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Feelin yucky
I know thous who has replied 2 my last postings 'sad and need support' mean well but this is not easy 2 kick and I'm trying the best way I can for me. I feel like sh@t rt now and more discouraged than encouraged. Not tryin to be ungrateful, but REALLY fighting this! I hope I can cause I want to be free of this devil! Sometime just wish I died so I could be free. Can anyone out there; especially any mommy's relate???
Hi & Welcome-
I'm a stay at home mom to three kids- 10, 4, & 2. It is hard- really hard. No one here is going to dispute that, but if you don't stop now, what's the alternative? Staying on this crazy hamster wheel, needing more, taking more, taking more, needing more- it never ends well, unless you choose to get off.
I'm on day 18 off of 100-130 mgs norco. I've been abusing on and off for several years, but really got bad over the last 3. Another mom poster had made the comment a few days back that the pills gave her sense of being superwoman- being able to take care of her kids, clean the house, essentially do everything she needed to do and then some. That post really resonated with me because I felt the same way. Being a few weeks out of it, I now realize what an illusion I was living in. Maybe initially, I had those superwoman feelings, but in reality- towards the end, I didn't care about anything but getting my next high. I needed to be high to even consider doing the most routine things and even then, I very rarely would do anything but the basics. Long story short- I was not being a good mom, wife, friend, or daughter to anyone- let alone doing myself any favors.
The wd's of detox will pass soon. Its tough, but doable. The hard work lays ahead in staying clean- again, hard, but doable. There are a loot of things that keep me motivated- my kids at the top of the list- but even more than that is that I want "me" back. I want the woman that I was before the pills- the good, the bad and everything in between and I know she's still in here somewhere. It may take a while to get to where I want to be, but even so, the struggle I face now is easier than the one I was on constantly running that hamster wheel.
You can do this- Support is critical- Aftercare is critical, but be kind and gentle to yourself. Its a process of taking each day as it comes and triumphing one step at a time.
Steph
I'm a stay at home mom to three kids- 10, 4, & 2. It is hard- really hard. No one here is going to dispute that, but if you don't stop now, what's the alternative? Staying on this crazy hamster wheel, needing more, taking more, taking more, needing more- it never ends well, unless you choose to get off.
I'm on day 18 off of 100-130 mgs norco. I've been abusing on and off for several years, but really got bad over the last 3. Another mom poster had made the comment a few days back that the pills gave her sense of being superwoman- being able to take care of her kids, clean the house, essentially do everything she needed to do and then some. That post really resonated with me because I felt the same way. Being a few weeks out of it, I now realize what an illusion I was living in. Maybe initially, I had those superwoman feelings, but in reality- towards the end, I didn't care about anything but getting my next high. I needed to be high to even consider doing the most routine things and even then, I very rarely would do anything but the basics. Long story short- I was not being a good mom, wife, friend, or daughter to anyone- let alone doing myself any favors.
The wd's of detox will pass soon. Its tough, but doable. The hard work lays ahead in staying clean- again, hard, but doable. There are a loot of things that keep me motivated- my kids at the top of the list- but even more than that is that I want "me" back. I want the woman that I was before the pills- the good, the bad and everything in between and I know she's still in here somewhere. It may take a while to get to where I want to be, but even so, the struggle I face now is easier than the one I was on constantly running that hamster wheel.
You can do this- Support is critical- Aftercare is critical, but be kind and gentle to yourself. Its a process of taking each day as it comes and triumphing one step at a time.
Steph
hi, i just wanted to send a word of encouragement, and support, stay positive and good luck, it will be great for your kids to have their mum back, god bless.
I go back to work Monday (was off this week to commence detox). Scared, I'm going to beat this!!!! I'm committed and believe in my will, but only thru God's grace. I knew when I finally made up my mind to detox I would be successful. It's hell, but I'm worth it and so are my little babies. Up and down moments....but won't give up this fight. I'm so glad to have this forum for support! Im here for any of you too if needed. Thank u.
Okay first and foremost Welcome. You have came to a wonderful place for help.
