Feels GREAT but.............

[buncogirl003]

I am at 4 months of NO pain pills!!!  Physically...I feel great BUT......those pills made me ramble non stop.  I was ALWAYS talking!!  Now......I seem to struggle to make conversation.  I can not think of a think to say!!!  It is so quiet now!!!  

And thank you ALL who got me thru!!!  You are all INCREDIBLE people!!!

Now if I could just learn to make conversation again......life would be GRAND!!!

[selfinduced]

Hi Bunco, Just want to send my congrats for 4 months. I can't add anything more than perco said. You know , these pills change us in way we don't fully realize till we stop. I too thought I was the most interesting person in the world when I used, but after a few years my family and friends said.....Whats going on, you've changed? Now, it's funny, I swear I can almost feel the "over chatter vibe" of others I interact with that are on pills. Kinda bothers me ha. Anyway, So very proud of you.

[minn66]

Bunco! Great to hear from you! I am a lot more reserved now, too. On the pills I would just jump into a conversation, sometimes to the point of interrupting. I thought I was being sociable. I got a nice compliment the other day. Someone told me that I'm a good listener! A good friend once said that less is more. I find that now, I learn more if I just sit back and observe. At first I thought I was losing confidence, now I'm beginning to realize sometimes the less I say, the better and that people will pay more attention when you do speak.

Congratulations on 4 months, that's fantastic and very inspirational! Keep up the excellent work and don't be a stranger :)

Hugs,
Minn

[Stacy_Lynn]

OMG I feel the same, as a hairstylist i feel like i needed to have convo with my clients but after a month my old self has seem to come back, thank goodness!! I've learned to realize my conversations now days seem to have a lot more meaning. Hope u get the same grove back!

[Dixiechick72]

Very well said perco!!! I couldn't agree more though. I think we have all been there though taking pills or a drink. And I bet we did sound a lot stupider then we think we did. :)  I'm a big time reserved person. But when I knew I was going to see someone I'd throw a few back in hopes to be the happy no care in the world person. But we really do make idiots of ourselves. Maybe now ur conversations will have more meaning and better yet you will actually remember what was said. Do u realize how many times I've done this and can't recall a conversation or a movie?? Thats pathetic. What's cool is ur 4 months sober AWESOME job. I can't wait to be there myself now. Even better remembering my way there!!! Good job!!! Big hugs. Great inspiration to us!!!  Hang in there ok

[perco13]

Congratulations on your 4 months!! its an awesome accomplishment. i hope you continue with your journey and only make positive progress. I know from experience that when i was on pills i was a lot more talkative but i also said a lot of stupid things and probably didn't sound so smart. The pills take away our inhibitions and thats why its so easy to talk to anyone. However im sure we didnt sound as smart as we thought we did and im sure people were probably able to tell we werent in the right state of mind. Being sober now maybe you dont ramble on but im sure you can have real intelligent conversation and feel real emotions. That is the only conversation that means something, that is how we build REAL lasting reciprocal relationships with people. keep up the good work! and remember you aren't losing anything by not taking those pills. Always be happy with who you are, sometimes its a good thing to be a bit reserved. No reason to pressure yourself to speak. Best of luck!!

[Bones216]

Congratulations that is an incredible achievement. I'm sure you are feeling great and much healthier. I really think that those evil little pills are playing mind games with you and probably always will for both of us. TAKE ME! AND YOU WILL BE THE LIFE OF THE PARTY. Don't listen to them, or ever let them control your life again.
You give me hope and inspiration, and I'm vey proud of you.
Best wishes

[buncogirl003]

Thanks for jumping on!!!  I was always a talker so me not talking is strange but all friends agree that me quieter is better then me never shutting up!!

Congrats on 7 days!!!  Keep it up!!  You WILL feel so much better!!

[Sonrissa]

Hi Bunco! Congrats on your 4 months! Wow, that is so awesome! Ya know I am the same way! When I am taking pills I will talk for hours and hours! Normally I am very very quiet and shy! The funny thing is that I am 7 days clean from pain pills and just really starting to feel better from withdrawals! Last night I could not stop talking! I blabbed and blabbed and it truly felt like I was high again! It was the strangest thing! But now, I'm back to my normal quiet self! Best wishes!