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Liver damage...I'm scared
I took about 20 7.5/500 vicodin in just shy of 24 hours. I had some nauseau the first several hours after the last dose, but never threw up. I have been reading a lot about liver failure symptoms hitting you 24-72 hours after the dose. I am feeling OK today and am over 24 hours out now. But I am still scared to death. I've used vicodin on and off for the past several years and am ready to be done. I threw the rest of the pills away.
Just wanted to update you. I'm on day 6 and starting to feel MUCH better. I told my best friend, my mom (who I was stealing from), and my husband what was going on. They were all extremely supportive. I'm headed to see a counselor next week. THANK YOU for your support---it really helped me get through the fear last week.
Just wanted to update you. I'm on day 6 and starting to feel MUCH better. I told my best friend, my mom (who I was stealing from), and my husband what was going on. They were all extremely supportive. I'm headed to see a counselor next week. THANK YOU for your support---it really helped me get through the fear last week.
Thank you IBKleen, for your words of support. I will definitely check out the NA site. I have looked at in the past and contemplated going, but always convinced myself I could do it on my own. Clearly not the case!!! Your support really helped, thank you.
Anyone here who has NOT stolen pain meds from family or friends, please raise your hand? Anyone? I thought so.
Hun, we have all done those terrible things and some have done much worse. If I continue to beat myself up about it and allow myself to feel the guilt, I can't go forward and I can't heal. Being under the influence is never an excuse for hurting someone but the drugs make us different people.
With time and some recovery tools, you can deal with making amends at a later date. There are many different ways to make amends.
If you would like to attend an NA meeting and get a feeling for what the program and the fellowship is all about, click on this link and type in your zip code. You will find all the meetings in your area. And, just in case you are thinking it---there is no shame in going there and no shame in asking for help. It shows a lot about your resolve and your promise to yourself to stay away from those devil pills.
http://portaltools.na.org/portaltools/MeetingLoc/
Stick around and let us know how you are doing. Best of luck.
Hun, we have all done those terrible things and some have done much worse. If I continue to beat myself up about it and allow myself to feel the guilt, I can't go forward and I can't heal. Being under the influence is never an excuse for hurting someone but the drugs make us different people.
With time and some recovery tools, you can deal with making amends at a later date. There are many different ways to make amends.
If you would like to attend an NA meeting and get a feeling for what the program and the fellowship is all about, click on this link and type in your zip code. You will find all the meetings in your area. And, just in case you are thinking it---there is no shame in going there and no shame in asking for help. It shows a lot about your resolve and your promise to yourself to stay away from those devil pills.
http://portaltools.na.org/portaltools/MeetingLoc/
Stick around and let us know how you are doing. Best of luck.
Tylenol is all weight based getting better and as long as you have not chronically abused your liver you have nothing to worry about in the short term. However any tylenol use is hard on your liver in the long run. A Johns Hopkins study shows that taking just one tylenol a day for a year straight doubles you risk of eventual liver failure. So be careful with it! All the tylenol I was ingesting with the pain pills was my big wake up call years back.
Like I've said: There's no such thing as a failure who keeps on trying....
You are on the right track. You know your brain is going to try to convince you to take the stuff....don't feel ashamed...feel empowered because now you are AWARE of this disease and you are going to fight it with all you have. I'm glad you can post and talk about things....it does help with the guilt.
But, guilt and shame will not change the future. Work hard to stay clean and keep posting.
I had many 'pauses' in my life......it's time to decide to hit 'stop' Get someone to talk to...admit what is going on...it makes it so much nicer and easier and happier to feel understood :-)
Stay strong
Greebs
You are on the right track. You know your brain is going to try to convince you to take the stuff....don't feel ashamed...feel empowered because now you are AWARE of this disease and you are going to fight it with all you have. I'm glad you can post and talk about things....it does help with the guilt.
But, guilt and shame will not change the future. Work hard to stay clean and keep posting.
I had many 'pauses' in my life......it's time to decide to hit 'stop' Get someone to talk to...admit what is going on...it makes it so much nicer and easier and happier to feel understood :-)
Stay strong
Greebs
Thank you so much IBKleen for those words. You are so right. I do not want to harm myself and definitley use vicoden as a stress reliever. It is so stupid. I agree too that it is easy to forget this feeling of fear. I have vowed to never do this again, but did. I have a great life, a wonderful family, and so much to live for. It is so not worth it and that is what blows me away about doing it over and over. It really, really scares me. Sadly, I have stolen pain meds from family members. Awful. Just awful.