Quting takes alot I Mean Alot of hard work and determination. I myself was clean for 1 year after taking 10 10mg Lortab for 2 and a half years. and YES it was the worst thing i have ever b een thr in my entire life.... I swear to that. I made a HUGE mistake and took 1 pill 6 months ago and here i am again. Fourtnately for me the WDS are not so bad this time..... Do I feel great No.. BUT this is what keeps me going... I KNOW it can be done because i did it before....i was happier in my clean time than I had been since I started taking the pills.... And yep I too am a Mommy of 2 litttle girls. What i went thru last time was absolutely awful, so i do know how you feel. If it were not for this site, I would have never made. Everything that I had to endure was worth every minute of it to get me "back to real life". I know you dont see that now, but you will in time.
Trust in this for support, it is amazing.
Start taking a daily vit, I also take b12 for metabolism.
If you are nausious there is an otc med called dramamine that works wonders
Ibuprofen for pain
GATORADE, GATORADE GATORADE........... i had to force it down, but again made a huge diff.
Immodium for Diarhea
And most importantly... Confidence, Determination and a positive attitude.
I promise every day gets better. Trust me I know how you feel!!!!!!
Pray your heart out and give the addiction to god to carry, ask for deliverance.
Post away, there are so many people here to help you through.
We all started out exactly where you are now, and many have overcome it, You can too.
My children are my Absolute motivation.
When I went through it the first time i detoxed at home..alone... w a 2 year old by myself.. Talk about tough... but i kept posting here and i got through it.
I swear to you that this will be the best decesion you will ever make, Not gonna lie though, it is hard. I am here willing to hold your hand the entire way!! But you have to be determined and willing.............. BIG HUGZ
Quting takes alot I Mean Alot of hard work and determination. I myself was clean for 1 year after taking 10 10mg Lortab for 2 and a half years. and YES it was the worst thing i have ever b een thr in my entire life.... I swear to that. I made a HUGE mistake and took 1 pill 6 months ago and here i am again. Fourtnately for me the WDS are not so bad this time..... Do I feel great No.. BUT this is what keeps me going... I KNOW it can be done because i did it before....i was happier in my clean time than I had been since I started taking the pills.... And yep I too am a Mommy of 2 litttle girls. What i went thru last time was absolutely awful, so i do know how you feel. If it were not for this site, I would have never made. Everything that I had to endure was worth every minute of it to get me "back to real life". I know you dont see that now, but you will in time.
Trust in this for support, it is amazing.
Start taking a daily vit, I also take b12 for metabolism.
If you are nausious there is an otc med called dramamine that works wonders
Ibuprofen for pain
GATORADE, GATORADE GATORADE........... i had to force it down, but again made a huge diff.
Immodium for Diarhea
And most importantly... Confidence, Determination and a positive attitude.
I promise every day gets better. Trust me I know how you feel!!!!!!
Pray your heart out and give the addiction to god to carry, ask for deliverance.
Post away, there are so many people here to help you through.
We all started out exactly where you are now, and many have overcome it, You can too.
My children are my Absolute motivation.
When I went through it the first time i detoxed at home..alone... w a 2 year old by myself.. Talk about tough... but i kept posting here and i got through it.
I swear to you that this will be the best decesion you will ever make, Not gonna lie though, it is hard. I am here willing to hold your hand the entire way!! But you have to be determined and willing.............. BIG HUGZ
Let me share a verse of extreme comfort:
1 Peter 5:10
After you have suffered a little while...God Himself... will strengthen and settle you.
All success lies outside of our comfort zone where Jesus waits holding out his hand.
1 Peter 5:10
After you have suffered a little while...God Himself... will strengthen and settle you.
All success lies outside of our comfort zone where Jesus waits holding out his hand.
