Im done

[Theresabuick]

It's been 8 days and im now just coming alive. It has been HELL in every aspect of this recovery, which i'm not new to addiction but i was clean from all drugs, I did time in prison 5 yrs to be exact in 1999 to 2003, I focused my whole recovery to living a normal life which i did until i was in a motorcycle accident in 2007, this is when my life once again started down that horrible ride you hate to get on but it feels so good. I never realized my addiction to percocets were really something i needed until i started to run out by taking to much. I only weigh 100 lbs and taking 15 percs 10's a day. I had a good job i was a manager of a restuarant which i loved and the people. Than i started stealing money to make this short upper management found out and i was fired. Did i blame them no, i was glad it finally happened and the day it happened is the last day i took a set of pills, 8 days now and those 1st 3 days i wanted to die, but im piucking up my shattered life and going to start this new year out right. I found this sight on my 3rd day and ive read everyone, and no one is any different than me we are all going through this same. no matter what dont give up ever

[lulu747]

Good for you!  Am very proud of you and your hard work....Keep it going...Lu

[Theresabuick]

Hi, You asked me what got me to the place im at now. I know through many A.A. and N.A classes in the past theres a core belief of what went wrong, this time i really don't know. But i do know this i am determined, my husband and I are now on our 2nd day of working out, and i mean hard work outs. Im still foggy i wish that would go away. I.m going to be working out non stop and by the new year i will go out and find another job and be just as good as i was before if not better, yea better because i will have nothing blurring my way, thanks for writing me i really like these post it makes me feel im not alone....

[dominosarah]

Glad you found us.  I really am impressed with your positive attitude.  Stick around, you will find a ton of support here.

[lulu747]

Good on you girl!  I am on day 21 and feeling better than ever.  As the wise people have said above me-positive attitude, honesty, and determination are some of the best tools that you can have in your tool kit(:  Aftercare is definitely a good idea.  Use this forum-it truly is a life saver.  I'm proud of you....Lu

[novics]

Hi, Teresa. I am on day 9, or almost the same time as you. Still having a lot of trouble sleeping, but I feel much better.

[rnangel]

Welcome! I'm glad you are coming back to life. Your humble attitude will serve you well in creating the life you want and deserve. Support groups, meetings and a sponsor are often last on the list once the detox period is over. Truth is we don't get far without it. I know many people who have been able to connect with new jobs this way. Showing that you are committed to your recovery shows others that you are indeed trustworthy. Try not to be hard on yourself. We are NOT our behavior. We are merely imperfect humans with vulnerabilities that make us unique. Learning more about yourself and what makes you vulnerable makes you a stronger person. Knowing what triggers the cycle of addiction and having a plan to nip it in the bud is a lifesaver.

I think your amazing. Your honesty is inspiring. I can hear gravity of your remorse when I read your post. You will get past this and rebuild. Sometimes we need to hit rock bottom so we have a solid foundation to build upon. Family can create all sorts of terrifying ultimatums...they never work. Fear and addiction go hand in hand. If anything, threats of abandonment will push us to use. A heartfelt decision to change can only be made by you. We want to see you make it and are here to support you in any way we can. Keep us posted and take care of yourself.

[IBKleen]

Hi & Welcome,

Your post really touched me. You have a great attitude and that is half the battle right there. Good for you!!!!

Since you stated that you are not new to addiction it begs the question "what will you do different this time?". Aside from the accident, what was missing that got you to where you are now? I guess what I am getting to is--Will you be doing any sort of aftercare this time?

Glad you found your way here and hope you stick around. There are a lot of good members here and it's a great place to get and stay clean.