Thanks so much Greagreebo. I agree that I am addicted. I would really like to see a counselor and plan to do that. Every time I would "stop" I would justify to myself why I didn't need help, but the reality is that I have never "stopped," just have had some pauses. It is a hard thing to admit. It's funny, someone gave me vicodin for my back so long ago and I was completely clueless about it. I've never done any other drugs, I don't drink---it is some powerful stuff and I'm amazed at the tricks it plays on my brain. I wish I could go back in time and never have felt that euphoria from this pill. I cannot achieve that feeling anymore, which is another irony of still taking them. It blows my mind and I am so ashamed. It is nice to be here and be able to express this.
I hope you don't touch them again hun. But we have selective memory and tend to easily forget the bad stuff.
So, you are going to really need to change some things in your life to become bullet proof as much as you can. If you got the pills from a friend, you may want to reconsider your friendships, at least that one anyway. And if you are still suffering with pain, then talk with your doctor about alternative pain methods, or ask here or in the pain mngt community.
With what you did you could have easily harmed yourself or over-dosed. I don't think that is what you wanted. And I just think, with what you wrote, that you were looking to get high more than control the pain. If so, please look into getting some help with that. Self-medicating is not a good way to deal with things going on in your life, or your emotions, etc. There are other ways and I hope you find them.
Hang around here and ask for help. There is great support here when you reach out.
I wish you the best.
So, you are going to really need to change some things in your life to become bullet proof as much as you can. If you got the pills from a friend, you may want to reconsider your friendships, at least that one anyway. And if you are still suffering with pain, then talk with your doctor about alternative pain methods, or ask here or in the pain mngt community.
With what you did you could have easily harmed yourself or over-dosed. I don't think that is what you wanted. And I just think, with what you wrote, that you were looking to get high more than control the pain. If so, please look into getting some help with that. Self-medicating is not a good way to deal with things going on in your life, or your emotions, etc. There are other ways and I hope you find them.
Hang around here and ask for help. There is great support here when you reach out.
I wish you the best.
Live and learn....at least you figured it out before you end up like the bulk of us, physically dependent and severely mentally addicted. Stop now while you still have your life. This is no way to live, and you will end up killing yourself if you don't stop.
Good job on realizing your mistakes. Since you are talking them to get high, is there some sort of counselor or NA group you would be willing to attend? It's really good to have someone to talk to. Addiction is a disease and you have it my friend. Fight hard to stay clean and don't slide back into popping pills once the memory of this 'fear' fades.....get some help.
Stay strong,
Greatgreebo
Good job on realizing your mistakes. Since you are talking them to get high, is there some sort of counselor or NA group you would be willing to attend? It's really good to have someone to talk to. Addiction is a disease and you have it my friend. Fight hard to stay clean and don't slide back into popping pills once the memory of this 'fear' fades.....get some help.
Stay strong,
Greatgreebo
Thank you all. It started several years ago with back pain. I have taken them on an off for several years depending on access. I was taking them to get a high. I have no idea why I have suddenly racheted up the amount this time. It defies understanding. I need more and more to get a high each time I do it. I have really scared myself to death this time and NEVER want to do this again.
ps....is this your first time using vicoden? if so, WHY would you take such a huge amount?
Go to your doctor and ask them to run some blood work....liver panels etc. The tylenol is what you need to be worried about...usually if there is some huge problem, you will know it by now (very ill, turning yellow, pain in the abdomen, confusion etc). Tell your doctor you injested a large amounts of tylenol (accidently-between the cold medicine, cough syrup and tylenol you were taking for a bug) and you wonder if you should have your liver tested....Start there....flush the vicoden and be glad you got out now, while you still have a life.......tylenol poisoning is NOTHING to mess around with. I've seen some really terrible things in the hospital from acute tylenol poisoning. You obviously don't have that, but still should check with your doctor if you are worried. Also, no booze etc for the next few weeks. Lots of clean water and fruits and veggies to give your live time to clean itself up.
Stay strong,
Greatgreebo
Stay strong,
Greatgreebo
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What was the reason you took so many? Have you done this before?
Hi,
If anything were going to happen, you would have known it by now. Hopefully this is a huge wake-up call for you and you have learned something from it. Are you feeling any withdrawal or was that the only time you took them? And if you don't mind my asking---why did you take so many in such a short period time? Were you in pain or looking to get high?
If anything were going to happen, you would have known it by now. Hopefully this is a huge wake-up call for you and you have learned something from it. Are you feeling any withdrawal or was that the only time you took them? And if you don't mind my asking---why did you take so many in such a short period time? Were you in pain or looking to get high?
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