would like some assurance on how to act

[saraberry555]

I had a history of drugs, i lost my children and went to prison, the case worker came to my house, because i've been sober 5 months, i go to a.a., she was telling me i will get to see my children, and now when i go to the a.a. meetings there are other women there that are in the trial of loosing there children, well i just herd one girl say that they are telling her she cant be my friend, but the truth is i'm the one helping her the most right now and i have told her alot about my feelings and how i love my sobriety and now i'm going to be married to a man who has 8 years sober, and not only that, but i think the case worker is lying to me and that she only wanted to tell me i could see my kids so that i would give them my son's baby book and get all my health history, so, i understand it must take more than 5 months to get any of there trust, but i feel like they want me to go use and the thing is I'M STAYING SOBER FOR ME.  and i like it so they can kiss my ***, i go to meetings 5 nights a week i have a sponsor and i read the books like i'm supposed to, but i guess since they cant find any trouble with me any more, they just want to hurt my feelings, well my Fiancé is going to write the judge and i'm not even in trouble for anything, but the other girls are and they say i cant be encouragement for them because of my history
what should i feel? i'm angry and hurt they are lieing to me about seeing my children.

[dominosarah]

Hold your head high too.....You are working to make your life better and that is something to be proud of~~

[tgtiffany]

Whatever you do don't give in and go back, otherwise there is NO chance of getting your kiddos back for a while more.  You can do this, just keep going :)  They don't WANT you to use, but the CPS system is a joke.  They try so hard to "make sure it's safe" for the kids to go back home they usually are paying attention to the wrong people!!!  Keep your head up okay and stay clean for you and your kids.  It might take a while longer to get them, but you can get them back :) Good luck

[saraberry555]

Thank you for your support. It's a great day to live sober.
Sarah

[theirmommie72]

gotta love the court system.  they want you to be a productive member of society but always seem to try and make it hard for you.  stand your ground.  this isn't the first story i have heard of this type of behavior.  you are doing great.  know that and when it's all said and done, you will have your kids and be happily married.  i know it's hard but you know what is going on with you so anyone else can kiss your boonda.  lol