First day of Methadone Intake in the morning, SCARED and curious

[EmeraldEyesNJ]

Hi everyone.. I am honestly hoping that someone would read this and reply. So here goes, I am going to begin Methadone Detox/Treatment tomorrow morning for intake. I was told this is a counseling session, bloodwork, etc. i have no idea what to expect, so if anyone who has been though this before could help me easy my fears I would appreciate it more than you could know. Are they going to begin me on treatment tomorrow? Or am I going to have to wait until who knows and go into withdrawl and stuff...

[Jenlynapple]

I believe for some users it's an answer but for others it's the worst , I call it liquid handcuffs and I feel like another I read I'm numb , my emotions out of whack , just living and that's it I barely laugh , I'm anti social , I was an out going funny girl once , now I feel like a robot best I can describe it , going to try my luck at comming off meth again , I'm at 20 lowest Iv been was 8 and couldn't take the withdrawl while having to be a single parent and work too , the constant nausea is terrible for me nothing takes it away , I cry I can't get out of bed , I honestly honesty think methadone is the biggest mistake of my life , my opinion thou

[milkymilk02]

hey, its nice to see all these posts from people who are in the same boat as I am in! being a heroin addict, I have gotten so so used to not having anyone to talk to that understands what people like you and I are going through, so thanks! I know this reply is a bit late, but, hey, better late than never right!?...im a heroin addict, 30 years old, and been using opiates for fifteen years now, heroin for six years...I have been on suboxone four different times, the first time I was on it was for addiction to pain pills like vicodan, Percocet, dilaudid...things like that and sub worked wonderfull for me for pain pill dependency! after detoxing from subs, and going back to using three times, and getting into heroin, and than going back onto subs after becoming addicted to heroin, I found that suboxone does not work well for heroin addiction at all, it does not by any means help whatsoever! I am now going to my first methadone appointment on Monday, five days from now, I have never ever tried methadone, not legally or illegaly, but, I now feel I have no other hope whatsoever other than to get on methadone! I can not wait to take my first dose, I am so tired of being a slave to heroin, the needle, and the dopeman...I am sooooo excited to begin methadone maintainence, I am more than ready to put the dope down and continue on with my life without being a slave to the dope and the needle...I am very lucky to be alive even, after many overdoses, and, abcesses, I have scars on my arms from abcesses and having to get them drained and having holes in my arms...methadone sounds like a god send to me after trying many many countless amounts of times to get clean...only to get sicker and sicker and sicker every time I try to kick...I just don't seem to be strong enough anymore to kick on my own...the only time I was successful was in 2011 , I kicked cold turkey and stayed clean for three months...it was wonderfull but I just cant seem to do it again, ive tried so many times just to fail...now, methadone feels like the only chance I have to get clean, I feel if I do not get on methadone, it is only a matter of time before I become another statistic of the number of people who die every single day due to heroin od...I can not say enough how excited and happy I am to begin methadone treatment and put down the needle and get on with my life and my family life once again...or instead of saying once again, I should say, finally, or, for the first time...I know im rambling, but, I am just so happy and excited!!~  heroin is so aweful, how we get into it, I do not know how or why, I just know that I would like to tell as many people as possible that heroin and all other drugs are just a waste of time and a waste of life...it will take your life over, it will ruin your life and everything in and around your life, it is the devil...do you have any advice for me with methadone clinic? any advice on how I can talk to my family, and try to help them understand my addiction without getting mad at me, or without me hurting them anymore? I  have hurt them enough already, I just need them to try to understand...family is all I have in my life...idk what im trying to say or ask in this long *** paragraph... I guess it just feels good to ramble on...thanks everyone, hope to here back from you all soon!!!

[kookiekellie]

Hi i am 28 new to this
Ive been taking heroin since my 16th birthday.
But i found love 6 yrs ago and moved away from the area
Ive been taking methadone for 5 and a half years.
I tapered down over the last 5 years from 120 right down to 5 mils
I started a home detox with tablets the doctors gave me but my withdrawals were to emmence from the right off and i felt my brain wouldn't couldn't function i couldn't even talk to my daughter who is 8 i couldn't even get up or be awake in them 10 days so i would miss out my antidepressant cause i was asleep and sleep i needed.
I gave up because i felt i was alone and took 5 mils of methadone after being in pain for 12 days.i was in bed wacked out on the tablets the doctors gave me to detox for 10 days i couldn't do anything.and when i told my worker i had taken the 5 mils i was shouted at and that made things worse.the anxiety was emmence so much so i lost weight in a month after i started bk with methadone i was a size 12 uk now im a size 6 uk and fit into 10-11 kids clothes uk

But now i am doing things alone cold turkey my docs dont know of this yet my last does was on the 9/11/13 that was half a mil i have been feeling very cold agitated pain in my legs arms anxious but its not emmence as of yet i have been using 1 zopiclone at night . And so far have been able to take my antidepressants.
I have an appointment tomorow to see a doctor this is not my usual one but im needing to tell them what i am trying to do.
Ive done a cold Turkey off heroin before i mean with nothing and i successfully made it through for months without anything but the depression kicks in and i went bk on it.
Methadone isn't a drug to be taken lightly i know this now but didn't then.
I'm able to write today and it would be nice to have someone to talk to anyone out there that has done this and comeout the other side please give me advice.today i have taken a multi vitamin and I'm not sure if i am ment to but i took a 20mils dose of beechams all in one the reccomended does.
Anyone that will help to tell me if or what more i might expect i will truly be greatful.
Enough of my ramblings its just a bit about me

[Terrapin0210]

Hi I have my intake apointment to get into a methadone clinic tomorrow morning then on Monday I see the doctor, I have no idea what to expect tomorrow, I don't know if I'm suppose to go in withdrawing or if I'm suppose to go in with opiates in my system. I'm so scAred i will get refused for one or the other. Since you have recently been through it I was hoping you could share with me exactly what the process was like so i know what to expect and what I need to do. Thanks so much
Terrapin

[MrWicked32]

Methadone withdraws???? They brought me down 5 Mgs per week and it was an easy slip out of it. Just a little more sweat than normal. In the peak of the heroin addiction I was using anywhere from .5 to 2 grams a day(whatever I could get my hands on) methadone was my savior. I have gained freedom....I tried suboxone but it made me nauseas

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