Starting to turn

[overeasy]

Things seem to moving in a upward motion.  Its crazy how many years I gave up laughing, smiling, enjoying music, isolating all for a pill.  Wow,  I may not feel great but I do feel 100% better than I did on that ****.  My friends and family basically told me that they missed me.  My Dad cried and told me that he has seen me smile, laugh and joke more in the last 2 weeks than in the last 2 years.  They missed my silly stories, funny jokes and making them laugh.  I may have pain but it worth being myself again.  Its crazy that we are all so frightened when we start this journey but once you start to rediscover yourself it all makes sense and you wonder why you did not do it sooner.   As Peter Gabriel says (thanks for reintroducing this gem _ImDONEnoMore) "Don't give up, Cuz you have friends.  Don't give up, your not beaten yet.  Don't give up, I know you can make it good."  

Cheers-
Overeasy
riding day 18 (I have no idea why my ticker is off- have to fix that!!)

[dominosarah]

Energy and sleep are usually the last thing to come back but they do!!  It takes awhile so we have to patient!  Keep doing what you are doing.  Stay in the day~~sara

[Brisco77]

Amen sister!

[overeasy]

I am doing better- thanks so much for asking:)  Still- energy is a problem and I don't sleep as much as I used to but 6-7 hours /night is ok with me!  The energy thing, I think, is just going to take time so I am just pushing on through.  I took the girls to the zoo, childrens museum, butterfly house, rollerskating, Little Gym, beach, dinner, lunch and out for ice cream- they had really been good through this even though there were times I thought I was going to lose it- but that was more about me and less about them.  Anyways, so Im doing things I have been meaning to do for ages.  I take breaks and rest when I need to but thats ok.  The pain, that I am working on.  It is better and with the help of the chiroprator, acupunturist, herbalist and biofeed I am hoping for good results.

I try not to think that I won't be fully recovered for 90 days because, to be honest, that is just way to depressing and can lead to a bad choice.  I am just taking it as it comes.

[tgtiffany]

What other symptoms are you still having?  I hope not too many!!  Hope today was good for you :)  Remember to smile okay!!!  

[overeasy]

tgtiffany- tired and weary but ok.  My pain has leveled off and that really helps.  I am getting through and hope that it keeps getting brighter cuz Mommas tired:)

[tgtiffany]

How are you feeling today overeasy??

[overeasy]

freshstart- it is gradual but the good moments start adding up.  I was on alot of mgs and for over 3 years so I may take longer than you.  Hopefully, you start to feel better quicker.  

tinabe40- I had a lot of encouragement from the wonderful people on this site.  Look at what those with long clean times did and do it.  Use them as a inspiration.  They have been there- done it.  I am not special, I just wanted to get clean more than I wanted to use.  I am praying for you

[tinabe40]

Im happy you are beating this....I only hope i can be as strong as you

[gnarly_1]

HI I never came back after 16 1/2 yrs of addiction I forgot who I was butb threw recovery im a new man and that comes from my wife.......it takes a wile to learn how to live without narcotics when you use as long as I have but living in recovery is a beautiful place and I wouldent trad the man I am today for the one I once was recovery has a lot to do with self improvment self evaluation and the value of listing to a trusted freind and taking there advise when your wrong....I have said this a million times but the addict needs to change the very way we think and reson to overcome or desese ...I will always be a work in progress  hook up with some form of aftercare and you will find out for yourself good luck and God bless......Gnarly

[freshstart01]

How many days and when did u see the turning point????

[tgtiffany]

Glad to hear that you are doing well :)  And I bet hearing all those things from family and friends really has brought your spirits up even more and want you to stay clean!  You've got YOU back :)

[freshstart01]

Awesome. Did you have any rollercoaster of emotions? How did u or do u deal with them? Do u work? I find it's harder at work then home.