What an awesome and passionate post! Thanks for sharing, I'm always looking on here and reading people's experiences, and it helps me more than you know! Congrats!
So HAPPY for you!!!! You obviously know what it takes to STAY clean and have a plan for your ongoing recovery.
I was so jazzed as I read down your thread and saw "how" you eliminated the trams from your presence!!! Great job!
I have never regretted it for even one second that I got ALL my pills out of my house and cut off all my sources. My feeling is "we don't need a safety net or a "back up plan" if we are TRULY done!!
You Rock~
Thank you girl!! I appreciate your "bumping" this up. I did realize, after the fact, that this post was made. And I could NOT be happier to read this. Hydro, you rock. You just DO.
Hydro - thought I'd "BUMP" this up; it had gone on to the second page....and I don't think ImDONE or Kyle had a chance to see this!
So...how do you REALLY feel? LOL. Good for you on those days tram free...
I think it's important for everyone to hear/read about your experience. Tramadol is one of the more insidious drugs, I think. It just grabs you and it's been touted as such a benign little pain killer. It really changes brain chemicals in a big way! And you're one of many, many people who've fallen victim...
I'm glad you're feeling better!
Wow! That is great to hear....showed those pills whose boss! I love it! Even though you are feeling good right now, you just never know; in a moment of weakness they could have (probably would have) called out to you. Tramadol is really, really evil in that way. Great advice from ImDONE, and very smart of you for making the choice to DO IT! Congratulations....so happy for you!
I soaked them in a wet paper towel last night and threw them in the garbage. My wife watched me do it and they are all destroyed. I had NO fear of them on the counter..... NO desire to take them since my WD's had subsided etc. I made up the decision in my mind to NEVER touch them again so it did not matter how many...where....etc. But to be safe..... I took your advice and threw them away. Thanks for your concern, guidance and support.
Correction: from one RECOVERING tram addict to another. :)
I am so happy to read this!! But I have to mention the pink elephant... WHY do you still have these pills in your possession? Our history of addiction has to be a warning that we can NOT be around our DOC and believe me, we get excited early on when we're doing well, but we can not let our guard down. EVER. Please, hydro, for your sake and continued well being, please PLEASE get rid of them. And now.
Hope I'm not coming across as a wet blanket, because as I said, I really am happy to hear this. Just looking out for you (from one tram addict to another). :)
WOW Hydro, Such a phenomenal post! You've come so far and experienced so much. Too think you NEVER have to go thru another detox again......HOW AMAZING IT THAT? Hope you stick around and pull the rest of us up with your wise words. So very happy for you.
Great post Hydro_,
It sounds like you've stayed clean for a long time by going to meetings or some other form of aftercare?? I stayed clean for many years by going to meetings, blew out my back and quickly got hooked on pain meeds. And then ALL my old drugs came back out again, lined up on the coffee table. I'm now clean 7 months from a 2-year binge.
I've found that keeping my mind positive and in the present has been difficult. Sometime during the day, every day, I dwell on the past; what it was like and what it's like now. So, I'm back to my meetings (got one I'm going to n 45 min.) and I'm working on letting go of the past. I'm doing the NA 4th step from the step workbook with 6 others from my home group. It's that past that creeps up and bites us in the A- - in the form of our addiction. After coming back after multiple years of being clean and then going back out, I have some work to do. I want enjoy being free and clean without anything causing me any more grief. If you can identify with any of this, let me know. I'd love to communicate with you on the subject.
Again, great post! It will really help others on here know how bad things can get in too short of a time - Jails, institutions and death are the bitter end of the line for addiction.
Very inspiring! It does feel so wonderful to be able to do things without reaching for a stupid pill. Enjoy your freedom!
Congrats on being done with it all! Great job....you have been through so much and come a long way. Thanks for the positive and inspiring post. Love it...especially the "Screw You Tram" part! So happy for you to get your life back and start over....!
congrats on 2 days!! that's great!....sounds like you've come and long way....up the road and back down again....thank you for posting this...it will surely help the new comers and me and well...congrats again!!