoms dramatically. if you can't get that, punch in The Thomas Recipe in the above search engine - info will come up which tells you what to expect in terms of symptoms during w/d's and the best stuff you can take to relieve them.
it's not fun, but it's totally doable - lot's of us have.
i hope you will. you'll have to deal with the grief eventually or it literally eats you alive... and the only way past it is through it.
i wish you very well... also, keep posting on here, it helps tremendously.
good luck...
mj
you can quit either way. tapering is cutting down slowly, til you end up at nothing (someone else on here could give you a good taper sked, i'm afraid i don't know one.)
or, you can quit cold turkey like alot of us did.
if you do go c/t, try to get your hands on some Clonidine. it's a blodd pressure med and it will relieve w/d symptoms dramatically. if you can't get that, punch in The Thomas Recipe in the above search engine - info will come up which tells you what to expect in terms of symptoms during w/d's and the best stuff you can take to relieve them.
it's not fun, but it's totally doable - lot's of us have.
i hope you will. you'll have to deal with the grief eventually or it literally eats you alive... and the only way past it is through it.
i wish you very well... also, keep posting on here, it helps tremendously.
good luck...
mj
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