I am now again getting off pills OXYCONTIN I have been really strong for the last 2 wks my turning point was realizing that I am lazy unmotivated by the high amounts of oxycontin that I once thought was giving me energy and making me happy I now know it is a lie I am not getting nothing done I just dont care whether or not I get it done! This summer has been horrible I have had one bad thing happen after another my engine went in my favorite vehicle I had a really nice GMC suburban I then had to take every penny and put it into another vehicle, my daughter went from bad to worse she is diagnosed add, ocd, bi-polar disorder and she is 14 last week I took my other 2 girls on vacation to ceadr pointe keeping my word and not taking my 14 yr old because of her constant disrespect and lying, stealing the doctor says she is exhibitibg all the signs of addiction (she is not an addict) he asked me was there any problems with addiction with me or her father ofcourse I lied and said no but the truth I have been batteling one addiction after another alcohol, cocaine, pills, pills have been the addiction that I cant seem to beet 7yrs started at vicodin and now oxycontin I went to rehab it took almost 3 months to feel normal and back I went againg thinking I could use occasionaly yeah right! but anyways when we got home she was acting out as usual I asked her to get out of my room and she would not I got up and tried to remove her and she had the nerve to say YOU DONT RUN UP ON A BLACK PERSON LIKE THAT! I lost it she is biracial and I am her mom I knocked the **** out of her and then she started yelling I am gonna murder you I was furious I had enough this time I had her picked up by the police and locked up. The guilt sets in I am thinking if I wasnt a junkie maybe I could see what is really bothering her, I am sure I am missing almost everything since i am always in a fog and stay in my room when I am not at work most of the time. I am always feling tired or depressed doing just enough around the house just to get by, these stupid pills are robbing my energy my happiness my money etc......anyways if my daughter can suffer lock up and cold turkey from her concerta shes been on since 7 yrs old, I can suffer getting off this **** so I can be the mother I once was energetic, caring, clean I always made sure my house was clean and organized now I just dont care. I have cut my usual use in half in the last 2wks and it hurts but I read my bible and pray and it gives me the motivation I need but right now my back is killing me and spasms are shooting through my muscles but I am feeling some motivation again. HAS ANYONE SUCCESFULLY GOT OFF THIS BY TAPERING? I know cold turkey is the best but I have to be able to function and I couldnt function at all last time I CT off this **** for about a month I could barely prepare a meal so that is not an option this time.