Hi- I'm a mommy of 3 kids. Today I'm 24 days without the pills. You're right, it's tough, it feels like crap right now, but I promise you this. If you keep focusing on the negative, you will use again. This is what I did, I used the Thomas Recipe. I got all the things I needed: vitamins, minerals, bath gels and candles that were soothing to me. Then I wrote positive affirmations that I repeated
Nonstop like this won't last forever, I'll get better each day, and taking another lortab is not an option. Then I walked, walked, walked, sometimes several times a day even running. You must stay busy. It's hard and you'll have to make yourself, but it distracts you. Most importantly, I told my husband, two good friends, my doctor and therapist so I could have support and accountability. Then I threw away the lortab and cut off all ways of getting it. Live in the bathtub for the first few days if you need to. It helps. You won't sleep well for awhile and the restless legs are horrible. The baths and drinking tonic water helps that. As many have said, you must think positively and NOT focus on having a pill. Move forward into your new life that awaits you. Keep posting for support. Free yourself from the imprisonment of the drugs. Remind yourself that the wd's you face now is because of what the pills have done to your brain. It does get better. I promise! Instead of lying around with drugs in my body, I now exercise, keep my promises to my children, hear birds singing, becoming aware again, etc. You can do this too. Good Luck.
Nonstop like this won't last forever, I'll get better each day, and taking another lortab is not an option. Then I walked, walked, walked, sometimes several times a day even running. You must stay busy. It's hard and you'll have to make yourself, but it distracts you. Most importantly, I told my husband, two good friends, my doctor and therapist so I could have support and accountability. Then I threw away the lortab and cut off all ways of getting it. Live in the bathtub for the first few days if you need to. It helps. You won't sleep well for awhile and the restless legs are horrible. The baths and drinking tonic water helps that. As many have said, you must think positively and NOT focus on having a pill. Move forward into your new life that awaits you. Keep posting for support. Free yourself from the imprisonment of the drugs. Remind yourself that the wd's you face now is because of what the pills have done to your brain. It does get better. I promise! Instead of lying around with drugs in my body, I now exercise, keep my promises to my children, hear birds singing, becoming aware again, etc. You can do this too. Good Luck.
Thank u for responding and sharing. I agreed about me b'ing negative rt now and I'm truly out of character. I used to be fun and overall a happy person with a strong connection to God and my family. Recent lucid times I realized I spend as much time as I can alone even when at wk (close my office door) and in my room whenever possible when at home. My kids (have 6); youngest is 5 are awesome and love me so much. It's because of my love for them I'm quitting this addiction. They deserve to have me the real me at all times! This IS hard the hardest thing I've ever had to flight since it got a hold of my soul...and I will not let it take that any longer. I just wish I had support from my husband who can not give it for reasons shared in my earlier blogs. So people like yourself are all I have and to share my heart while I beat this.
Well I'm not a mommy but I'm a stay at home dad on day 25 off norco 10s. Just want u to know that it can be done. I went cold turkey from taking 6-12 a day. I did a small 4 day taper but it didn't help so I just said f it. It was rough but I feel pretty darn good now. I went and did my first 3 days of detox at my folks house then I had to come home and do my parenting duties from day 4 on. It was hard but I persevered. You can too. I'll give u a little time line of how my first 25 days went. I'll keep it short. First 4-6 days were brutal next 3-4 days were just blah no energy feeling sorry for myself( lots of Epsom baths.) restless legs and sleep were the worst part of it up until just 5 days ago. The odd thing is that even though I was on no sleep I seemed to have more energy than when I was medicating. I've been sleeping better the last few days. I only have cravings every other day or so and they only last a half hour or so. Get outside if ya can walk a bit. Just get by a week and you'll feel better every day forward(physically)I promise u that. Try to stay positive, I know it's hard but u seem to have a negative outlook on it all and that just makes it worse. It's a great thing that your doing it keep at it. Keep using these forums, they helped me greatly and they still are. Just read some older posts and you'll gain do much useful info on how to deal with it all. I know everyone says do it for yourself which is true but do it for your kids too. I just kept reminding myself that my kids don't need a pill popper for a father. I want to see them grow up and remember it too. As I'm sure you do too. Well good luck and I wish u the best in your decisions and recovery. Stay with it, it can be done.
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